Empowered By Sensitivity: What Type of Empath Are You?

Hi I am an empath for as long as I can remember. I get verbally abused a lot by people who project their feelings all the time on me. I have chronic ptsd. Still I’m brave and strong and get back out there anyone else get attacked constantly. So tired of it!

I truly believe I am in some way an empath. Precognitive, flora, fauna, and telepathic. The only way I could think to show this is through experiences. I’ve never had anyone to talk to about it, however. Idk what to do or how to hone the skills. Or if I am completely imagining things.. So here are my experiences, any feedback is most appreciated.

My girls (cats Tommie and Maxius) were three and four when I first felt I could confidently take them out side and that they would not leave my side. Aside from escaping through a fallen screen niether had never really been out for a walk. No leashes. They followed. Tommie was sprinting down hills with me within a week. Maxius preferred to chill for a few hours. When I took her to the forested area she would explore. If she got more then fifteen feet from she would meow, letting me know where she was and wondering why I wasn’t exploring(in the forest I would sometimes sit on a log to contemplate-I knew deep down she would stay close. She did. If she couldn’t see me she meowed. If I called her back she came.) this year, girls are 6 and 7, I got a boy. Zander. He was five weeks when I got him. Too young. I kept him with me for a few days bundled in my coat. When he was nine weeks I wanted to see if how he liked the outside. Again, I was confident he wouldn’t run. He followed me. I sat down for a while so he could be a curious cat. He was about four feet in front of me. As I sat there watching him, the thought had occurred that he was prey. I felt that the predator knew I was there and was deciding on wether to challenge my position and swoop the kitten. I thought no land animal would even consider challenging my position. It would have to be an owl, eagle or hawk. But I ain’t never seen an owl or an eagle in the wild and the likely hood that I would was slim. I was scared for my cats life however. Even if my mind was f*cking with me I didn’t want to chance it. I grabbed the cat, stand up and see the diving great horned owl divert to a tree. At this moment I was more excited that I am seeing an owl. So I walk to the tree it’s in and he flies five trees away. I follow it and agin it flies another five trees away. It hadn’t dawned on me until I had gotten inside that I felt the owl and its intentions without knowing-seeing- the owl. Am I crazy? Idk. Once, I was out bum used in a forested area near a stream. On the other side of the stream was a buck. I acknowledged its presence and likewise he acknowledged mine. He stood directly opposite me on the other side of the stream, stamping a hoof. My forest, my territory, he seemed to be saying. He didn’t charge but turned and slowly walked away after a few minutes of hoof stamping. I sat and listened to his intentions, trying to relay mine as non threatening and peaceful. He grazed a little then left. My grandmother has had a few birds in the past that would let none touch them or hold them. She had gotten them from people who never properly loved them so they were naturally scared of humans. I do not agree with birds as pets, but I cannot make decisions for my grandmother. I befriended the birds and gave them much love and attention. I was soon able to hold and them despite the fact she could not. Despite the fact I am not in their presence for a significant amount of time as she was. Dogs and horses always say hello. I am an avid gardener. I discovered last year wild carrot growing- Queen Anne’s Lace. A couple months after said discovery I was doing research on natural contraceptive, what was used before “the pill.” I found that the seeds of Queen Anne’s lace is said to be a powerful contraceptive. I do not believe in coincidence. Everything happens for a reason. Did the earth pull me to those wild carrots knowing what I would later learn? Or am I crazy? Most recently I have been having some wild dreams. I had a dream that their was a tornado. In this dream I knew it would destroy my house, there wasn’t anything I could do but get my cats and watch from out side as the tornado hurled my cousin’s house into mine. I interpreted the houses to represent the selfs and told her a couple days later that I believed there was a storm brewing within our relationship. A month later things went down and now we do not talk. I applied to get an internship. I later had a dream that I was being considered and was part of a group of people touring the field of the new job as a sort of “work interview” In the dream I took my shoes off. But when they wanted me to work I could only find one. I could not do the job with only one shoe and therefore was not chosen. In reality, I was not chosen. I am a server and feel I can read/feel the thoughts of both customers and coworkers alike. I honestly can’t stand being in an environment with so many people. Their thoughts and feelings are hard to deal with. But quite a few years ago I understood I needed to be able to communicate with humans better. So to learn I started serving. The first time I thought I read someone’s mind I didn’t say anything. I was new and didn’t truly know the menu. I was following and in training. A guest had asked me what they wanted. The first thing that came to mind was scallops, but I didn’t know if scallops were on the menu so kept my mouth shut to keep from being embarrassed and wrong in front of my trainer. They wanted the scallop appetizer. I once asked a bartender to quick pour a drink and that I would ring it in “no make” later. Ringing in the drink slipped my mind. I walked by the bartender mentally hearing “this b*tch hasn’t rung that drink in” I put the drink in. She looks at me and says, “you literally just read my mind.” There are too many instances of customers and coworkers alike telling me I read their mind. I once had a regular tell me stop reading his mind. I did it too much and he said there were things there I shouldn’t hear. I told him he was crazy. He just looked at me. If I’m not at work I generally avoid people. I am close with my family and a very select few. I think I can feel what others feel and sometimes hear what they think. But then I think I’m god-damned crazy. As of late, though, happenings seem to be a little to blatant in my face… Like something is telling me, yo, wake up. This is you. You can do this. Hone it. And now, I just dk. I dk how. Or maybe I’m crazy. Idk. Help. Idk what to think. Am I crazy?