Sooner or later on the spiritual awakening journey, we all taste the mysterious and intense phenomenon known as kundalini energy.
It might be smooth and subtle, or intense and explosive, but whatever the case, kundalini is a primal force of awakening.
In fact, sometimes people can experience full-blown kundalini awakenings spontaneously without any prior experience (or interest) in spiritual growth or transformation.
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Have you experienced a kundalini awakening?
If you’re curious to discover whether you’re going through a kundalini awakening or something else entirely, keep reading.
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What is a Kundalini Awakening?
Put simply, a kundalini awakening is a form of energetic awakening that causes us to transform on the mental, emotional, and spiritual levels.
Kundalini itself is a Sanskrit word that means “she who is coiled.” It refers to primordial life force energy contained at the base of the spine that is often depicted as a snake.
This serpentine energy, once awoken, travels up the various energy centers (or chakras) of the body and into your crown chakra where higher consciousness is triggered.
The result of this higher awareness is a greater understanding of your Soul (or True Nature), life purpose, and the nature of reality itself.
19 Symptoms of the Kundalini Awakening
As divine feminine energy, kundalini usually lies dormant in the root chakra (base of the spine).
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However, there are a number of different situations where kundalini can be suddenly awoken spanning from trauma to drug use, all the way to years of targeted practice (such as tantra or kundalini yoga).
Below, I’ve divided kundalini awakening symptoms into two groups: “light” and “dark” signs.
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Please note that kundalini energy is neither good nor bad, instead, it’s a primordial force that simply lives within us. However, to the human mind, some of these experiences are pleasant, and others are extremely unpleasant:
‘Light’ Kundalini Awakening Symptoms
- You feel a spiritual connection with the Divine that transcends the ego
- You are bathed in bliss and boundless love
- You experience periods of Oneness where your compassion for humanity increases
- You tap into extrasensory abilities (ESP) and/or develop extraordinary gifts
- Pleasurable sensations pulsate through your body
- You’re inspired to make big, life-altering decisions and authentic changes in your life
- Synchronicity (i.e., meaningful or miraculous coincidences) increases tremendously
- You have profound insights into your behavior and past experiences
- Your empathic abilities strengthen, and you can feel everything at a profound level
- You begin to understand the nature of the mind and how it influences reality
- You keep receiving big, cosmic “downloads” of information (soul communication)
‘Dark’ Kundalini Awakening Symptoms
- You experience intense, involuntary shaking of the body that can be alarming
- Your nervous system becomes hypersensitive to external stressors (bright lights, TV violence, loud noises) and shuts down or craves total solitude
- You struggle to sleep properly
- You experience sudden and shocking moments of ego death
- You have visual disturbances that can feel alarming (e.g., objects seeming to vibrate)
- You experience intense heat, vibrations, or electricity surge through your body
- It feels like you’re having a bad drug trip while sober
- You struggle to distinguish what is real from imagined (psychosis) and feel like you’re going crazy
If you would like to learn more about each of these symptoms and the stages they correspond to, you can read my article on Kundalini Awakening Stages.
Other Kundalini Awakening Symptoms
The above kundalini awakening signs are fairly common. However, as someone who has experienced the energy of kundalini move through me, I can say that it doesn’t happen in the exact same way for everyone.
One of the most recent experiences I’ve had with kundalini, for instance, was preceded by two weeks of low-scale feelings of ‘impending doom,’ followed by the kundalini energy gently moving from my head and down through my body into my stomach.
The energy felt gentle, like a soft breath of wind, and when it reached my stomach, it felt like it was ‘working’ on something there. Then it melted away and vanished.
Here are some other, and perhaps less common, kundalini awakening symptoms:
- Feeling shattered (fragmented) or like you have no center
- Dreaming of snakes or seeing snakes everywhere (this is an alert from your subconscious mind)
- Feeling raw and extremely vulnerable, like a newborn child
- Manic and exuberant energy or the opposite, chronic fatigue (sometimes alternating)
- Frequent lucid dreams or vivid dreams
- Seeing lights or hearing music that isn’t there
- Tapping into your past life experiences (or other people’s)
- Entering spontaneous yoga poses (known as kriyas), mudras (hand poses), or pranayama (yogic breathing)
- Developing a Savior Complex or feelings of grandiosity
- Feeling intense grief for the planet and all suffering beings
- Out-of-body experiences where you (may/may not) connect with your Higher Self
- Visual and hearing changes
- Panic attacks and feelings of terror
- Strange food cravings or aversions
- Spontaneous orgasms
- Developing strange, undiagnosable physical symptoms that may manifest as autoimmune conditions, digestive issues, nausea, etc.
Have you experienced any of the signs mentioned above? Feel free to share your experience in the comments. This might help others who have undergone similar experiences to not feel alone.
Is Kundalini Awakening Dangerous?
This is a fair question, especially considering some of the symptoms mentioned above.
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To answer the question, yes and no. Kundalini energy isn’t innately dangerous or bad. It’s our energy blockages that limit the flow of kundalini that make it a painful, scary, and sometimes dangerous experience.
In Georg Feuerstein’s book Tantra: Path of Ecstasy, he explores why kundalini can go haywire:
Without prior cleansing of the nādī system, raising the serpent power (kundalinī-shakti) along the axial pathway is not only impossible but also very dangerous to attempt, for instead of entering the central channel (sushumnā-nādī) it is likely to force itself into the idā- or the pingalā-nādī, on either side of the central channel, causing immense havoc in the body and mind.
In other words, when kundalini is prematurely stimulated or aroused in an incorrect way (aka., through inadequate preparation and clearing of our energetic body), the results can be disastrous. Thankfully, the experience doesn’t last forever, and we’ll explore what to do if you’re experiencing the ‘dark side’ of kundalini awakening a little later.
But to further illustrate, Feuerstein goes on to quote the experience of yogi and mystic Gopi Krishna during his spontaneous kundalini experience. He writes:
There were dreadful disturbances in all the organs, each so alarming and painful that I wonder how I managed to retain my self-possession under the onslaught. The whole delicate organism was burning, withering away completely under the fiery blast racing through its interior. I knew I was dying and that my heart could not stand the tremendous strain for long. My throat was scorched and every part of my body flaming and burning, but I could do nothing to alleviate the dreadful suffering. If a well or river had been near I would have jumped into its cold depths, preferring death to what I was undergoing. . . . I racked my distracted brain for a way of escape, only to meet blank despair on every side. The effort exhausted me and I felt myself sinking, dully conscious of the scalding sea of pain in which I was drowning.
I’ll stop there because I know that this might be alarming to you (or alternatively, affirming, helping you to see that you’re not alone if you’ve experienced this).
In short, kundalini is a mighty potent force.
If you’re seeking to awaken it, be sure you know what you’re doing and seek out trustworthy guidance. This is not something to be trifled with.
Spiritual Awakening vs. Kundalini Awakening – What’s the Difference?
While the two sound the same, they’re slightly different in nature.
The spiritual awakening process (or what we refer to as the spiritual wanderer’s journey) tends to be emotional and psychological. Kundalini awakening, on the other hand, is energetic: it’s a surge of energy that may be either gentle and gradual, or sudden and intense.
While kundalini awakening usually comes further down the road after someone has experienced a spiritual awakening, it doesn’t always.
As mentioned previously, kundalini can arise suddenly in response to psychedelic drug experiences, sexual encounters, or even traumatic situations.
Another distinguishing factor is that kundalini energy is felt very physically whereas the spiritual awakening is usually more mind and heart oriented.
So while intense vibrations and heat may be felt in the body during kundalini awakening, during spiritual awakening there is more of a soulful quality of deep questioning, insight, and transfiguration (some refer to this as spiritual alchemy).
Can someone experience both spiritual awakening and kundalini awakening at the same time? Yes, absolutely.
It’s for this reason that both tend to lead to the experience of the Dark Night of the Soul (or the inevitable after-effect of having felt like one has ‘lost touch’ with the Divine). Ultimately, they are two sides of the same coin.
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5 Hidden Traps of Kundalini Awakening
The kundalini shakti bestows liberation on yogins and bondage on the ignorant.
– Svātmarāma (15th century yogi master)
Kundalini awakening is a life-changing mystical experience that can feel magical, ecstatic, and profound. And it is. But there are also many hidden traps we can fall into after we’ve emerged out of the other end.
Some of these traps involve:
- Spiritual superiority – seeing yourself as “more awake” than others and looking down on those who are not as advanced or still “asleep” (also known as spiritual narcissism)
- Savior complex – adopting a disproportionate sense of self-grandiosity and specialness, believing that you’re sent to “save the world” (e.g., for those who have undergone kundalini psychosis, this can even mean believing they’re Jesus Christ or the next Buddha)
- Grasping and attachment – desperately trying to hold onto the blissful experiences of the kundalini awakening and being miserable (even entering crisis mode) when it’s inevitably lost (this can result in spiritual materialism and the dark night of the soul)
- Spiritual nihilism – taking universal truths and misapplying them to a human level, e.g., “all is an illusion,” “nothing ultimately matters” which breeds a sense of dissociation, emptiness, and cynicism
- Avoidance – avoiding or spiritually bypassing everyday responsibilities and focusing only on “higher spiritual matters” (this is essentially a way for the ego to avoid growing up and integrating the experience at a human level)
I explore a variety of different spiritual issues that can arise on the spiritual wanderer’s journey which you can check out in the Traps & Pitfalls section of this site.
How to Handle a Kundalini Awakening
If your kundalini has awoken and you’re feeling overwhelmed, here’s some guidance:
1. Be gentle with yourself and take care of your nervous system
Likely, your nervous system is going into overdrive if you’re having a painful kundalini experience. Some ways to calm your nerves can include:
- Taking a warm bath with essential oils like lavender (you can also try magnesium salts). If a warm bath doesn’t sound like your cup of tea, try a cold shower. Be mindful and notice how your body and mind respond to the temperature of the water.
- Find something/someone that brings you a feeling of safety. This might be cuddling your dog or cat, asking your partner or friend to hold you, finding a cozy nook in nature, or relaxing in a corner of your house that brings you comfort.
- Listen to calming music.
- Try slow guided breathing using an app like Calm or InsightTimer. (Be mindful of how your body responds. Stop immediately at the first sign of discomfort.)
- Ground yourself outdoors in nature.
- Eat grounding foods (potatoes, root vegetables, organic meat)
2. Stop all spiritual practice temporarily
Yes, your spiritual practice might be amplifying the effects of your kundalini awakening. So stop. Let yourself rest. If you crave a replacement practice, try mindfulness as it helps to ground you in the present moment. Read my article on the spiritual emergency for more helpful ideas.
3. Seek out compassionate help
If you still struggle with the kundalini energy being too intense, I strongly recommend seeking out the guidance of a transpersonal or depth psychotherapist. The best guides are those who understand the importance of integrating the mind and spirit (or spiritual psychology).
There are also people who specialize in kundalini awakening help that you can find online – but tread carefully. Trust your instincts. If you feel worse or if you get weird vibes about someone, you don’t owe them any explanation. Leave. Find someone else. You have the right to get the guidance you need.
Kundalini Awakening FAQ
Here are some other questions you might have about this powerful experience on the spiritual journey:
Usually, there is a period of long integration after the kundalini awakening experience. In other words, it takes a while for the mind, heart, and soul of a person to fully comprehend what they’ve been through and translate that into daily life. For some (extremely) rare people, kundalini awakening results in liberation from the separate self and the realization of non-dual awareness (also known as ‘enlightenment’).
There are many methods out there that help to stimulate kundalini energy. Most involve either Tantric and/or Yogic practice. Visualization, plant medicines (like psilocybin mushrooms and ayahuasca), certain breathwork techniques, belly dancing, and meditations also help to awaken kundalini energy. But remember to always be gentle, go slowly, and know what you’re doing. Kundalini energy is powerful and not to be messed around with.
The answer is that it varies for everyone. Some people experience the awakening of kundalini early on their spiritual path (indeed, for some it actually triggers the spiritual search). For others, kundalini awakens after many years of spiritual practice. There is no set-in-stone rule here: it depends on your unique energetic blockages, destiny, soul, and many other factors.
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As the kundalini awakens, you naturally become aware of your true nature, the nature of God, and the purpose of your existence. It is an accelerated path to God-Realization, and can create many extraordinary experiences and realizations.
– Steven Sadleir (Looking For God)
Kundalini awakening can happen gradually and subtly or explosively and rapidly on our spiritual awakening journeys.
Known as the Serpent Power, the Inner Woman, and the essence of Shakti, kundalini energy can be a force of tremendous awakening or deep enslavement. The key is to be mindful, practice spiritual discernment, trust in your soul’s strength, and seek help where needed.
Remember that the ultimate purpose of kundalini is to dissolve the inner knots that keep you small and limited, helping you to awaken to your Eternal, Primordial, True Nature.
Have you had a kundalini awakening experience? What was it like? I’d be fascinated to hear below.
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Ever since I activated kundalini I have experienced nasty things attaching to me, I also experience torture as if Satan him or herself has control over me and has used family and friends say and do things that were part of the torture. I’m not exactly sure the kundalini started it or helped it to attach itself to me more. No one should try these kundalini activation sites, it poses danger.
Try to practice energy shield work. You are probably experiencing other people’s emotions more intensely. Try to practice building a mental shield of your energy around you. You will start to feel less ‘weighed’ down.
I have been experiencing a KA for 3 years now, and am at the far-end of my abilities to cope. I’m in constant pain. Can you recommend a counselor or therapist who won’t try to write this off as a “psychic break”?
I would truly appreciate your guidance.
I’m sorry to hear that Jeff. Unfortunately we can’t recommend anyone due to lack of knowledge of your location but I’d recommend going through the spiritual emergency article which has links to a network that can help with these periods.
I had a kundalini awakening during a 5 hour meditation session. The guides took us to a place where I was able to forgive my abusive father. I also connected with my higher self – we “merged”. It was a beautiful experience full of love. It is then that I felt this energy going up and around my spine, it made my back sway and then my head when the “snake” (I now understand why it’s called like that – it feels like a snake going up the spine!) went up to my crown chakra; there was a feeling of bliss.
It was completely unexpected! I didn’t have any negative experiences other than my body shaking a bit and being slightly out of breath.
I’ve been feeling at peace since it happened a couple of days ago. I’m not sure how else it’ll affect me in the long run but I feel like everything will be fine : )
I experienced the same but instead of it being a snake it was a dragon and when I opened my mouth I breathe fire
Its not just waking kundalini energy through your body but taking that energy and creating a complex pattern, similar to the pattern of a snowflake but more intricate, that matches your conscience pattern. The apex of this process is to be able to open the dimensional doors to the next level of heaven through thought.
Since having acupuncture I have been experiencing vibration an shaking jumping muscle in my legs, I feel as though it’s trapped energy that needs to work upwards towards my head, does this sound like kundalini energy?
Sept 18, 2022 I had a basic Christian education. At age 50, had a spiritual epiphany about my alcoholism. I follow the 12 steps. That was 1987. Since then I have been in spiritual warfare.
I have had many contacts with one dark entity in both physical and invisible forms. I tried to
teach him about love, but he is unable/unwilling to learn. I am now trying to disconnect, but he keeps contacting me.
I would advise everyone to be sure that your experiences are not Demonic. Opening spiritual doors can be dangerous.
I was with fiends in a smoke circle (cannabis) & another “friend” pulled up. I said what’s up with excitement cause I don’t see these guys very often. So I said “what’s up, M” and he greats me with an insult, but he said it with evil intent. I never expected this from someone who I considered an equal.
After the insult I said, while still happy to see him, “why would you call me that?”.
I remember looking down in sadness for a split second and immediately felt an explosion from my core and expelling like a shockwave.
All who were gathered felt the shockwave and scattered afterwards.
Then it was just me and my “friend” face to face.
I could feel his fear.
His confidence disappeared.
I did not attack him even tho I wanted to and knew that in the state i was in i may have put him in the hospital. Something held me back. Other things were said, but the threat had been dissolved.
After that we went our separate ways.
It’s been almost a year since.
I have been searching for answers, but have not found anything that can resolve my questions and ultimately felt like some of the dark side effects of this occurrence. I even thought I was Christ. I even look like man’s image of Christ, which should have been the 1st red flag.
Idk what’s goin on with me, but I did receive comfort after reading this article.
If anyone can relate, please, I want my life to matter.
It’s not surprising you felt like Christ. One of the elements of awakening is realising who you really are which is pf course is God. There is only God, God is everything. We are all God interacting in the world but saddled with a body, mind and ego which add the unique identity traits and create the illusion of separateness. So in my mind seeing yourself as God is just fine and only becomes a distortion if you think you are the “only” God. All the others are just unawakened versions of God.
Hi, please can you answer me if you ever met this situation?
For about a month I have been “suffering” from sporadic events which to date have decreased both in frequency and intensity.
The first time it happened to me in the evening after dinner, while I was sitting quietly at the table.
It was repeated the following day and then two more … At other times, it happened to me in the afternoon while I was getting ready to mow the lawn, while I was out on my bicycle in the morning and once in the car too.
It “caught” me in both heat and coolness, while I was fatigued and while I was calm, both under exertion and at rest.
The event consists of a chain of almost always the same sensations that starts with a sort of call to the abdomen without any pain, followed – not always – by an erection, which then rises along the left chest area to the heart, to finish at the head.
The first few times it ended with a progressive, almost total glare of sight.
All accompanied by very pleasant idyllic thoughts that I systematically forget after a few seconds.
Trying to remember certain thoughts I believe triggered some of the events.
The sensations I feel in the moment are neither painful nor unpleasant, on the contrary everything is much sought after by me.
The “strongest” part is when everything rises to the level of the heart because I feel in a stalemate and it is as if even the beats stopped.
The whole thing lasts about 20 seconds and as soon as it arrived it goes away, like the air of a fan that by rotating it caresses, without shock of any kind.
Thanks to this I realize it: the attention that draws me to the belly gives me all the time to “prepare” in safety.
I have not had any major changes in my life and the fact that it is such a random event leaves me perplexed.
I haven’t seen a physician because happily i have no illness to cure :)
Thank You in advance!!
Hello,
Thank you for writing this article.
I am now in my 42nd year on this planet and stumbled across this information yesterday whilst doing a Google search.
Without going into lots of details about my past self indulgent addictions,my mind has felt at rest after reading the symptoms of kundalini awakening.
It is something that I have experienced involuntarily since my first OBE when I was 3.
I have resonated with all the light and dark symptoms repeatedly since childhood. They have subsided greatly now in comparison to how the dark symptoms could be experienced. All very extreme in my case.
I was tested for epilepsy,had a narcolepsy and chronic fatigue diagnosis all as a result of these experiences.I took medication for years when all that was needed was a change of diet and energy shifting.I am still working on these now though I manage.
I feel as though I have found the ‘root’ cause of these experiences that have caused my existence to be so full on.
Thank you. I hope that your article benefits many people.
I recently finished 14 weeks of 7th Path hypnotherapy. I’m up to the 9th recognition. I practice these daily. A few weeks ago I had an experience that was quite intense. My whole body stiffened and my back arched for… I’m not sure how long. I had been fairly deep in self hypnosis and was truly feeling at peace with waves of purple dancing in my mind’s eye. Then it hit. I thought I was having a grand Mal seizure. Afterwards i was super energized like i had been hit with an energy defribilator. I’ve had it happen a few more times but not as intense. When I begin my sessions I ask my higher self to be gentle with the energy being provided to me. I can’t control when it happens. It is quite exhilarating but I am very new on my spiritual journey and don’t believe all of my Chakras are open.
Hello Aletheia I have commented about my kundalini experience before and I have known that i needed just to let the experience be. After that if any one in this article is having coincidence with numbers 555, 999, 888,777, 444 weirdly.
Yes definitely, it started with ones then two three’s fours
Eg 11.01 2.22 3.33 14.44
You said, “In other words, when kundalini is prematurely stimulated or aroused in an incorrect way (aka. through inadequate preparation and clearing of our energetic body), the results can be disastrous, ” wouldn’t last forever so to speak, but what if it does? How does someone in this situation get control of themselves?
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The time is 03:03, and for the past few weeks my life has been turned upside down by an uncontrollable energy that I can’t ignore, it started with my sleeping routine changing, and recognition of mirror hour numbers, to experiencing excruciating painful to light and sound, to uprooting all of my past childhood traumas and loss of interest in my daily habits and all this is happening unprojected or sought out, I had no idea what was happening to me, I was breaking down, it felt like I was rolling down a huge mountain and I felt as though I had become a spectator in my own life. Every decision was taken on my behalf and it didn’t make sense, eg I would prior get warnings or something to either change or pick up something and if I ignore it, it happens gradually. I’m currently unemployed because I felt suddenly the need to leave my job but logically I couldn’t, it wasn’t possible so gradually my performance at work dropped without me notice how bad I had become at what I was once excellent in and one day I had to wake up to go to work but I strongly felt not going and naturally I would force myself whenever I get such episodes, till today the last I remember was setting the kettle on and sat down to prepare for the day and I woke up that evening at 17:17 and ever since that day mirror numbers have been kinda like guiding me and helping me understand a bit of what I’m experiencing, I’m still in the dark days it’s been about 3 weeks now so saying this out loud still a little hard to get used to, So I kept arguing with myself and trying to reason with what was happening but this is where things got scary and weird, like anyone else I started to firstly I want know what was happening to me, secondly I had to know why and thirdly I had to know how to either get rid of it or deal with it so I did research starting with sleeping routine changing, loss of interest and loss of energy. Boy oh boy the results had my heart sky rocketing I thought oh no I’m losing it, I’m crazy but then again I don’t resonate with any of it so I escalated to investigating the mirror numbers and then I felt a little more at ease and since then I have been trying to understand the turmoil but still still feels like surely I’m experiencing spiritual awakening but still feels like I’m missing something because I’m experiencing more than what comes of my research, I have recently accepted that my subconscious and conscious mind needs to co-exit and every now and then one has to sit back and trust the other, I had to believe it especially when literally I would think something and minutes from that it happens, if a person next to me or in the same room as me had a certain pain I can get it as well nothing major just, cramps and headaches, I see lights, hear sounds and can sense if I’m being lied to or pick up signals about how a person is truly feeling, I recently find myself having answers to riddles or questions that otherwise I wouldn’t know, I experience every emotion and given that I was originally extroverted lately I feel introverted and extroverted because I am learning when to talk and when to shut up which is hard because I am talkative, I have this amazing feeling like my body is running with current and some days it’s a high and it feels wonderful like I have a new best friend and we navigate through life together and other days it hurts so bad that getting out of bed becomes a dreadful mission, I love my intuition and I have to admit I love the power it comes with it but until today I couldn’t put a name to it and hopefully now that I have it will shed some light on how to understand more, though I’m scared and greaful because I’m experiencing both spiritual awakening and Kundalini, in my experience both balance each other and I’m still learning more and with every single revelation or discovery be it painful or amazing, I just love and appreciate everything. For once in my life I’m not the victim nor am I the villin and funny enough I’ve never felt more content than now because even though everything is so painful and dark, I’m isolated and jobless and homeless, I don’t really feel lonely, have never went to bed hungry and I always have a roof for the night. I had to swallow my pride and I was humiliated and my ego shattered but I have more control over how I feel, I learned how to ask for help and how to speak my feelings and I have seen myself and the world for what it is and now every decision I make, I am happy about it because I feel it comes from a clear perspective. I’m still learning how to settle down with myself and I guess I’m enjoying the rebuilding. Other days are good and other days are bad, some days are wonderful and other days are dreadful but everyday is adventurous and a blessing. My advice is to allow every season run its course, don’t force anything and don’t feel guilty about anything.