I want you to take a moment and think about the kind of relationship you had with your mother.
What did it look like? How did it feel? Do your thoughts drift to the good times, or do they dwell on the bad times?
Our mothers were pivotal players in our development as children and they formed the very foundation of our emotional and psychological growth. To this very day our mothers continue to influence us both through our deeply ingrained perceptions of life and through our feelings towards ourselves and other people.
But although our mothers may have tried their very best to nurture us, our relationships with them may have been laced with undercurrents of shame, guilt and obligation. In fact, we may continue to carry unresolved grief, fear, disappointment and resentment towards our mothers long into our adult lives. This deep pain is usually the result of unhealed core wounds that are passed on from generation to generation.
If you possess the Mother Wound it is vital that you learn how to treat, repair and reconcile those broken parts within you that still yearn for your mother’s love. Healing the Mother Wound within you has the potential to transform your life and improve your relationships tenfold. And today we’ll explore how to do that.
What is the Mother Wound?
I have always had a very strained relationship with my mum. As a child I remember the great fear and reverence I felt towards her; fear because she was the primary disciplinarian in the household, and reverence because she was so self-sacrificing. As an artist, she was (and still is) extremely skilled in watercolor and oil paintings, yet she was never able to actualize her dream of becoming a professionally paid artist despite how brilliant she was. These dreams further dimmed as she kept giving birth to children and eventually it became a rare occurrence for her to pick up a pencil or paintbrush. I could always sense this lurking disappointment and resentment bottled up within her. I believe a part of her felt like she was a failure, so the only area she could excel in was child-rearing. This was only amplified by her strict Christian beliefs which traditionally dictate that a woman’s place is the house, not the art studio.
As I got older the admiration and affection which I held towards my mother became tainted with anger, sadness, and even disgust. Although she was extremely generous with her time and effort, her emotional coldness was distressing to me. She made it very clear that I was the child and she was the parent. There was no equality or middle-ground on which we could meet. The only time when I ever felt like my mother’s friend and confidant was when I did everything she wanted me to do, like a perfect little daughter.
These days, I don’t speak with my mother except via text message a handful of times a year. She made it very clear to me that leaving the Christian faith and allowing myself to love Mateo was a severe betrayal. Yet despite the animosity between us, she still reminds me that “my family loves me” which in truth a part of me wonders whether such words are written with a Christian agenda in mind, or out of real sincerity.
Our Mother Wounds are traumas that pass down from generation to generation that have a profound impact on our lives. When left unresolved, we pass on the Wounds that our mothers and grandmothers before us failed to heal. These wounds consist of toxic and oppressive beliefs, ideals, perceptions, and choices. Finally, our children repeat the cycle, harming their own children, and their children’s children with centuries of unresolved pain. (Please note here that our fathers carry their own wounds, but in this article I want to specifically focus on our mothers.)
If you suffer from the Mother Wound you will experience the following problems:
- (For females) constantly comparing yourself with, and competing against, other females
- Sabotaging yourself when you experience happiness or success
- Possessing weak boundaries and an inability to say “no”
- Self-blaming and low self-esteem that manifests itself as the core belief: “There is something wrong with me”
- Co-dependency in relationships
- Minimizing yourself to be likable and accepted
- The inability to speak up authentically and express your emotions fully
- Sacrificing your dreams and desires for other people unnecessarily
- Waiting for your mother’s permission on an unconscious level to truly live life
Mother Wounds are developed at a young age and are bound by the belief that “I was responsible for my mother’s pain,” and “I can make my mother happy if I’m a good girl/boy.” The truth is that we weren’t and still aren’t responsible for our mother’s pain – only she is. We also can’t make our mothers happy unless they truly decide to be happy. Yet unfortunately, as children we were not aware of this and on a subconscious level many of us still believe that we are the culprits of our mother’s angst.
Where Does the Mother Wound Come From?
Women have lived under patriarchal reign for centuries. Religion and society in particular have been instrumental in perpetuating the myths that women should:
- Stay at home and give up their ambitions as child-bearers
- Be the primary caretakers of the household
- Constantly serve others and their needs, while giving up their own
- Hold it all together 100% of the time because that’s what “good mothers” do
- Utterly deplete themselves in order to support their families and raise children
As a result of these intense and super-human standards, women abandon their dreams, lock away their desires and smother their needs in favor of meeting the cultural ideal of what motherhood “should” be. This pressure is suffocating for most women, breeding rage, depression and anxiety, which is then passed on to their children through subtle – or even aggressive – forms of emotional abandonment and manipulation (such as shame, guilt and obligation). This forms the Mother Wound.
But it is important that we understand how much our mothers have gone through in the face of these oppressive ideals and expectations. It is important that we realize that no mother can be perfect, no matter how hard they try, and use this knowledge to generate forgiveness.
Finally, it’s important that we learn to humanize our mothers in a society that strips them of their humanity. No mother can act in a loving way 100% of the time. The sooner we embrace this reality, the better.
Healing the Mother Wound – 3 Steps
Many women these days speak about embracing the divine feminine which sounds nice in theory, but without confronting and healing the Mother Wound, this is nothing but another fuzzy ideal and form of spiritual bypassing.
As a woman who carries a very deep Mother Wound, I have experienced just how lonely and saddening it can be to feel the emotional and psychological absence of your mother. Although I still have space to improve, I want to share with you three tips that will help you on your healing path:
1. Learn to separate the human from the archetype
We briefly explored the archetypal mother above; that of the selfless, giving, completely nurturing woman who diminishes her own needs in favor of her children’s needs. In reality, mothers are human beings with flaws and issues. The more we expect them to live up to society’s expectations of the “perfect woman,” the more we deprive them of their humanity.
Inner Child Journal:
Go on a journey through the mountains and caves of your heart. Befriend, heal, and nurture the broken child within. Go to the root of your pain and transform old patterns. This is intense and powerful work!
You may like to ask yourself, “What damaging beliefs and expectations do I have about my mother which cause me pain?” Common beliefs and expectations include, for instance, “my mother should always be emotionally available,” “my mother should be my best friend,” “my mother should never get angry at me,” and so forth.
2. Give up the dream that your mother will be who you want her to be someday
Stop waiting around to receive the love, support and validation of your mother. Remember that you can never change who she is and nor do you have the right to – that is her responsibility. As you slowly learn to relinquish your hope that she will be everything you ever wanted her to be, you can allow yourself to grieve her absence. Experiencing grief is a vital part of the healing process and in my experience it can last for years. But allow it to happen. It is ultimately good for you.
3. Find your inner source of unconditional love
While you may not have received unconditional love from your mother, you can find it within yourself. A big part of my own healing process has been learning how to re-parent my inner child. Learning how to love myself has revealed to me a deep well of endless love that supports, cherishes and wants the very best for me. This very same source of love is within you as well. As you slowly dissolve the limiting beliefs and perceptions you have about yourself and the world, you will find it easy to transform your desire for outer support to inner acceptance.
The Final Product …
Healing the Mother Wound within you will transform your life. You will be able to set better boundaries, establish healthier relationships, take care of your needs better, develop empathy for others, trust life more, and feel more comfortable in your skin.
So share with me below: what was life like with your mother? Do you still carry unresolved pain from your childhood, or are you in the process of healing the Mother Wound?
This article is about the mother wound. Some people recognize themself some do not. That’s all. Don’t make things less or worse only from your perspective.
I am a 38 year old guy with a gorgeous wife, a home, money, his own business, friends…. I live in the top 3% of humanity economically. I should be happy on the inside all the time, right? Nope. For years, I have struggled with the relationship to my mother. She is from a loud, Catholic family of Italian descent. She has 3 sisters. One has Downs Syndrome. The other 2 did not go to college. Her mother is 93. She is a mean old woman who disguises cruelty with kindness. All of them are Trump voters, which completely alienates my wife and I as my wife is a Spanish-speaking immigrant. Their comments on FB have been disgusting. Their children also agree with them politically. A year of stress waiting to see if my wife could get pregnant at 38 has led me to learn that I have a mother wound that runs deep. My own mother never lived up to the archetypal nurturer mother. She had a lot of stuff go down that turned her into a raging alcoholic. I have recognized the mother wound in me for what it is. I have seen that she has verbally abused… Read more »
I honestly don’t know what life with my mother was like until I was 12 years old. I have absolutely no memory of her. It wasn’t until I was 12 and had a severe trauma that I have some memories of her, but most are vague. I have lately come to the conclusion that my early life must have been traumatic enough for my mind to have shut it out. I don’t know, and mostly don’t want to know. I’ve delved into the realm of emotional and psychological abuse. I know for a fact that her memories and mine differ vastly. When I bring up any memories that might be wounding for her she tells me that I just made it up or it is all my imagination or that I remember it wrong. My family is full of toxic personalities. I left home at 17 to get away from all of the meanness and anger that was directed toward me and have a very sketchy relationship with my mother. I live 3000 miles away and that is not really far enough. Hurts to feel the way I do about her, I want to love her and I have always… Read more »
Thanks for this article! Oh my dear sweet mother! I always wanted to have a sweet, supporting, understanding and lovely mother with such a sweet voice to comforted me but the reality is, I don’t. My mother had a tough life. Her parents die at the age of 50 , both. She maybe was lost and didn’t know what to do so she believed in her sister and let our aunt took care of us while she was working. But our life out there with our aunt was a hell on earth, she was even colder than our mother. So later on, the doctor diagnosed her with cervical cancer at a young age cuz our father gave her the papilloma. So she became more cold than she already was. She didn’t wanted to take care of us, because she wanted to keep working maybe working was her only get away from us and we were only 2, eh! And not to mention that our father abandoned us when I was born and my sister was 1yr old. Still she criticize me when sometimes I don’t feel in a mother mode. I have a 8 yr daughter and when I see… Read more »
The description of symptoms of the Mother Wound is spot on for me. However, I am confused because I have a very caring, loving mother. She was a SAHM, but I never felt any resentment from her and don’t believe she has any. She has never been cold or distant. I think what might be going on is that I nevertheless feel responsible for her happiness. Her whole world is being my mother–to what I think is an unhealthy extent. Maybe i feel like i neef to make it worth it to her. When I do something she wouldn’t do, she becomes very upset with worry. She has over-the-top worrying problems, so I feel like I must stay within certain boundaries (or hide it when I don’t) so she doesn’t worry about me (I am in my mid twenties, by the way). In other words, she is warm and gives me constant positive feedback about how I am, so I don’t know where these symptoms (insecurity, weak boundaries, etc.) come from; my only guess is that my actions being so tied up to her emotions, and her perhaps unrealistic example of extreme self sacrifice (devoid of resentment) makes me feel… Read more »
Great article. I thought I had completely forgiven my mum and accepted her as she is. But when she acts towards my young son the way she acted towards me as a child, I find it hard to keep my cool, and also to set a limit between when she really goes too far and when it’s just me over-reacting because it reactivates old wounds. Luckily, she lives across the country and I only see her twice a year. I do a better job loving her from a safe distance.
I probably have mother wounds, I do feel a sense of anyone that resembles or sounds like my mother a sense of resentment, i’m a very loving person, very outspoken, but I do feel, that my mother was very manipulative as we got older she’d make us feel guilty etc for not doing what she wanted, when she’d get in a mood she wouldn’t cook and even hid food, that’s very true making your children so dependent that they become blind to the fact that they have been trained to feel they cannot do without you. I’ve trained myself throroughly to be detached or find some way to at least temporarily put aside those feelings. My mother would tell me her stories of racism and the usual BLACK people have to work harder than WHITE people to get anywhere in life, it really made me apprehensive further leaving me a vulnerable target for heartless people of other races to attack me subtly or aggressively, when you grow up in a world that’s full of racist, or lets say managers/ people who also had very broken parent’s it sort of becomes an excuse to be fearful and apprehensive. When I got… Read more »
Luna, thank you so so very much for writing this! A few months ago I went to a holistic place for an interview where they check your spiritual condition and one of the related problems was a deep Mother wound. I haven’t started to work on that yet because I was out of source, so thank you again. In your description I have noted that this bond between you and your mother and the consequent wound was very present, very clear. Even we as readers can feel the tension. It’s another side with another dimension of damage. My mother is Christian too but unlike your mother she was on the other side of the feminine spectrum. She actually embodies the archetype of the strong, independent woman. That’s what she has always been. She worked a lot which means a lot of alone time for me. I absolutely have no regret of that because it helped on my own independence. Both my parents were too young when they raised us and my father was specially hard to deal with. He had some problems with his anger and would eventually leave it for us, beating and punishing for no reason. For some… Read more »
Great article, Aletheia. My mom says that with age and time I will realize she too is human. Easier said than done, though! I did not realize it at the time, but I did grieve for the mother I wish I had. It was terrifying because I did not see a place for my mom to be in my life once I realized how damaging our relationship was. Yet, I immediately realized the small ways she is a positive influence in my life and a great mother for me. For instance, she is the ultimate cheerleader for me, the person who knows me the most and knows exactly what I need to hear when I am in distress, and is frequently sending me small items she thought I could use (like safety pins for sewing, or a decoration that I wanted but would never spend my money on). There is a lot that my mother has done that I do not understand…like having children with a man who repeatedly said “I do not want children, ever”. Yet, I hope I will understand some day. Until then, I do my best to respect and love her for who she is. My… Read more »
Hi Aletheia, Thanks for this great article. When I was young my father worked oversees and my mother was trying parent both my brother and I. She also lived away from her family in a different country and did not have the support she needed.
With that said I definitely find familiar feelings to what is described in your article. These feelings have been stronger lately. My dad cannot understand my ongoing issues with anxiety which I think developed from wounds imposed on me as a child. Only when my mom is around do I get more confidence and feel someone understands me.
I do not know where to start with moving away from these feelings into a more positive situation. I look forward to hearing other peoples stories to get more understanding of ways to move on.