The soul is not born; it does not die; it was not produced from anyoneย ; Unborn, eternal, it is not slain, though the body is slain.ย
– Katha Upanishad
I am certain that I have been here as I am now a thousand times before, and I hope to return a thousand times.ย
– Goethe
We observe the principles of reincarnation everywhere in life:ย the cycles of nature, day and night, the cyclic motion of the sun, earth, moon and solar system.ย We also see the principles of reincarnation reflected around us each day: a plant grows, dies and releases its seeds.ย Its seeds burrow into the earth, begin to sprout, and new life is reborn once again.
Reincarnation, or the rebirth of energy, or life, occurs all around us in different shapes and forms every day.ย Perhaps this is why to many of us reincarnation is something intuitive, something that resonates the very nature, the very essence of life.ย
We also see that our lives, and everything around us, follows a fundamental pattern; that of change, growth, transformation, and evolution.ย We see that all of life goes through a maturing process at different rates and different velocities.ย Thus to many of us, the maturation process of the soul through the process of reincarnation sounds just as instinctively and fundamentally correct as any other maturing process in life.
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Not only that, but some of us have experienced extraordinary feelings, memories and sensations that point to the legitimacy of such a mysterious experience.ย We will be exploring many different signs that you might have touched the โother sideโ in this article.
Past Lives and โYourโ Soul
The doctrine of metempsychosis is, above all, neither absurd nor useless … It is not more surprising to be born twice than once; everything in nature is resurrection.ย – Voltaire
Known also as โmetempsychosisโ and โtransmigrationโ, Reincarnation and the concept of past lives has existed for thousands of years, spanning back to the ancient Celtic, Greek, Asian and Indian traditions.ย These days, about 51% of the worldโs population believe in some form of an afterlife, with about 7% believing that we are ultimately reincarnated.
One of the most intrinsic beliefs of reincarnation is that most of us have lived many lives before, and sometimes we can actually remember these past lives.ย These past lives and past โselvesโ we tend to identify with as extensions of ourselves and our egos.
However, as Mateo elaborated in a previous article on reincarnation:
Reincarnation of an โindividual selfโ is only as possible to the extent of believing that your sense of โselfโ – your ego – is real.ย Two identities who are dwelling within two different physical bodies in the present, or in the past, will be two very distinct personalities.ย In truth, the โIโ is a transitioning, ever-changing phenomenon.ย Although our identities and senses of self are ever-changing, there is something that remains the same.ย There is something within us that is constant and continuous and that is pure awareness.ย It is this very pure awareness which serves as the experiencer and observer of life, and it is this pure awareness that we can refer to as โourโ Soul โฆ This understanding of reincarnation closely resembles that of the Buddhist idea that the continuity continues, but the individual disappears.
So although it is not necessarily โyouโ or โmeโ who has experienced reincarnation and past lives, the ever-present soulful essence within us has.
12 Signs Your Soul Has Reincarnated
When we understand reincarnation as the maturation process, or evolution, of soulful energy, it follows that some of us have intuitively experienced different things in our lives that reflect on the age of the energy known as our souls.ย
It is commonly believed that many of our personal characteristics, experiences and capabilities in this life reflect on whether we have lived before on earth.ย It is thought that the more we mature, the more gifted we are in certain areas of life and the more often we go through spiritual awakening experiences.
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The truth is that all of us have most likely reincarnated, however, some of us have gone through this cycle more than others and therefore experience many of the following characteristics:
1.ย Recurring Dreams
Dreams are reflections of the unconscious mind, and while repetitive dreams may sometimes signify trauma, fear or issues that your brain is trying to process (โunfinished businessโ), repetitive dreams can also potentially be reflections of past life experiences.ย Many people claim to have experienced certain events, seen particular people or gone to specific places frequently in their dreams that feel very familiar, and somehow recognizable.ย For example, I often have recurring dreams of a 15th century castle that I have a distinct feeling of knowing very well, yet I have never seen or been to this castle before in waking life.
ย 2.ย Out-of-place Memories
There are many recorded instances of young children who have out-of-place memories that later prove to be oddly accurate in detail.ย While out-of-place memories could be due to simple fantasies, misunderstandings or an incongruency in the ability to remember, there is mounting evidence that suggests out-of-place memories could reveal connections to past lives.
3.ย You Have a Strong Intuition
Intuition is the ability to balance the conscious and unconscious mind and to tap into our deeper wellsprings of primal wisdom and innate knowledge.ย It is said that the more we soulfully mature, the more we are closer to returning to the โsourceโ (known also as nirvana, eternity, oneness) from which our Souls come from, and from which the collective unconsciousย – a body of universal knowledge – exists.
4.ย Dรฉjร vu
Weโve all experienced dรฉjร vu before at some point in our lives.ย Itโs that bizarre feeling that somehow we have already experienced or lived a moment in time before.ย Often dรฉjร vu comes spontaneously, and is triggered by smells, sounds, sights, tastes and various other sensations.ย While some claim that dรฉjร vu is a neurological dissonance, others claim that dรฉjร vu reflects the possibility of other dimensions (i.e. parallel universes), and still others believe it is revealing of past life experience.
5.ย Youโre an Empath
Empaths absorb the emotions, and in some instances the physical pains, of those around them literally empathizing, or directly feeling and experiencing what others experience.ย In this article aboutย Empaths I go into greater depth about this unique breed of people.ย While identifying as an Empath and absorbing the emotions of others could be seen in some instances as a psychological form of avoidance to bypass oneโs own problems and pin the blame on others, in other genuine cases it can be seen as a sign of a soul that has undergone many previous reincarnations and has refined to the point of transcending the individual self and itโs problems, extending to others as well.
6.ย Precognition
Also known as โfuture sightโ or โsecond sightโ, precognition is the ability to obtain information about future events that isn’t usually available.ย Precognition can be experienced through visions, physical sensations and feelings as well as in dreams.ย While considered quasi-scientific by some, to others precognition is a very real experience and could indicate the maturation of soulful energy.
7.ย Retrocognition
You probably guessed it!ย Retrocognition is the opposite of the above precognition, and refers to the ability to obtain information not usually available about past events.ย These past events could be in your own lifetime, or sometime in the distant past.ย Of course, retrocognition unlike precognition is not easy to prove or verify, however, for those who have genuinely experienced it (and have been able to honestly verify it), this ability could also be a sign of soulful reincarnation.
8.ย You Feel Older Than Your Age Reflects
Some people are perpetually โyoung at heartโ even into their later lives, and in the same manner,ย some people just seem to have been born with โOld Soulsโ.ย The experience of feeling older than your age reflects is commonly associated with having reincarnated many times over and this is echoed in the โSoul Ageโ theory where there is a certain progression of soulful development: from Infant Souls, to Awakened Souls.ย For example: if you have reincarnated few times on earth, this would be reflected in the age of your energy, and in this life you will display many primitive and child-like characteristics.ย If, however, your soulful energy has reincarnated many times over, you will display many matured and wizened characteristics (such as the ones mentioned in this article).ย If you feel older than your age reflects you might be a an Old Soul.
9.ย You Have a Great Affinity for Certain Cultures/Time Periods/Environments
It is said that having a great, unexplainable attraction for certain cultures or time periods is a kind of past life โresidueโ reminiscent of a certain place, culture or environment that your soul may have experienced in past lives.ย For instance, you may have an inexplicable affinity to Asian culture, Celtic artifacts, or the 19th century.
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10.ย Unexplainable Fears or Phobias
As touched on in the last point, many believe that certain memories or experiences can pass on or leave โresiduesโ in our childhoods and adulthoods from past lives.ย Whether this is true, or is simply a form of problem bypassing, many believe that we can experience the echoes of past traumas in our own lifetimes in the form of unexplainable fears and phobias.ย Examples can include:ย the fear of drowning, the fear of certain types of animals, the fear of certain places, the fear of particular numbers, colors, objects, and so forth.
11.ย You Feel as Though this Earth Is Not Your Home
The yearning to find your โhomeโ can be seen as a reflection of the desire to return back to the source (oneness, consciousness, divinity).ย Many people feel this yearning to be reminiscent of an athlete running a long race and longing to reach the โfinish lineโ.ย In the same manner, Souls that have reincarnated many times over express this basic need for finally completing the cycle and returning home.ย Feeling that this earth is not your home is often accompanied by chronic feelings of tiredness and wariness for life on earth.
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Could you relate to any of these signs?ย Do you have any of your own to share?ย I hope, if anything, this article could offer you another doorway of explanation for what you experience in life.ย Reincarnation is a mysterious topic, and Iโd love if you could share your own experiences with past lives below.
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Iโve always had a weird fascination with the Holocaust and WWII for some reason. In the fifth grade when I was assigned a project about it, I felt oddly connected to it, as if I wanted to be back in that time… even though most definitely wouldnโt. I always had an irrational fear of becoming bald, like I would have night terrors about my hair being gone. I also have had many flash backs to weird things like some kind of strange porridge that makes me super ill to think about. I also went to the Holocaust museum once and felt like I โbelongedโ there. Mind you, I was 12 and I wasnโt super into history or anything. I also remember getting handed a card for an actual victim of the Holocaust while I was there and I said aloud without thinking โNo, this isnโt me. I had dark brown hair.โ (This girl had lighter hair). And I ran past the tour guide into the box of victim cards in a frantic manner trying to find โme.โ When I think about that time period, I feel very nostalgic and a tug on my heart like I want to go back or something. Also, in the Holocaust museum, kids were crying and people were becoming ill, but I stood there as if I was not phased by anything. Often when I hear things about that time, I feel as if I know everything about it. Iโm not sure why, and I know itโs a stretch to say it, but I think I may have been a Holocaust victim in a past life.
Omg… this sounds so familiar. I remember when I first time read about holocaust at school.. In my history book there was only couple sentence of it and 1 little picture of prisoners, but I just have to read it over and over again (and look at that picture) beacuse it felt that it’s is really important to me. I tried to find more info about it but there was no more (at least in my book). To this day this whole ww2 and holocaust subject just keeps pulling me to study it more and more… sometimes it bothers me, specialy when I was teenager, beacuse I was embarrassed to hav intrest for nazi-germany and holocaust (and still I am). I knew that girls my ages should be interested in boys and make-ups and not subjects like this. And back then I was really worried that I will grow out to be neonazi but thank God I didn’t turnout to be like that :D
This is so very interesting! I’d love to be friends and discuss dreams and past lives. Add me on Facebook? “Alexa Baynton”
Early as I remember I was coming down from the sky. Felt nothing, looking face 1st as I was being moved since I had no control. I go to ground and through a wall which where I lived to the hallway then…everything goes black for like 10 seconds. I stood there infront of a mirror not knowing anything about me nor family . Am I reincarnation?
Hey!!
That’s your memory which your unconscious mind showed you. It’s the period when your soul was transported to another body.
Nd believe me it’s true, yes u have reincarnated.
(Yeah, sorry my english, it’s not my best skill)
This topic is something I hav been thinking about lot recently…
I havn’t had any re-occured dreams or (at least I think i haven’t) had past life memories as child or anything else for thhat matter but I DO have this weird fixation towards certain period and country. Ever since I was 13 year old I felt strong pull towards one period/country and I don’t have no idea where this obsession came from. That time I didn’t even like history or even reading books but I just HAVE TO read about this subject. My family and my friends didn’t understand my intrest for it but neather did I :/ And after 15 years my obsesson hadn’t changed… Sometimes I got this feeling of almost like homesickness. I cannot explain why I feel this way and it’s bothering me …. I hav read hundreds of books about it and seen as many documents and still can’t get enough of it … I am really skeptical towards religious and paranormal stuffs so I cannot say I really actually belive past lifes but sometimes I play around with idea beavuse it would explain this feeling that I don’t understand otherwise. But I know everything is possible in this world. I have strong intuition witch has told me things that will happen and sometimes what to do then. Feel I get in those moments are just 100% pure knowing that this is something what WILL happen. I don’t often get these but when I do they turn out to be right, always. One time when I wasn’t going to do as my intuition had told it came back to warn that I will regret if I don’t follow it’s advice. And thank god i did.
But it has been real eye opener for me beacuse really I didn’t before belive paranormal stuffs but now I just have to :’)
So sometimes I hav wondered if this odsesson is my intuitions way tell me that there is something what I should learn about …?
Iโve been having re-occurring dreams about an old house and a suitcase. These are often followed by a vision of a little girl running down a crowded country lane carrying the same suitcase and a lot of shouting in what seems like polish. Then loud bangs and flashes of light. Recently, during a lesson on enigma machines, I experienced a lot of shivering and strange waves of nausea. I also knew a lot of things I shouldnโt about war time code breaking ect. and I didnโt know what an enigma machine was, but knew what it looked like. This article was very helpful.
After reading this article, I have remembered so much from so many past lives… I started meditating and astral traveling to see these past lives and so much knowledge of these lives has come back to me. My husband and I have known each other in many of our lives. I remember a death by shark, though I never was around sharks, Iโve always been terrified of them. One bit my face off in a past life. I also fell off a bridge onto a cobblestone road in old Italy, chasing a thief. Which explains why I am so good at cooking Italian food, though I was never taught how, which baffles many Italian mothers. I even remember things that happened before I was ever conceived that both my mother and my grandmother have confirmed to actually be real for those time periods. I thought I was just crazy and had weirdly specific dreams all this time, this article brings me a lot of comfort.
You are right. Ive being looking for ways to find ans to my questions about another life or world or maybe just somewhere i feel like home. I love my family so much and Im happy here too. It just feels empty to me and I want to go home. I wish i knew the ans to what am I suppose to do to complete my cycle here to go back home. I know in my gut somehow that i have a home, somewhere in the back of my memories i know i do. If i am reincarnated again then its for a reason and im meant to learn something or complete something but im too tired and home-sick. I dont like how empathic i am. Its too draining and people around are so negative its exhausting absorbing their auras even if i dont talk to them. I have a feeling in my previous life I was a korean country pumpkin. I am obsessed with their culture esp the outer areas of Korea, food, language and environment, south Korea esp. I have a major fear of snakes and i dont remember ever seeing one just heard stories of them. I have this weird habit that i do it occassionally or more once a week i would type up weird things on google relating to topics like this to see if they have any suggestions or just random articles about how to go about going back home LOL. Not like i even know where that is but i do it anyways.
Sorry. What I have to say is not really about the topic but just fyi. The expression is “country bumpkin” not pumpkin. Unless of course you were a vegetable in past life. And it’s “answer ” not ans.
So, I have always felt so out of place. I was convinced at a young age my soul was put into the wrong body. & then I believed that maybe “hell” is actually life on earth where souls reincarnate & live the “journey” until they are “allowed” into heaven. My soul has definitely been through allot of things. I’ve struggled to find my purpose in life, I’m so passionate about everything &have very few weaknesses. So I’m capable of just about anything as far as careers. A life without purpose means I’m only destined for greatness on a spiritual level. My mission& journey is to put this soul to rest by being righteous & having faith. Right my wrongs. It’s like I’m constantly going thru trials as if it’s somebody else’s actual test but I’m just the one who has to pass it. Always wonder why things happen to “me”. My soul must have been pretty fucked up in a past life. But we are getting through it. I definitely believed I was suppose to be born into a black body. But to be able to find peace in this madness is truly beautiful. I truly am a Lotus Flower.
I think I have dreams of my past life, because in every dream it’s like I am living another life, I have a different name, I look completely different, and I actually have friends and a family. In my dreams I’m 18 or 19 and sometimes when I wake up from a nightmare of my past self going through something traumatic it doesn’t feel like a dream, it feels more like a memory. When I have dreams like that I remember the feeling as if it were real, which caused my depression in real life… I’m 14 btw.
I said dream 5 times :p.
I think that my soul is trying to find its way back home, because Iยดve felt lost and rootless so many times. Like I dont know where I belong…Sometimes I can FEEL exactly where I belong, or where I have lived before, or who I have been. But it would sound completely insane to most people, so I keep it to myself.. At the same time I have this need to talk about this stuff, I cant let it go because it is such a magical feeling.. To knowโฆ Luckily I have this friend, who I can tell everything to. and I think he has lived on this earth since the beginning. Well we all have! we just forgetโฆ But when I hear certain songs and melodies, smell certain smells and feel certain energies..then my soul remembersโฆ I am born and raised in Sweden, by Swedish parents, but I feel like I dont have just ONE language. or just ONE nationality. My heart speaks fluent love. And when I visit other countries, I can feel such a strong connection. Like I have been there before, in another life. But still as myself. Always as myself. And wherever I have been , wherever I have lived in the past, I have struggled. I have been forced to wrestle the devil, over and over again. I have been stomped on, hated and even feared. My heart is always bleeding for those who are weak, those who cant defend themselves. Both animals and humans. A brave girl who wants justice. A strong, sensual woman with a pure heart, burning with desire. A warrior, not afraid to stand in the frontline. A defender, a fighter and a survivor, no matter what. That is who I am, and who I have always been. Mostly I only see my own flaws, but I have come to realize that I have a divine light in my heart, and that I am actually a goddess awakening. And as soon as I post this, I am gonna feel so very rediculous, again, for talking about myself this way. But right now I dont care! Because I need to keep going, I need to love myself to be able to do what I am here for. And that is, I believe, to be a shelter from the storm for others in need. Sometimes, I feel like I can take anything. Nothing or no one can get pass me. I am here to stay. Love and the divine light is going to win. Hate and fear donยดt stand a chance. Together we are just too many. Wars will end, money cant blind people forever.
I am my fathers and my mothers daughter. And my brothers are always by my side. So are those who have died before me. I can feel the presence of ghosts, I know they want to walk with me. They want me to set them free..
“Carry me to the hill, to the top of Yggdrasil”..
I love mythology, both northern, Greek.. And I am drawn to Celtic culture.
I am so grateful for every lesson I get the chance to learn, everyday.
I often doubt what I am feeling, my intuition. I tell myself that it is only in my imagination, it is just thoughts. But why does the feelings and the thoughts keep coming back?
There are some women in our history, that I feel connected to in a strange way that I cant explain.. And I dont dare to tell anyone either. It just wont leave my mind.
One of them was called Lola Montez, a dancer and actress born in Ireland 1821..
Another one is Santa Lucia from Sicilyโฆ
I also get this vage feeling that I was a victim during the “witch hunting” – period a long time agoโฆ
And maybe the most secret connection (or what to call it) of them all: virgin Mary!
All of those women experienced extreme pain and so much suffering, they saw others suffer and die. They were victims of unfair treatment, violation, disrespect and more.
Just like I have been experiencing all of those things in this life, but in other ways. Ok, maybe we can see and recognize ourselves in others becouse it makes us feel better and all that, BUT this is something more. I mean, I dont even know where it comes from, or why it “talks” to me…
For example, the song “Lola Montez” by a band called Volbeat, the song that they wrote in her honor. It affects me so deep, and that confuses me.. I love it though.
I also love reading about zodiak signs. Mine and others. My Chinese zodiak is the fire tiger (I am born 1986). And my astrological sign is the virgin. So, strong and sensitive at the same time, I guess.
My name “Camilla” is a latin name which means “acolyte” (young cult officiant). Someone whos duty is to serve others, I think..
Have to stop myself now, the ego is taking to much space.
Thank you for being there!
Light and love to you.
For several years now I have seen the “end” of my life whether it be death, incarceration, suicide, murdered by another or a combination of these and yet I remain. Continuously I feel Deja Vu when these events supposedly happened yet they do not and I am still here. I am definitely a very very old soul and feel I do not belong on this earth. I have had dreams and/or visions that appear to be me drawn to a portal of sorts into space or something pulling me away from the earth yet I “choose to stay” for the very few people I have left in this world and I have a strong sense of love and passion for. I can stand calm in the midst of an angry crowd or group of people who are spontaneously acting rash and have a clear understanding of the situation. I’ve always been able to find a resolution to many people’s problems yet can never seem to figure out my own. I analyze everything at an exponential rate and can find the cause, effect, solution, and resolution of many problems instantly yet other days I am completely oblivious to time itself and wonder how the hell I went through the day and have no recollection of it at all not even of what I ate no matter how hard I try to remember. I’ve traveled from Houston, TX to Chicago,IL at times passing out at the wheel clocking the time prior and opening my eyes to me driving mid turn 3-4 minutes later as if I was in the passenger seat and someone else was operating the vehicle; eyes wide open yet I feel I haven’t yet “booted up” into my body and then finally I do and then I take over. I’ve passed out in a bathtub and awoke underwater without the need to breathe and just sat there with my eyes open not gasping for air. Then after a while of realizing I am not even breathing its like the timer for me holding my breath begins and then I jump up out from under the water to take a breath but it’s as if I have only been under water for a few seconds. I have had instances where I remember dating my girlfriend (I am currently single and this has happened in my past 3 relationships) and I remember a situation we were in exactly and have literally answered aloud exactly what they were going to say and it freaked them out and got them thinking I was some kind of mind reader. I feel a connection beyond explanation, like static or energy based; whenever I actually am connecting with another person; but its like I am syncing up with their mind to where I respond for them exactly as they were going to, including tone and all but they never had the chance to speak. Honestly this shit kind of freaks me out but at the same time in my mind it is expected and I remain calm as if I already know. I have been able to do things or understand how something works yet i have never touched the thing in my life. For instance, I once took apart a broken electronic, found the issue, fixed it, then afterwards i had no idea what I even did to get it working but it was working; this was for a friend and when they wanted to know how i fixed it, as they were efficient with electronic repair, I had no answer nor clue. I was working out in the field one rainy day for a big corporate company and some crack head was lingering and I’m pretty sure he was trying to jack me and I was standing next to this gold Oldsmobile and as he was coming up behind me a lightning bolt literally struck the car and i could feel its vibration and the car was shaking from being struck. It didn’t startle me but dude looked at me freaking TF out and ran. I just continued on with my day. Lately I feel as if I am not in control of who I am and I am just floating and waiting for something. I feel as if I was meant to be here on this earth in this time and some big worldly change or event is going to happen and I am to be here when it does. I once hung myself from a tree when i was 11 with an actual noose and I picked the youngest, strongest tree that had wet, green wood that you couldn’t bend, break, or even take an ax to without extraneous effort and when i was getting that tunnel vision prior to passing out and the light was fading and going black. The branch, which was 3 times the width of my body, just shattered to pieces like it was a dead tree crumbling under my step. I reached down at the fragments of wood to find the young, damp, strong green wood pieces. I couldn’t rip it apart, break it over my knee or on the tree trunk, nor could i cut it in half with an ax until many, many attempts and all this was done after regaining my strength from the event. I know I’m all over the place with the stories but I can’t make this shit up nor am I the type of person to tell false tales. I literally talk of events in my life and apparently it amazes people; especially from the fact that after all the fucked up shit I’ve endured I am still smiling and quite optimistic. Lately, however, I have been feeling really low though there is a fire within me that tells me to keep pushing forward with a smile on my face. I honestly do not understand how the hell I am still alive after several situations I have found myself in where I should straight up be dead. 9 Year Veteran of the Army, foster kid since 3, abandoned at 15, no real family or support system, and the list goes on. I am grateful for the simple fact that I have life and don’ t really feel the need for much else. Throughout all the strife and hardships I can say that I have always been blessed. I am straight up poor AF but have somehow been living quite luxurious considering. I have absolutely no idea.
For several years now I have seen the “end” of my life whether it be death, incarceration, suicide, murdered by another or a combination of these and yet I remain. Continuously I feel Deja Vu when these events supposedly happened yet they do not and I am still here. I am definitely a very very old soul and feel I do not belong on this earth. I have had dreams and/or visions that appear to be me drawn to a portal of sorts into space or something pulling me away from the earth yet I “choose to stay” for the very few people I have left in this world and I have a strong sense of love and passion for. I can stand calm in the midst of an angry crowd or group of people who are spontaneously acting rash and have a clear understanding of the situation. I’ve always been able to find a resolution to many people’s problems yet can never seem to figure out my own. I analyze everything at an exponential rate and can find the cause, effect, solution, and resolution of many problems instantly yet other days I am completely oblivious to time itself and wonder how the hell I went through the day and have no recollection of it at all not even of what I ate no matter how hard I try to remember. I’ve traveled from Houston, TX to Chicago,IL at times passing out at the wheel clocking the time prior and opening my eyes to me driving mid turn 3-4 minutes later as if I was in the passenger seat and someone else was operating the vehicle; eyes wide open yet I feel I haven’t yet “booted up” into my body and then finally I do and then I take over. I’ve passed out in a bathtub and awoke underwater without the need to breath and just sat there with my eyes open not gasping for air. Then after a while of realizing I am not even breathing its like the timer for me holding my breath begins and then I jump up out from under the water to take a breath but it’s as if I have only been under water for a few seconds. I have had instances where I remember dating my girlfriend (I am currently single and this has happened in my past 3 relationships) and I remember a situation we were in exactly and have literally answered aloud exactly what they were going to say and it freaked them out and got them thinking I was some kind of mind reader. I feel a connection beyond explanation, like static or energy based; whenever I actually am connecting with another person; but its like I am syncing up with their mind to where I respond for them exactly as they were going to, including tone and all but they never had the chance to speak. Honestly this shit kind of freaks me out but at the same time in my mind it is expected and I remain calm as if I already know. I have been able to do things or understand how something works yet i have never touched the thing in my life. For instance, I once took apart a broken electronic, found the issue, fixed it, then afterwards i had no idea what I even did to get it working but it was working; this was for a friend and when they wanted to know how i fixed it, as they were efficient with electronic repair, I had no answer nor clue. I was working out in the field one rainy day for a big corporate company and some crack head was lingering and I’m pretty sure he was trying to jack me and I was standing next to this gold Oldsmobile and as he was coming up behind me a lightning bolt literally struck the car and i could feel its vibration and the car was shaking from being struck. It didn’t startle me but dude looked at me freaking TF out and ran. I just continued on with my day. Lately I feel as if I am not in control of who I am and I am just floating and waiting for something. I feel as if I was meant to be here on this earth in this time and some big worldly change or event is going to happen and I am to be here when it does. I once hung myself from a tree when i was 11 with an actual noose and I picked the youngest, strongest tree that had wet, green wood that you couldn’t bend, break, or even take an ax to without extraneous effort and when i was getting that tunnel vision prior to passing out and the light was fading and going black. The branch, which was 3 times the width of my body, just shattered to pieces like it was a dead tree crumbling under my step. I reached down at the fragments of wood to find the young, damp, strong green wood pieces. I couldn’t rip it apart, break it over my knee or on the tree trunk, nor could i cut it in half with an ax until many, many attempts and all this was done after regaining my strength from the event. I know I’m all over the place with the stories but I can’t make this shit up nor am I the type of person to tell false tales. I literally talk of events in my life and apparently it amazes people; especially from the fact that after all the fucked up shit I’ve endured I am still smiling and quite optimistic. Lately, however, I have been feeling really low though there is a fire within me that tells me to keep pushing forward with a smile on my face. I honestly do not understand how the hell I am still alive after several situations I have found myself in where I should straight up be dead. 9 Year Veteran of the Army, foster kid since 3, abandoned at 15, no real family or support system, and the list goes on. I am grateful for the simple fact that I have life and don’ t really feel the need for much else. Throughout all the strife and hardships I can say that I have always been blessed. I am straight up poor AF but have somehow been living quite luxurious considering. I have absolutely no idea.
Mind some of the typos and misspelling if you will please.