Intuitive Empath Test: What Gifted Type Are You?

Ive known my whole life that i was different but untill a few years ago i didnt know what it was .. why i just knew things , why i would feel so depressed for no reason or a sense of sadness ,loss or great sorrow , how i could be a bartender but not like to go to big parties or be around a lot of people , why i couldnt find real love or feel like i wasnt lovable, to give everything and never get back or would deflect anyone willing to help and always putting on a smile to hide what i was feeling to not bring anyone down but always feeling overwhelmed, not allowing anyone in not sharing myself completely or being vulnerable , i think because fear of rejection or not really knowing who i am cause ive never been sure of if my thoughts or feelings where mine or something else. Feeling such loneliness yearning for that relationship for unconditional love the kind i would give yet afraid to open up because i know my empath abilities would ruin it cause i woyld sense everything good and bad and the unsaid would change my attitude or personality where as the non empath person in a relationship would not sense these times and there relationship would continue forward without the change of attitude that your partner would have no idea where it was coming from because they had no idea you were feeling , sensing or knowing there thoughts or emotions . And this is just a few things i deal with daily , i watch sad things on t.v and it drains me i belong to every animal rescue site and if i start my day on one of the sites i sit on my bed and cry for hours for these poor suffering animals wishing i could save all them or anyone..feeling no knowing when im around an animal i can tell u what they are thinking or feeling as if im reading there mind and they know it too. Cause the will look directly at me into my eyes as if they are wanting me to know .. its crazy and the older i get the stronger the burdens of being an intuitive empath become .. i have often wondered what it would be like to be “normal” i see friends and other people interacting in ways i cant in relationships i long to have but because i know things, feel things , read people even when i dont want even strangers , i feel when someone is thinking negative about me . People use to assume i was stuck up or thought i was too good but its just the opposite i am very self conscious and shy i guess yet i am a bartender im told all the time yet i feel like i am being judged or misread based on how i look and what is expected . I know i am like no other and for most it takes a few times of being around me to realize that i am authentic people seem to always question my integrity or are looking for ulterior motives to my kindness or helping others asking for nothing giving all etc . No one knows or would understand if i told them i am a full blown empath my heart is heavy but full of love to give i care more about others then myself i can give but hard to receive i love unconditionally and feel too much i dont know who i am or what i really want or need because i am always mistaking there feelings for mine or maybe they are mine i cant tell anymore .. im so confused as to where my life is going will i always feel alone , be alone , feel incomplete . I will work 50 hours a week sometimes just to keep busy and my mind free yet i need time to reflect but to much alone time or sitting with self can be overwhelming trying to make sense of things .. its christmas and this year it is harder then most i usually love christmas but im feeling heavy in heart i wake up with a pain in my gut that starts in center of my rib cage and radiates through out my entire gut chest shoulders sometimes been having this off and on for 20 years now but last cpl years it has become more frequent , doctors say probably something i ate .. (really ) .. anyways thank you for this site and for once being able to talk just alittle bit of only some of things i am going thru and how being an intuitive empath has effected my life .. or some of it .. there is so much more i could go on and on ..
I know i have got to figure out the best way to live with this and find my own happiness and stability and me in all the unknowning of the empath i am