Going through a spiritual awakening is one of the most confusing, lonely, alienating, but also supremely beautiful experiences in life.
Put simply, spiritual awakenings mark the beginning of your initiation on the spiritual path. Without experiencing a spiritual awakening, we go throughout life pursuing the emptiness of money, fame, power, and respect in an attempt to find “happiness.”
The unsettling and equally beautiful thing about spiritual awakenings is that they occur at the least expected times. There is no way you can plan for them. They lurch into your life and shake everything up like tornadoes. But the hidden gift buried deep within them is that they occur at the precise time that you need them the most.
Spiritual awakenings are the soul’s cry for freedom.
Listen to its call and your life will be transformed into something meaningful and significant.
Refuse its call and your life will be like a graveyard.
If you have experienced a spiritual awakening, you have come to see through the lies and illusions of this world. Deep in your soul, you realize that nothing external has ever, and can ever, bring you true happiness or fulfillment. This profound realization leaves you craving for something richer, more fulfilling, and something that will make you feel whole once again.
If you’re looking for answers, if you’re thirsting for a direction in life, this page will share with you everything you need to know. On this page, you will find all the possible resources you need for the beginning of your journey including what spiritual awakening is, common spiritual awakening symptoms, and much more.
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Table of contents
- What is a Spiritual Awakening?
- My Experience With the Spiritual Awakening Process
- Why Did Your Spiritual Awakening Happen?
- What Triggers the Spiritual Awakening Process?
- The Dark Night of the Soul & Awakening
- 7 Spiritual Awakening Stages
- 23 Spiritual Awakening Signs and Symptoms
- Physical Spiritual Awakening Symptoms
- 3 Spiritual Awakening Myths
- Spiritual Awakening Q&A
- Spiritual Awakening and Inner Work
- Spiritual Awakening Book
What is a Spiritual Awakening?
What is the meaning of ‘spiritual awakening’?
When we undergo a spiritual awakening (also known as spiritual ascension), we literally “wake up” to life. We begin to question our old beliefs, habits, and social conditioning, and see that there is much more to life than what we have been taught.
It is common to ask questions such as, “Why am I here?” “What is the purpose of my life?” “What happens after death?” “Why do good people suffer?” and other questions that examine the fundamental nature of life during your awakening. Spiritual awakenings stir the deepest and most significant questions within us that we have been putting off asking or have been too scared to touch.
If you’ve experienced a spiritual awakening, you might crave to find the meaning of your life and whether there is a “higher state” of being. Searching for God, or for the Divine, is a common desire during this experience.
My Experience With the Spiritual Awakening Process
I experienced the beginnings of my spiritual awakening in 2010. At that time, I was deeply brainwashed and trapped in a world of cultish teachings from the fundamentalist Christian church I was born into.
But something was eating away at me. I began to doubt, question, and sense that there was way more to life than my indoctrinated outlook, and I felt deeply lost and alone. I had no one outside of the church that I felt comfortable talking to about my feelings. I had no true friends to confide in – and my family didn’t understand – or rather, didn’t want to. As a result, I felt so alienated and suffocated with loneliness that I developed depression, health issues, OCD, and chronic anxiety, the latter lasting for many years.
Like Neo in the movie The Matrix, I was being offered the red and blue pill. Should I continue taking the blue pill and remain in my comfortable ignorance? Or should I take the red pill and be free (but experience the pain of waking up)?
Long story short, I chose the red pill. It wasn’t easy at first. I would often carry the unshakable sensation that I was falling endlessly through a void of darkness. The Dark Night of the Soul descended quickly upon me. And ultimately, I had no fucking idea what was happening and thought for sure I was losing it (or would burn in hell for eternity).
But it was WORTH all the pain and sacrifice. No regret. The amount of growth, love, transformation, and freedom I’ve experienced since choosing the ‘red pill’ has been totally mind-blowing, life-changing, and unfathomably profound.
Why Did Your Spiritual Awakening Happen?
So, why do spiritual awakenings happen in the first place?
Spiritual awakenings happen as a natural product of your Soul evolving, expanding, and maturing. Just as everything in life grows, so too does our connection with our Souls.
The more you connect to your Soul (whether accidentally or intentionally), the more you experience transformation. The more you come to embody your Soul, the more you taste true and lasting joy, peace, fulfillment, freedom, and love.
While the spiritual awakening process can feel painful and disturbing at first, it ultimately helps you to live a more meaningful life. The sensation that your life doesn’t make sense anymore is the product of having all of your former beliefs, desires, and paradigms challenged and often disproven. This is traumatic, but a necessary part of your expansion.
What Triggers the Spiritual Awakening Process?
You might be curious to know what activates spiritual awakenings.
The answer is that innumerable circumstances can trigger this process! There really is no one answer.
Spiritual awakenings can happen at any moment or period in your life. They can be spontaneous, but they can also be triggered by major life changes, illnesses, tragedies, and traumas such as life-threatening illnesses, car accidents, divorces, war, midlife crises, and much more.
Awakening can also happen due to your temperament. For instance, you might be an old soul or a sensitive empath by nature (these types of people are more ‘plugged into’ the transcendent side of life). Furthermore, for some people, spiritual awakenings are even triggered by deep but challenging twin flame relationships.
Generally speaking, the spiritual awakening process happens in conjunction with an experience known as The Dark Night of the Soul.
The Dark Night of the Soul & Awakening
If you’re highly sensitive to the suffering of others and are a deep thinker by nature, it is possible that you have gone through, or are currently going through, a Dark Night of the Soul.
The Dark Night of the Soul is a period in life when we feel completely cut off from God or the Divine. The more aware you become of your disconnection from the Divine, the more chances you have of experiencing a Dark Night of the Soul.
Going through a Dark Night of the Soul is profoundly entwined with the process of spiritual awakening. Before seeing the light (i.e. spiritually awakening) we must “walk through the valley of the shadow of death” in order to prepare our minds and hearts for the conscious upgrade.
Just think about the analogy of getting dressed. In order to put on new clothes, you must take off the old ones. That, in a nutshell, is essentially what the Dark Night of the Soul is about. The old must be stripped away in order to make way for the new. This means that the suffering you experience during the Dark Night of the Soul is for a purpose – and that is the destruction of the old (outdated beliefs, identities, habits) to pave way for fresh ways of being.
This life is a cycle of birth and death. As such, going through the Dark Night is not a pretty or manicured experience – at its core, it’s raw, primal, and the most difficult experience known to humanity. Everything is stripped away from you. There is no light, no clarity, and no peace. But please know that it is a stage, and like everything in life, it will naturally fade.
There are ways of speeding up the Dark Night (like doing inner work) which we have explored on this website extensively. I have gone through a bleak and chaotic Dark Night of the Soul, and let me tell you, inner work is vital. It’s kind of like the difference between letting your old clothes just fall off you (which is a long, unhygienic, and tiresome process) or actively pulling them off and throwing them to the wind yourself.
Signs you might be experiencing a Dark Night of the Soul (along with a spiritual awakening) include the following:
- You feel isolated from everything (others, yourself, life in general)
- You feel abandoned by god/the divine
- Your mood is almost always low and melancholic
- You’re lost and don’t know which direction is right
- You feel despair and horror when observing the world
- You feel a sense of existential dread
- You feel deep tiredness in your bones
- You lack the motivation to keep doing what you used to
- You’ve lost interested in most things
- You keep pondering the deep questions of life (e.g. “what is the purpose?”)
- You feel like you don’t belong on this planet
This list is not exhaustive, so keep in mind you might be experiencing signs that aren’t included here. You can take our free Dark Night of the Soul test if you need more clarification.
7 Spiritual Awakening Stages
The spiritual awakening process is complex, multi-layered, and different for everyone. In reality, it cannot be fit into neat categories.
However, with that being said it is helpful to have a kind of “map” to locate where you’re at right now. The following stages are general. They define the overall flow of the spiritual awakening process:
Stage 1 – Unhappiness, despondency, and feeling lost
In this stage, you experience the aforementioned Dark Night of the Soul. This is a time of confusion, disconnection, alienation, depression, and great unhappiness with life. You are searching for something, but you don’t quite know what. There is a great looming emptiness inside of you. This stage either emerges spontaneously or due to a life crisis (e.g. breakup, divorce, death, trauma, illness, major life change).
Stage 2 – Shifting perspectives
You start to perceive reality in a totally different way. In this stage, you start seeing through the lies and delusions propagated by society. You feel unhappy with life, disturbed by the suffering you see and hopeless to the ills of the world. You no longer see life as you once did in your previous state of complacent unawareness.
Stage 3 – Seeking answers and meaning
There must be a point to all this, right? In this stage, you’re asking all the deep questions. You are in search of your life purpose, spiritual destiny, and the meaning of life itself. You will start dabbling in different metaphysical, self-help, and esoteric fields in the search for answers and truth. Your focus is on beginning your spiritual search.
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Stage 4 – Finding answers and experiencing breakthroughs
After a lot of soul searching, you’ll find a few teachers, practices, or belief systems that ease your existential suffering.(Beware: a lot of spiritual bypassing can occur in this stage.) You will feel a sense of expansion as old patterns dissolve and your true self (soul) begins to emerge. You may have a number of mystical experiences or brief moments of satori (spiritual enlightenment) that give you a glimpse into the ultimate nature of reality. This is a time of joy, hope, connection, and awe.
Stage 5 – Disillusionment and feeling lost again
Life is about movement. With the spiritual awakening process, there is always an ebb and a flow. In this stage, you become bored and tired of your spiritual teachers or practices. You may become disillusioned by the faux spiritual BS out there and crave for something deeper. You may have even experienced long periods of connection with the Divine, only to become separated again (this is normal). Understandably, you’ll feel disturbed and deeply upset by this experience. Additionally, while you may have experienced many mental/emotional/spiritual breakthroughs, they might feel superficial. You crave authenticity and for deep spirituality that permeates your life and transforms every part of you. The unhappiness and stagnation you feel will motivate you to go in search for more.
Stage 6 – Deeper inner work
In this stage, you’re not interested in dabbling in feel-good spiritual philosophies or surface practices anymore. The abiding pain you feel inside motivates you to do deep inner work. You may become a serious student of meditation, mindfulness, ritual, inner child work, shadow work, body work or various other transpersonal philosophies.
Stage 7 – Integration, expansion, joy
Integration means taking the spiritual lessons you’ve learned from your inner work and applying them to your daily life. Integration happens both naturally and consciously as a habit in deep spiritual practice. In this stage, you’ll experience the most profound and long-lasting changes deep within. Many people experience prolonged mystical experiences and periods of unity with the Divine in the integration phase. Remember that enlightenment, or full self-realization, is never guaranteed: we can strive for it, but it is ultimately a gift from Life. Nevertheless, profound peace, love, and joy emerge and are felt in this stage. You may feel ready to be a spiritual mentor or role model in your community and pass on your insight to others. Life will become less about you and more about We. Your perspective will expand and you will start seeing things from the big picture. Above all else, you will feel connected, at peace with yourself, and deeply aligned with life.
Note: it is common to move back and forth between these spiritual awakening stages. Remember that this is not a linear process – you cannot just move from A to B to C. This is a complex and messy path, so it’s perfectly fine if it doesn’t look like what I’ve described. Your spiritual awakening process is unique to you. But I do hope this analysis has helped (in some way) you to ‘gain your bearings.’
23 Spiritual Awakening Signs and Symptoms
There are many spiritual awakening symptoms. In fact, spiritual awakening symptoms are not only emotional but also psychological and even physical. Here are twenty-three of the most common symptoms out there. See how many you can identify with:
- You feel as though your life is false
- You craving for meaning and purpose
- You begin asking deep questions
- You realize that a lot of what you’ve been taught is a lie
- You feel completely lost and alone
- You see through the illusions of society
- You see how unhappy most people are
- You want to ‘purge’ your life
- You begin experiencing deep empathy and compassion
- You desire to be alone
- Conversations seem shallow
- You want to quit your job
- You thirst for authenticity and truth
- You become aware of your old negative habits
- You experience anxiety and/or depression
- You become more sensitive
- You want to make the world a better place
- You deeply want to understand who you are
- Your intuition is heightened
- More synchronicity
- You feel more wonder and curiosity
- You start to love unconditionally
- You see that we are all One
I’ll expand on these signs below:
1. You feel as though your life is false
Everything that you have believed, built, and worked towards seems to be false. Your life doesn’t feel as though it’s your own. You no longer feel like yourself – nearly everything you once enjoyed no longer brings you meaning or satisfaction.
2. You craving for meaning and purpose
You deeply desire to find the meaning of your life. You have no idea what your purpose is, but you want to find it desperately. There’s a sense that something is “missing” inside of you (like a part of your soul).
3. You begin asking deep questions
Questions such as “Why am I here?” “What’s the purpose of life?” “What happens after we die?” “Why do people suffer?” arise. You begin thinking more philosophically. Such profound thoughts may greatly disturb you as you don’t know the answers.
4. You realize that a lot of what you’ve been taught is a lie
You start to see how many beliefs, feelings, and values are not actually your own, but other people’s or inherited from your culture. You are growing in self-awareness.
5. You feel completely lost and alone
Nothing in your life seems to make sense anymore. You feel as though you’re wandering through an endless wilderness. As a vagabond, you feel completely alone and cut off from people. You struggle to relate to those you once felt close to (i.e. your friends, work colleagues, and family members).
6. You see through the illusions of society
Materialism, success, and profit no longer mean anything to you. You start feeling as though you’re a cog in the machine of society.
7. You see how unhappy most people are
You awaken to the unhappiness and suffering of others. You may start to explore activism or read more about the human condition. It is tormenting for you to realize how much pain there is in the world.
8. You want to ‘purge’ your life
You’re sick and tired of feeling stranded, depressed, and hopeless. Suddenly, you feel the need to simplify and declutter your life. This could mean cutting ties with toxic people, reassessing your habits, throwing out old things, relocating to a new job or place to live, or even giving away most of what you own.
9. You begin experiencing deep empathy and compassion
As you start paying more attention to the many hardships faced by humanity and nature alike, you develop more compassion. Your inherent empathy is awakened and you may find it hard to cope with the intensity of your feelings. This is a pivotal point in your inner transformation: you either numb the pain you feel with addictions, or you find healthy ways to accept and express your emotions.
10. You desire to be alone
You crave solitude. Whereas once you may have been extroverted, now you experience the introverted side of your nature. You spend a lot of time introspecting and enjoying the silence. At every cost, you try to reduce social contact. At this point, you may lose touch with many old friends.
11. Conversations seem shallow
When you do talk to people you feel an acute sense of separation. You realize that very few people are comfortable with talking about passion, emotions, meaning and the soul. In conversations, you feel restless and irritated by the small talk. You silently scream, “Can’t anyone wake up and realize what is happening?” Your distaste for frivolous chit-chat draws you more into solitude. You may become a lone wolf or rebellious free spirit.
12. You want to quit your job
Even though you worked for years getting your degree, establishing your career, and climbing the ranks, you feel nothing but emptiness. Your job no longer provides you the sense of fulfillment that you need. You desperately crave for more.
13. You thirst for authenticity and truth
Being true to yourself becomes top priority. You hate faking and putting on the old masks that you used to wear. You want to be completely authentic. Pretense makes you feel sick and disgusted.
14. You become aware of your old negative habits
You are painfully aware of your flaws and destructive habits. Within you arises a strong urge to wipe the slate clean and start over.
15. You experience anxiety and/or depression
You may go through deep bouts of existential depression or persistent anxiety. The shock of plunging into your awakening leaves you feeling unstable. You may be misdiagnosed with a mental illness. Uncertainty and fear follow you around everywhere.
16. You become more sensitive
Everything impacts you more. You feel the energy of others more strongly, the pain of your loved ones more intensely, and the difficulties in life deeper than ever before. At the same time, you feel a gloriously enhanced connection with animals and nature. You start feeling more at home within the natural world (rather than the manmade world).
17. You want to make the world a better place
When all is said and done, you want to leave the world a better place. You start thinking ‘big picture.’ This longing to make a real impact translates to actively helping others or finding a life purpose that aligns with this desire.
18. You deeply want to understand who you are
Endless questions arise about your identity and your life, for example, “Who am I?” “Why was I born?” “What am I here to do?” “What is the purpose of my existence?” As a result, you begin reading many self-help books and spiritual texts. No wonder you ended up here. :-)
19. Your intuition is heightened
Gradually you begin to listen to the still, small voice within. You allow it to guide your decisions and you may receive secret messages from your unconscious mind. You may even come in contact with your spirit guides, spirit animal, or other spiritual helpers. Eventually, you start to uncover your hidden spiritual gifts and talents thanks to learning how to trust your intuition.
20. More synchronicity
You start becoming conscious of the many signs and omens that life brings to you. Life becomes much more receptive and interactive with you. Serendipity and déjà vu increase. You may even undergo numerous mystical experiences.
21. You feel more wonder and curiosity
The smallest things start to bring you joy and bliss: a falling leaf, a spider’s web, a child’s laughter, a puddle. Life is no longer ignored – it is seen as magical, amazing and beautiful.
22. You start to love unconditionally
As the barriers of the ego breakdown, you begin to love other people without expectations or conditions (this includes self-love). You lose interest in drama, conflict, and anything that perpetuates hatred.
23. You see that we are all One
Not only do you intellectually understand that we are all interconnected, but you feel it deeply within your bones. You realize that our thoughts and beliefs influence reality, and that we are all fragments of one great Whole – that is, Spirit. Having fully experienced that we are this Oneness, you find peace at last. Sometimes this stage can take years or even an entire lifetime.
Physical Spiritual Awakening Symptoms
Physical signs obviously differ for everyone. Here are a few symptoms that I have observed within myself and many others who have begun the spiritual awakening process:
- Amplification of sense. For example, your sight, hearing, taste, touch and/or smell becomes intensified. You may even discover that you’re an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person).
- You discover food intolerance’s that you never seemed to have before (or perhaps weren’t paying attention to). E.g. Allergies to wheat, nuts, legumes, soy, spices
- Changed sleeping patterns, i.e. you sleep more or experience more disrupted sleep, often causing insomnia
- Vivid dreams – your dreams become scary, bizarre or intense
- Dizziness – feeling lightheaded as a result of being ungrounded during the day
- Weight change – either gaining or losing a lot of weight
- Changed eating habits – what you once liked eating no longer appeals to you. Also, you may crave to experiment with other foods that you’ve never tried/liked
- Fluctuations in energy – feeling less energized than you used to
- Decreased or increased sex drive
- Decreased immune function (more illness) and eventually increased immune functioning
It is uncommon to experience all of these physical spiritual awakening symptoms at once (one or two is more likely). If you have noticed a rapid change in your health during this period, it might be due to the drastic change in your mind-body-soul connection. If no logical everyday reason can be found (such as prior illness, family stress, injury, relationship meltdown etc.) don’t rule out a more metaphysical explanation.
If you’d like to confirm that you’re going through a spiritual awakening, feel free to take our Spiritual Awakening Test.
3 Spiritual Awakening Myths
There’s a lot of information out there on the internet about spiritual awakening symptoms, what spirtually awakening actually is, and so forth.
As someone who has undergone an awakening process and guided many others on their spiritual journeys, here are some of the top spiritual awakening myths out there:
- Myth 1 – Once you spiritually awaken, you become instantly enlightened. Reality: Enlightenment, for most people, happens gradually in waves. We go through layers and cycles of shedding the past and growing into our ‘new skin.’ In some rare cases, enlightenment (or union with our True Nature) happens just like that. But the awakening process is a slow and steady process of spiritual alchemy for the vast majority of people.
- Myth 2 – Being spiritually awake means always experiencing love, light, and bliss. Reality: Yes, we might go through periods of love, light, and bliss. But these experiences are temporary: they come and go. It’s unrealistic to expect ourselves to only ever experience one kind of state as we are multi-faceted beings. And that’s okay.
- Myth 3 – Only a rare and elite variety of people experience awakening symptoms. Reality: You’d be surprised how many people have gone through spiritual awakenings. It’s not an experience that’s reserved for the ‘elevated,’ rich, or ‘special’ people. It can happen to literally anyone in any circumstance.
Let me know if I’ve missed out any spiritual awakening myths in the comments below!
Spiritual Awakening Q&A
Here are the answers to some commonly asked questions:
There are many reasons why the spiritual awakening process happens. Major life changes, tragedies, losses, health crises, marriage, divorces, and other milestones can often trigger a new outlook on life. Whatever the case, spiritual awakenings occur when the soul is ready to undergo a process of transformation – and that occurs at different moments for everyone (if it happens at all).
The spiritual awakening process is said to be a lifelong journey – once it begins, it never ends. However, the intensity of awakening varies and often we go through quiet and calm periods, followed by chaotic and intense periods of change. It’s important that we honor this ebb and flow of transformation, seeing it as a vibrant and ever-flowing journey, not a static and one-off destination.
After undergoing a spiritual awakening, it’s important that you explore all the different spiritual paths available to you. Go with your heart and instincts, and choose a path that calls to you. It’s also crucial to practice some form of inner work while walking your own path to ensure that you’re evolving, staying grounded, and healing inner wounds that may sabotage your progress.
There are many reasons why you may have had a spiritual awakening. We know that awakenings are triggered by big life changes, breakdowns, breakthroughs, and traumatic situations. But why you had a spiritual awakening is simple: Life decided you were ready to finally wake up.
Spiritual Awakening and Inner Work
Spiritual awakenings mark the beginning of our spiritual paths.
But you might be asking yourself, “What do I do now?”
If you need more spiritual guidance, consider this entire website your personal guide that is available 24/7! We have hundreds of articles that can help you. But where to start? We recommend beginning with something called inner work.
Inner work is the psychological and spiritual practice of diving deep into your inner self for the purposes of self-exploration, self-understanding, spiritual healing, and transformation. It helps to deepen and facilitate your process of spiritual awakening.
We write a lot about how to do inner work on this website. You can find the main resources to help you begin below:
- What is Inner Work?
- How to Love Yourself (Ultimate Beginner’s Guide)
- 25 Signs You Have a Wounded Inner Child (and How to Heal)
- Shadow Work: The Ultimate Guide + Free Psychological Test
There are many other practices that can help you start your inner work, some powerful examples being breathwork and journaling every day. The key is to find what empowers and supports you.
Learn more about how to journal.
Spiritual Awakening Book
Does your spiritual awakening make you feel lost, overwhelmed, and alone in this world? We wrote The Spiritual Awakening Process to help newly-awakened people gain the knowledge and tools necessary for finding peace, hope, clarity, and deep inner healing.
In The Spiritual Awakening Process, we walk you through the beginning stages of reconnecting with the loving and eternally wise place within you known as your Soul. Some of the topics covered include:
- What is happening to you
- Why you’re experiencing a spiritual awakening
- The three internal spiritual worlds to explore
- How to retrieve and integrate any fragmented pieces of your psyche
- What spiritual “traps” you need to be mindful of, and
- How to communicate with your soul
This book is printable (PDF file) and digital (you can read it on your phone, laptop, etc.).
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From the bottom of my heart, I hope this article has helped to support you in some way during your process of awakening. Please know that you’re not alone. You’re not going crazy. And we’re here to help and support you – in fact, this entire website is. It’s our mission and purpose in life.
So please, feel free to reach out. Let me get to know you and your story. I’d love to hear from you below!
I’ve been going through Dark Night of the Soul/Awakening since I was in my 20s (about 40 years). Always questioned everything and because I didn’t ever get any remotely sane answers, I knew that nothing we are told and taught by “authorities” is true. So I just keep sinking into dark nights, sometimes coming up for air, then watching the world take yet another turn into the downward spiral of insanity, now with the covid scamdemic, Bad Russia distraction, WOKE insanity, everything to distract and to keep people in fear. I don’t fear any of it but I am very very tired of it all. I’ve lost many friends and family who won’t talk to me because I don’t buy into the fear and insanity. I am retired now and just spent time in nature, researching psychology, philosophy, working out and working on my determination and strength to never comply with the insanity that surrounds us. “It is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society”. J. Krishnamurti
Divine Messages From Above
Every day I tune in and listen to messages on YouTube which are astonishing, to say the least. They are supposedly channeled from Galactic Visitors who have come to engage and transform our meagre ways and senses, our perceptual bandwidth, and interpretation of low energies from low-density awareness in the 3D or third dimensional world into an open much wider band of energies which will in due course transform us all worldwide via a process of Ascension into recalibrated humans regaining our divine inner powers, restructured DNA bodies that are returned with all chakras cleansed and open. Ready to raise our consciousness and inner body energies to 4D and onto 5D states thus expelling the old karmic and dark energies, to be replaced and connected once more with them into a new spiritual world full of the powers of love and light which they profess to carry for all of us.
This is being projected as us becoming unblocked from all the many blockages and karmic overloads, deep social conditioning from the Dark Side or Deep State people that for many millenniums have controlled this World keeping it condensed in low frequencies in our five senses, with ritual displays of financial, psychological and behavioral controls. Making us swallow depression, confusion, war, fear of change, and violence. So our energies are kept locked down in 3D physical realities as slaves to their empire.
But these new world messages are daunting too, complex in many ways mind blowing to the average sensitive Spiritual person.
The sudden impact and revelation as to how humans are not just mundane but capable of connecting within ourselves to many ports and levels at once which will knock your socks off! Leaving you scratching your head dismayed and bewildered.
So I don’t believe we need this kind of onslaught into new age Spiritual living connections too quickly, without understanding where and how we fit in or not to this change. As many of us are still dealing with and recovering from personal past traumas from childhood and elsewhere with the engrained social conditions from the system and parents who failed to see and know any better, as they themselves were trapped in low vibrations, with ritualized behavior and have passed on their belief systems and cultural ways which still bind us to some extent today.
As these new age messages have not been edited and filtered at all and appear to be full on and not voltage dropped to give time to accept or non accept them. We are left in between somewhat bewildered and emotionally blown by the depth scale and intensity of their displays with all their complexities they carry to supposedly be acceptable for human consumption.
As we are being drawn back into being part of the Cosmic Family. As their concept of God or Source is not similar to our own, its a he/she energy that is connected only to beings on a higher vibrational level. As we are shown to be infantile in our ways of ignorance and are compartmentalized into sections for those whom are awake from those that remain stuck in old ways. So we find much difficulty in processing this new age style system with all its vast knowledge and sweet love bombing ways.
not all awakenings end up in a good place. i think that most people are in complete denial of how much one’s physical appearance determines their quality of life (or lack thereof). true loneliness is the result of a lifetime entirely void of intimate affection & connection. perhaps some can be content being single, alone & unwanted but for others it is one of the worst possible curses as due to factors entirely beyond our control we are forced to miss out on most of what makes life worth living.
No way this is going on my life. While i was reading i was like so happy but now that im writing this comes the desmotivation again. Its weird because when you go outside its like i can controll who i want to talk to me who i don want to talk to. I can controll how is gonna be the situatin and i can see inside of the persons i mean i connect better with people idk how to explain it.
Thanks for your post, i´ll keep in this journey because is ending and im happy that is ending but at the same time no because i like my new self but idk, the old self just was a fucking shit you know i was living in the past and future never in the present moment. I have developed the power to have like a bareer of present its like i can combine myself with what im feeling right now what im hearing what im smelling its feels so good life. Ive never felt that good
Im 17 and gonna make the life i want I promise to myself that im gonna elevate in this life, This life is not for looser the teach you to be a fucking slave your parents literally want you to have a degree an work all the life. Oh my god men, what we are doing wrong as scoiety? You know actually fuck it, im gonna focus on myself
“what we are doing wrong as scoiety? You know actually fuck it, im gonna focus on myself”
That’s all we can do I’m afraid. The concept of ‘society’ is helpful to understand things, but when you ask yourself what a society is, it’s a group of individuals (there’s no such thing as a society separate entity.) It’s much easier for each individual to focus on themselves and how they can make the world better than to focus on fixing some ‘society’ out there.
Hello Eduar, be proud of yourself to be awake at your age! So many people live in the lies. It’s a long journey full of up and down, but you gain peace, love, harmony, and tranquillity when you attain and do the work.
Keep working on yourself; show respect, care and love to yourself first.
Everything starts with you! Keep going, you are doing a great job to be here :)
Peace & love
Hi my name is Yesica I live in California and I’m going threw a spiritual awakening I relate to all the symptoms and comprehend all you explained it’s the most drastic change of my life I’ve completely transformed
I am inclined to think that ‘spiritual awakening’ is merely a blanket term to describe a forced personal transformation. Is this really purely spiritual or the result of having to change perspective due to consequences brought about by one’s own poor judgement and choices? I have not found anything super spiritual within my own process of having had a complete breakdown and losing everything. Four years later, I have simply come to realise my own weaknesses and the role I played that ultimately brought destruction. I am a firm believer in choices and consequences. I have gained wisdom and i have matured emotionally. Whether there is anything on the spiritual level, i have no idea. I am intuitive and empathetic, however, I have discovered I am less compassionate, less giving and for the first time in my life, self centered. This has provided some peace but it is fleeting. I say peace because not caring nor feeling deeply, life has a way of just passing by.
Hi Michelle,
I think ‘spiritual awakening’ is a term ultimately defined by the person and their experience. However, I clearly differentiate between spiritual awakenings and personal awakenings. Personal awakenings are usually on the ego level, the level of self. Spiritual awakening are on the level of the soul – they drive us to ask the deep questions of life, motivate us to look into various spiritual traditions for answers, and inspire us to seek a sense of spiritual liberation. If you’re interested, there are various stages of the spiritual journey that are divided into ten categories on our home page (under the ‘start here’ section): https://lonerwolf.com/ You might like to check those out for more clarification if you feel that would help you. ♡
60 years later, can I make it all go away ?
The animal’s that have found me that I have joyously helped. Yet, to feel their pain, hear their crying as we seek to find eachother. Animal that it seams have found strength and endured so much pain finding me,I can only say that it is OK now, as I so gently stroke them. Feel my love, don’t be afraid, I won’t leave you. I will now take your pain,you rest, as I remain until their last breath is gone. So carefully handled, returned to earth.I will see you again another time.
Someone may randomly us a object to strike a tree, I feel the pain and cries from within the tree.I am so drawn to the exact location,I can but place my hand upon the wounds and to apologize for the actions of another.I can feel the calm from within.
I feel the pain and agony of those who approach toward my aura, the physical pain brought upon my body, I cannot identify as mine or their’s.
To see and feel the lost and discerning souls, to try and grasp any understanding of my existence.
I have not been able to see a exact timing for myself of my awakening, others who were there, as I was but 3 days old, have spoken of brilliant blue flames with white so bright, none could stay looking at me. At that moment none present knew that ” I was dead “,the flames that had lifted me 2 feet high, have now given life back within me.
The human life of a small child that has died,I tried so desperately hard to save. Now gone, was “Leann”, as I was later to know the name of the child I could not save her life.
The weight, the burden, the pain in my soul, this tormenting agony.
I now require a surgery, or once again I will die. I can’t put myself within the walls of a hospital. I stay with my son, whom I gave birth to in my home 1981. Last night he said ” mom you have put everyone else first and above you, in life. When will you put yourself first “?
How?? Can I make this all go away! 60 years exhausted, pained and drained.
Hi Susan,
Sometimes we try to rescue others in an attempt to try and rescue ourselves. The child you said you could not save, I’m not sure if you’re speaking metaphorically or literally, but I can sense from your writing that you are suffering under a weight of shame and possibly self-blame. It’s hard for an article like this or an online voice like me to help you through such extreme suffering. What you need to do is reach out to a therapist, someone who can compassionately hold space for you and help to correct any mental confusion and soothe emotional suffering. After all, how can you help others if you can’t help yourself? – you need to be present and healthy to do that. So by helping yourself you *are* helping others. Ask your son to help you find a therapist or counselor, that is the first simple step you can take. Please do it. Much love ♡
Luna and Sol,
From the bottom of my heart , I would like to thank you for sharing your profoundly beautiful messages and transformative wisdom on this site . I have been all over the internet recently and although there is a countless resources and insight into the spiritual journey of humans , Lonerwolf has resonated with my soul in the very core of my being . I have stayed up far past my bedtime and gave to get up for work in a few hours , but I don’t care ( ha ha). For in this very moment my heart is singing ! I feel like I have discovers a powerful gift tonight and I believe this happened for a reason . Synchronicity is my favorite word and I have one tatoo on my body which is the word SYNCHRONICITY encircled with an infinity symbol. It is synchronistic that I have stumbled upon kindred souls tonight and I feel blessed. .
I have a lot to say , probably way too much , but I will try my best to shorten the journey of my path to spiritual awakening .
Sol, I read your personal journey and mine is very similar . I grew up in a religion that resembled a cult in every way . We were separated from society and lived by many soul crushing rules . Everything was a sin including cutting your hair ( women only ) , we had to wear skirts to our ankles and if a woman happened to even expose an ankle , she wa called in from of the church and shamed for being a temptress . We didn’t watch tv or listen to music aside from church hymns . The list goes on and on.
But I too grew up in the depths of shame, saying prayers of forgiveness to God even if I had a bad human thought . I hated myself and was afraid of everything , especially God and the fear of burning in hell for eternity .
I grew up in a big family of 7 siblings and we were textbook dysfunctional . My Dad was a closet alcoholic and it was a family Shame, dirty secret. We were also extremely poor and looked down upon by the congregation , being seen as a charity case . Inevitably , my Fathers drinking was discovered and the family was kicked out of the church . We were homeless , but found some friends( outcasts of the church ) who took us in . Well, things got worse because we were all thrown-into public school which was another trauma and shock , but I went through the motions , feeling dead inside everyday .
This was the beginning of my dark night of the soul , but the incident that occurred soon after , caused me to plunge full force .
I was 12 years old and my family ws finally starting to recover and heal . We had found a house and things seemed to be moving forward , but one night my Father got drunk and never came home . He was hit by car and killed, a hit and run case that was never resolved. My Mother was left to raise 8 children on her own. My family was broken beyond repair .
Sol, the way you describe the dark night of the soul gave me chills and I understood when it happened , the first time anyway. I remember dying inside and overnight I decided I would never be happy, and understanding that my innocence and childhood was gone forever . I went into myself and above all, I cursed God and it felt so fucking good!! I didn’t care if I were to burn in hell for it. I had nothing left , no loyalty , just emptiness and absence of faith that has been so carefully implanted in my psyche. I blamed God for everything and disowned him. But it hurt, the agony of it all , because I loved the God that I had been given, I had loved and feared him . The moments of love, I realize now was the creator that I am starting to trust and embrace . I like to call them Great Spirit, but I cannot use the term God anymore . I have had to rid myself of that God that I was brainwashed to fear through control and shame .
I went through years feeling numb and disconnected, but inevitably I started getting signs from the universe and teachers started showing up and I was given gifts from the UNIVERSE! I started with self help books such as , John Bradshaw, healing the Shame that Binds You. Then when my soul was ready ,The spiritual teacher, Echart Tolle’s powerful books fell into my hands and changed my life . This is so beautiful, all of it! And you know what , I’ll take the pain because I see it all now as a gift for my soul journey to evolve and heal ! I just finished The book, Journey Of Souls because I’m riding another powerful wave in continuance of my path to spiritual awakening .
Sol, this life has been such a heartbreakingly beautiful journey and I am happy to say I’m ready for what is next , my soul is ready!!
In closing , there is so much more to tell and I would love to hear about your journeys , Sol and Luna. ❤️❤️
And maybe, just maybe we will cross paths… “Somewhere down this crazy River”.
Peace and love from one kindred soul to the next,
Rachel ❤️❤️
Just on a short note, was hoping you could explain what it means when I had a spiritual awakening.
I felt like I was levitating and blue flames were shooting out my feet hands and head. Felt like I was vibrating as well.
This happened three years ago and even more happened just after that untill I pushed it away. Way to intense for me at the time.
Now I’m trying to understand it and get back on my spiritual path.
Great article… I’m Definitely going through this. I feel so alone right now. I am also recognizing how full of fear I am due to my religious upbringing. I’m using plant medicines to help me but I also have such subliminal fears that perhaps I’m crossing into all of those fears set in to me by religion… witchcraft, demons, satan etc. maybe I’ve opened myself up to dark spirits snd they are pretending to be the light as I was taught that satan would do. But my heart pulls me to this light. I realize this is maybe part of my awakening… what I need to heal… to realize and fully accept that those teachings were wrong. God/source/ the divine is so much more. But… then it hits again… maybe I’m in a cult of witchcraft and maybe this is satan’s trickery. My heart knows better but these beliefs are so infused. Would love your insight on how to find peace amongst these thoughts that maybe my spiritual awakening is the devil stealing my soul. I need feeedom from this message but not sure how to obtain it as it runs sooo very deep.
Hi Paige, I really empathize with your struggle. Having that kind of brainwashing can go truly deep and be hard to rewire (especially if you’ve been indoctrinated since childhood). Some of the things that have helped me have been:
– learning, understanding, and being aware of cognitive distortions (search for ‘CBT thinking errors’ and really letting this sink in)
– going easy on psychedelics and using small doses – in my experience the higher the dose, the harder it is to integrate the discoveries (and it can in some cases result in re-traumatization)
– sharpening your ability to practice spiritual discernment (aka. the sword of your mind: https://lonerwolf.com/spiritual-discernment/)
– practicing self-love and self-care/forgiveness
I hope this helps ♡
Hi Paige, I am here to encourage you to continue the path you are on. I too, grew up brainwashed, manipulated and shamed through the extreme doctrine of religion. I will never forget having nightmares as a child of “ The Mark of The Beast” which was a scripture from the Bible. As children , we were taught to believe that The Mark of the Beast was a premonition from God foretelling the inevitable future of mankind. The whole world was going to be forced to take the mark, which We were told was a satanic symbol , with worldly , sinful implications and if you refused, you would be tortured and killed one by one right in front of your family and loved ones . We were taught that when this happens , we must remain faithful and strong and prove to God that we were the chosen by refusing to take the mark of the beast and instead sacrificing our lives through torture . I was 8 years old and I will never forget the fear and imagination of the possible horror that the future could hold .
Paige, I’m sharing this story because I know what you are going through . It takes time and is a process , but do not give up. I felt like I had to reprogram my mind and start over , you have yo unlearn what you have learned and that will happen in the dark night of your soul. It’s painful , but once you feel the freedom of that toxic release you will feel like you are born again .
God Is Love!! I have had to let go and detach from the God that I had been taught to fear . And I’m not there yet, I’m still on the path of healing and regeneration, I haven’t yet experienced the trust and oneness with Great Spirit. It’s hard to let go, especially when you have been hurt .
Keep going because you have already come this far. I believe once you KNOW what you KNOW that knowledge is so incredibly transcendent that you can never go backwards, only forwards .
Peace and love,
Rachel
You know what. Fuck the universe. I just spendid 6 hours writting an sumary of what is happening for th last 7 months with me where i explane from start to end whats happening in my life. Because i lost everything from friend family to the wil of living or giving about meself.
And the only thing i could do. Is just show my story. Because im on my on and dont know what to do. And then after 6 hours trying remember and explane in best way i can. I press button the send. It failt and i mis pressed after and the page was gone and so was my 6 hours panick typing
And a way to try understand. But nooooo. Stop universe must use there litle ooops way to knock me back. Sorry for the message and weirdnes. But im going true hell for this 7months. And sending my story to 1 place where i might get advies or be understand. And this happens!
Fuck die gestaat er alleen voor op je pad. Tis 7 maanden dak steeds opnieuw het meest gestoorde opnieuw en opnieuw tegen kom. En mezelf zot maak met de gedachte dat ik ontwaak en genees en een doel heb. Om dan steeds alles te verliezen en ik erger was dan er voor. Ofwel ben ik echt psychotisch. Ofwel compleet gebroken en ant reageren door middel gebruik en slaap gebrek. Of wel word ik echt steeds benaderd door het universum. Hoe dan oôk . Interseer me niemeer. Laat me met gerust. Ik heb het recht om te zeggen dak zelf kies of ik nog wil vechten of leven. In plaats dat ik steeds me moet bewijzen. Of offeren of genezen. Of helpen. Of op zielstocht naar mezelf.
Nog eens sorry in geval dak zot ben. En de mensen op deze site.
En als het wel steeds het universum is. FUCK YOU! Sterf nog liever dan je stomme spellekes te spelen. Dit was een stap tever om nog te durven zeggen dat ik moet genezen of geloven. En ben ik men eigen ondergang of reden van ongeluk. Dan ist zo. Dan toch iets waar ik zelf voor kies. Dus stop met me steeds te redden of sturen of onderzien als ik me steeds neerleg met mijn einde. Mujn leven mijn keuze.
Oh no, I’m sorry to hear this Wolf, how immensely frustrating! Just know that with or without your story, you’re still seen and appreciated here. ♡
How is your OCD now?
I’m not sure if you’re addressing this question to me or someone else Cami?
So I started my enlightenment journey with drugs. I figured if I could always come back to the love and self within me any time I was on a substance I would be gaining more insight from a different perspective and have a more grounded understanding of it.. after a few years it got alive. Beings were becoming aware of me because of my frequency change and what I was doing. I eventually had a few experiences on psychedelics where I was completely sure I had gone to the brink of sanity and their was no going back in some horrific ways lol. So i figured that meant I had to start integrating those lessons and ideas and holy shit did I bite off ALOT. I didn’t realize I completely blew myself away. My journey Isnt over but I definitely am taking a break on the drugs. They’re teachers of all sorts. And I’m definitely frazzled. Almost no friends and the ones I have love me to life but everyone thinks I’m a bad guy. But I just like my darkness. I needa start feeling my urges. Going out and getting what I want isn’t weird. Holding onto It until I have to do it myself is weird. If you know what I mean
I’ve had one! Mental illness brought it on. Breaking down is waking up by Dr Russell Razzaque made me see this…. Now I want to help everyone else….www.dyingtostayalive.com
Hello. I have a ton of questions. I talk to GOD and HE tells ME about WHO I AM.
ı have these symptoms but ı have been seeing some weird dreams lately. In one of theö ı saw energy flouting towards me. In another one ı saw myself in a spiritual room with lots of spiritual people. Might this be a sign?
It might be Toprak. Have you tried journaling about the dreams and unpacking them?
Reading this article…I just had a huge breakthrough understanding of something that happened to me in 2018. I was in a religious cult. They essentially took away my eternity. I had a vision of falling into a black hole with no end. It also had a profound hopelessness feeling in there. I’ve battled morbid depression these past 3 years. The day after the incident I felt like I’d been hung by my thumbs and the bottom of my feet had been beaten with a cane. I had difficulty walking for the next 2.5 yrs. My thumbs still hurt me badly. I gained exactly 50lbs and it hasn’t gone up or down in these three yrs. I’ve always been around 135lbs, never more but now I can’t budge this weight. I felt like it came on me like a weight of the world type of thing. I can’t really explain it. I know anger being held and not let out can make you put on pounds bc you want to stop everything, all flows stop so I know I was beyond angry and I’ve been trying to do forgiveness on myself and try to let go of the incident. I’ve gone so far away from religion. I grew up religious and it has made me miserable all these yrs. I do feel like I’ve ‘learned my lesson’ so I don’t have to go through that in future lifetimes but I’m having a hard time in this lifetime. I’m definitely on a spiritual path now. I’m looking at everything which I couldn’t have done when I was religious. This has been very freeing for me. I just discovered I am empathic and have been. I have wanted to quit my job. I want to do something spiritual to help other ppl but I don’t know myself yet and what I can do so my journey continues. This article has answered so many confusing questions I’ve had. At least now I know I’m actually on the right path. Will do Inner work now. Thank you so much for helping us out here to become ‘Unlost’! xoxoxo
Hi Ava, thank you. Your comment gave me shivers – like actual visceral, physical body goosebumps. I think it’s because I can relate to that feeling of falling into a black hole with no end. Even as I write this, my body is tingling. What you have gone through – being in a religious cult – is something so profoundly destabilizing (I have been there myself, in a different way). I commend you for your courage, resilience, and determination – that is such a beautiful and inspiring thing! I’m so honored that this article has helped to illuminate some darker places in your psyche. That’s all I could ever ask for when writing these articles. So much love to you. xoxo
P.S. Have you heard of somatic psychotherapy (e.g., somatic experiencing)? I highly recommend that you check that out, particularly as you seem to somaticize trauma. I have tried it and it has helped immensely. Also look into TRE (Trauma Release Exercise). ♡
This was very informative and is a very important article in my journey. I grew up in a strict and violent Christian household and it never felt right. Something was just wrong. I had two severe dark nights of the soul that totaled to 3 years. I recently found Freya out of the second and when deciding to work with her, I felt at home with my own soul. Life as I knew it began crumbling around me, but when I asked for a sign of what I should do about it, I received the word Fimbulvetr. From that message, I understood that this pain is beautiful in it’s ways and an awakening will soon come after. This article helps me remember to stay strong through the heightened senses and vivid dreams. They all have a purpose now. Thank you.
I want to go back to my old life where i can just get back on the hamster wheel of life without thought, until the end. I feel life is more difficult and sad now in some respects. I just wish i wasn’t so inquisitive and maybe i wouldn’t be where i am now, there are just layers and layers to peel back, lots of books to read facts to check, i am so far behind. Unfortunately i cant unthink it now and go back.
Does any one else feel this way ???
Just take it one day at a time Han. You’re not alone, and many others (including myself) have felt – and feel – this way. You have more strength than you know. ❤
Hello Aletheia Luna,
Thanks for a well written website. I can relate to what you ve written and found it helpful im along way into the process but found myself lost again. It’s good to read that others have felt this way its reminds me to keep focussing and moving forward that I am not at a dead end.
I’m so soooo thankful for your article! Last year I experienced an extraordinary experience of spiritual awakening. My family thought I’d lost my mind, I was even wondering at times. I was misdiagnosed w/a mental illness, just like your article stated could happen. Landed in the psych ward twice, but met truly good & some likeminded souls while there. I can’t explain the deep feeling of love I felt for everyone and everything, it was thee most intense sense of connection I’ve ever felt. I woke up one day and the feeling was gone, poof, like magically disappeared. I’ve felt so alone and disconnected since, left wondering if what I experienced was even real. After reading your article, I’ve become more hopeful and informed in the process. I just can’t thank you enough for the sense of calm & relief I have after reading. I’ve recently taken TM course, trying my hardest to find the inner peace that graced me last summer. I’m just so happy to know that it’s not all lost, Ave all part of the journey.
Thank you thank you & Thank YOU
So much love to you Trish, it makes me so happy to hear that these words have helped you. It sounds like what you experienced was a heart awakening!
How do I move out of this limbo/void!!!.. even my meditation has gone to pot for around 10 months I’ve not entered theta, no longer see signs from source or spirit, so frustrating, emotionally up and down, ideas come and go, can’t be assed to do much at all. Sucks!!
Sometimes it feels like a dead end, but it’s actually a gestation period! Thank you for reading, sharing and connecting Aiden, I’m so glad you can relate ♡
Lona and Sol I love you guys so much you saved my soul I became a lonerwolf from 2018 till 2021 were I saw the light I thank you so much for the good things your do for us humans I choose a religion just Christianity because all what is written here was experienced by Jesus which Christians says he is the messiah. Yes I may at times thing it’s just a narrative story but looking at it kindly with all my seeking what you do here is pure reality.
I find so much inspiration and value in the figures of Jesus and Mother Mary – they are beacons of Divine Love. Thank you for sharing and connecting Lionel!