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19 Signs You Were Raised By a Narcissistic Mother or Father

by Aletheia Luna ยท Updated: Sep 9, 2021 ยท 398 Comments

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Learning how to understand and make peace with your childhood is one of the most healing and empowering experiences you could ever go through.

When we were children, we looked up to our parents for support, encouragement, nurturing and love.

But when we were denied these things, we developed a variety of beliefs, behavioral patterns, and coping mechanisms to help us survive in such a difficult environment.


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As adults, we often play out these same coping mechanisms, often to our own detriment.

The thing about being the child of a narcissistic mother and/or father is that it often contributes to something known in shamanic terminology as soul loss.

Soul loss is the inability to contact or experience our souls due to the unresolved wounds, traumas, and fears weโ€™ve accumulated over the years.

The first step in healing this soul loss is to be willing to explore what you went through as a child.

This process of exploring the narcissistic actions of your parent isnโ€™t done to condemn them or to victimize yourself.

Instead, this process is done to help you understand the root cause of any pain youโ€™re still experiencing, to learn how to release it, and to move on with your life. This becomes a strengthening and rejuvenating process.

19 Signs You Had a Narcissistic Mother and/or Father

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The thing about having a narcissistic mother and/or father is that you have been taught to believe that you are the crazy and imbalanced one, instead of them. This causes you to constantly doubt yourself and any feelings you have about them.ย 


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Another major sign of being raised by narcissists is the constant guilt you struggle with. In other words, while you might suspect that there is something โ€œoffโ€ with your parents, you feel ashamed to think about them in such a way, and you tend to start beating yourself up instead.

But there is a very good reason why youโ€™ve come to this article. And while you may still have lingering doubts, I hope the following information can clear your mind.

Firstly, you should know that there are two main kinds of narcissists:

  1. Engulfing Narcissists โ€” these are parents who see their children as extensions of themselves. In other words, engulfing narcissistic parents become obsessively involved in your life to an extreme extent. They donโ€™t respect your boundaries or acknowledge you as a separate person.
  2. Ignoring Narcissists โ€” these are parents who have very little interest in their children. Ignoring narcissists clearly see the boundary between themselves and their children. As a result, they neglect to take care of their children or show an active interest in their lives.

Depending on what type of narcissistic parent you have, you’ll struggle with slightly different (but similar) issues.

So …

How does a narcissistic mother or father behave?

Here are some of the main signs:

  1. They tried to control you through codependency
  2. They laid on the guilt thick
  3. They only loved you when you did what THEY wanted
  4. They liked to โ€œget evenโ€ with you
  5. They never respected your boundaries
  6. They competed with you
  7. They โ€œownedโ€ your accomplishments
  8. They constantly lied to you
  9. They never listened to (or cared) about your feelings
  10. They constantly insulted you
  11. They exerted explicit control over you
  12. They gaslighted you
  13. They โ€œparentifiedโ€ you
  14. They had a โ€œfavoriteโ€ or โ€œgoldenโ€ child
  15. They reacted intensely to any form of criticism
  16. They projected their bad behavior onto you
  17. They never displayed any empathy
  18. They were infallibly correct and never wrong
  19. They liked to present a perfect family image to outsiders

Keep in mind that there’s a difference between narcissistic behavior (which only comes out every now and then) and narcissism. We all have a tendency to be narcissistic given the right circumstances (such as high stress). But narcissism is ongoing, chronic, and pathological.

I’ll go into these nineteen signs more in depth below:ย 

1. They tried to control you through codependency

In other words, you were told by your parent/s, โ€œDonโ€™t leave me. I need you. I canโ€™t live without you.โ€ This made it impossible for you to live an autonomous life or establish independent priorities other than catering to the needs of your parent/s.

2. They laid on the guilt thick

Another method of controlling you was to constantly guilt trip you into doing what they wanted. They may have told you, โ€œIโ€™ve done so much for you, Iโ€™ve sacrificed everything for you.โ€ As a result, you felt indebted to them and as though you โ€œowedโ€ them complete obedience.

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3. They only loved you when you did what THEY wanted

Your parent/s withdrew love very easily. If you failed to do what they wanted, they would either punish you severely or give you the silent treatment. You had the impression that they only loved you when you PROVED your worth to them.

4. They liked to โ€œget evenโ€ with you

When you didย something โ€œwrongโ€ or against their will โ€” even in the smallest way โ€” they made sure they punished you. This petty and childish way of โ€œgetting evenโ€ may have been subtle or very obvious. For instance, they may haveย deliberately sabotaged something you cared about, broke something of yours, or hid something to get back at you.

5. They never respected your boundaries

There wasn’t any โ€œprivateโ€ space to call your own growing up. Your narcissistic mother or father would go through your room and private belongings, without a thought, sometimes even using what they found against you.

6. They competed with you

If you ever got something nice, they took it from you or got something nicer to โ€œout-doโ€ you.

7. They โ€œownedโ€ your accomplishments

Whenever someone complimented your achievements, your parent/s would instantly jump in and shift the attention to themselves. For example, if someone congratulated you for winning a soccer trophy, your parent/s would butt in and say something along the lines of, โ€œYes, she gets it from me. I was always athletic as a child.โ€ They love the spotlight and frequently stole it from you.

8. They constantly lied to you

Your parent/s lied to manipulate, control and take advantage of you in some way, shape or form. You never knew what you could trust was โ€œrealโ€ or truthful around them, or whether they were setting up a hidden trap for you to fall into.

9. They never listened to (or cared) about your feelings

You felt that you could never share your feelings with your parent/s because they would either make fun of you or talk about themselves instead. Somehow, whatever issue you faced as a child was spun into a pity party for them, not you.

10. They constantly insulted you

Your narcissistic mother or father berated, demeaned and harassed you on a constant basis. They may have even latched onto an insecurity of yours and used it to humiliate you.

11. They exerted explicit control over you

In other words, when you didnโ€™t obey them, they would punish you. The message was very clear, โ€œObey me, or Iโ€™ll punish you.โ€ You were punished through emotional or physical abuse including emotional blackmail, hitting or beating.

12. They gaslighted you

In order to control you, they used a psychological manipulation tactic known as gaslighting. What this means is that they would deliberately make you feel crazy, or cause you to doubt your sanity, in order to gain the upper hand. This led to the development of constant self-doubt during your childhood, adolescence and present life. Read more about gaslighting.

13. They โ€œparentifiedโ€ you

As a child, you were expected to โ€œparentโ€ your parent, or behave as a surrogate parent to cater to their needs, instead of them catering to yours.

14. They had a โ€œfavoriteโ€ or โ€œgoldenโ€ child

In your family, there was the โ€œgoldenโ€ child and the โ€œscapegoatโ€ child. In other words, one child was seen as perfect and capable of doing no harm. The other child was seen as the black sheep and the cause of all issues (this is also known as an identified patient). These roles could have also switched frequently.

15. They reacted intensely to any form of criticism

Did you ever criticize your mother or father? What was their general reaction? If your mother and/or father was a narcissist, they likely reacted in an extreme way. They would scream at you and likely physically hurt you through smacking, or some other method.

16. They projected their bad behavior onto you

For example, if you were in an argument, your narcissistic mother or father would hysterically scream at you, โ€œ How dare you talk to your mother that way. Go to your room. Weโ€™ll talk after you stop screaming at me.โ€

17. They never displayed any empathy

They never asked about your feelings, sympathized with you, or cared. They seemed to be solely interested in their own feelings.


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18. They were infallibly correct and never wrong

Even when they made a mistake or treated you in an unfair, or unjust way, they never apologized for their mistake. When you confronted them about it, they denied all accusations and tried to spin the blame onto you.

19. They liked to present a perfect family image to outsiders

Your parent/s went to great lengths to ensure that others perceived you as a loving/successful/enviable family. Likely, you were very aware of this ploy but kept silent for fear of wrath from your parent/s.

How to Confirm That Youโ€™re the Child of a Narcissistic Mother / Father

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After reading through this list of symptoms you might still be unsure of how to define your parent/s. Thatโ€™s normal. Your narcissistic mother and/or father wouldnโ€™t have exhibited all of the signs above (but if they did, pay attention).

If youโ€™re the child of a narcissist, you will likely struggle with these problems:

  • Codependency in other relationships
  • Weak sense of self
  • Poor personal boundaries and inability to say โ€œnoโ€
  • Chronic guilt or toxic shame
  • Self-loathing
  • Emptiness
  • Trust issues
  • Inability to express or handle emotions (resulting in emotional numbness)
  • Anxiety or depression
  • Being a people-pleaser

How many signs can you relate to? Obviously, the more issues you can say ‘yes’ to, the more likely you can confirm (without a doubt) that you were raised by a narcissistic mother or father.

Click on any of the linked articles in the list above to gain further guidance.

How Do You Deal With a Narcissistic Mother or Father?

What next?

If youโ€™re quite sure that one, or both, of your parents, was a narcissist, itโ€™s likely that they still have some kind of involvement in your life. Many narcissist support groups recommend cutting off contact from such parents or interacting them in small, measured ways (such as through a phone call, or text message).

To begin your process of soul healing, you might like to do the following:

  • Stop hoping that your narcissistic parent will change โ€” you can never change them.
  • Allow yourself to grieve the parent you never had.
  • Understand that you have been raised to suppress and deny your feelings. Now is a good opportunity to slowly open up to those years of repressed feelings. You can do this by seeking traditional psychotherapy that focuses onย shadow work, or alternative methods such as shamanic healing, hypnotherapy, holistic remedies, etc.
  • Learn to take care of your own needs through the practice of self-care.
  • Learn how to love yourself.
  • Reconnect with your inner child and learn how to care for it in a way your parents never could. This is called inner child work.
  • Keep an active daily journal in which you self-reflect. This will help you become more self-aware. Learn more about how to journal.
  • Explore soul retrieval, which is a vital part of inner work.
  • Express your emotions in a healthy way, particularly any anger you have inside.
  • Join a support group and connect with others who have experienced similar childhood experiences. You can find many on Facebook, or you could search the internet for local groups.
  • Arm and empower yourself with knowledge by reading books such as “Becoming the Narcissist’s Nightmare” and “Disarming the Narcissist.”

While you may feel broken, itโ€™s important to remember that you are not broken. Your soul can never be broken. It is still there, waiting for you to access. This experience only serves to show you that everything you need is within you. No matter what your childhood was like, itโ€™s still possible to heal and reunite with that source of unconditional joy, wonder and love inside.

I hope this article supports your healing and growth. If you want to share your experience growing up with a narcissistic mother and/or father, please comment below. You’re welcome to keep your comment anonymous (by using our website’s comment system). Your email is always kept private.

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About Aletheia Luna

Aletheia Luna is a prolific psychospiritual writer, author, educator, and intuitive guide whose work has touched the lives of millions worldwide. As a survivor of fundamentalist religious abuse, her mission is to help others find love, strength, and inner light in even the darkest places. She is the author of hundreds of popular articles, as well as numerous books and journals on the topics of Self-Love, Spiritual Awakening, and more. [Read More]

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  1. Tanvy Gupta says

    July 07, 2020 at 2:59 pm

    My dad is not close to me. Not at all. And that’s alright, because my mom fulfills it. But whenever he’s home, me, my younger sibling, and mom, we retreat to my room and sit and chat together, or do what we like to, like mom and I would read, and my brother would paint or play. Sometimes, my dad would come to us and start yelling at us, asking us why we don’t go to him. What’s even worse, if we go to him for things we need, he makes us count that, saying “yeah, now is obviously the time you’d come to me” . Also, at times, he calls us out of our work, just so that he can tell at us, or tell us that we’ll “regret being with our mom all the time” some day, or ignoring him. The fact is, that our relationship is extremely strained. He thinks that since he is earning, we should worship at his feet, or something. There was this time, that I was talking to my parents, and i recounted my first experience of drinking, that my uncle promoted. I told them that he made me some mixture with Vodka and coke, and how he fooled me, also, when I took a sip of rum, from the bottle my mom had ordered, to make rum cake, and how I had to wipe my tongue on a coarse towel, after that. My mom was laughing heartily, my dad’s eyes were red with anger. He asked me monotonously, “you’ve drunk?” Obviously mom came to rescue.

    My mom always told me not to disclose a lot in front of Dad, I thought she did that to show him smaller, in my eyes. But after this situation, where he looked like he would have hit me, had not mom countered, I made it religiously sure,that I never opened up to him. And I was genuinely scared he would hit me, because I’ve grown up being hit, with what not. Badminton racket, cycle pump, utensil stirer, wooden hairbrush. There was this time when my mom was yelling at me for not studying, he even came with a knife, saying “end it ones and for all” . And then everybody looked at me as if it was my fault. I was in 3rd grade, even I thought it was my fault.

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  2. Leah says

    June 30, 2020 at 5:04 am

    I have done a lot of work on myself and research into toxic narcissistic parents in order to try to keep healing from my own toxic childhood. This article and associated information is the most insightful and precise I’ve ever read. Thank you so much for everything you do. For those of you still attempting some kind of relationship with an adult who physically / mentally/ emotionally and/ or sexually abused you, I can strongly recommend cutting all ties and focussing on your own life. I’m 50 now and have been free of all ( previously intermittent contact since age 13)contact for 25 years. No regrets. Reclaim your life, your heart and your soul. One love to all

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  3. Lori says

    June 16, 2020 at 9:19 am

    This amazes me! I’ve been asking many people questions as to why my mother always seemed to be jealous of me, her only daughter. But my husband figured her out early on and she didn’t like that. For years I wondered if I could ever get on her good side. Now she treats me like I am her mortal enemy and absolutely no one will stand up to her (because she puts on a victim act around anyone who will listen) which makes me wonder if anyone else experiences this too or am I her favorite to hate and abuse. Amazing!

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  4. Yesenia says

    June 08, 2020 at 3:59 am

    It was shocking when I came across this article but then it clicked.
    My mother tried to murder me when I was 14 and I was out on my own and met a man much older than me and got into a relationship. I would always think of him and my mother being 2 sides of the same coin. Little did I know how right I was!
    It was very abusive, as you can imagine.
    To make matters worse I didn’t know I was an empath.
    On top of that we had a child who died at 6 weeks for no reason (SIDS). A big 9lb baby boy who I took for his first check up the week before he died and the doctor said “That’s not a baby! That’s a toddler!” I felt so proud and was reading books on your child’s self-esteem. I promised myself I would never treat him like both of them treated me. Even his father called me a tigress because I was so protective. My mother actually gave me a compliment after he died and said I’d been a great mother!
    However, the trauma of losing him was so great I became dissociative for many months.
    Finally, one day I started to feel and said I missed him and started crying. My mother yelled at me and told me not to cry and because I could never disobey her I stopped. About 2 years later I had a psychotic breakdown and believed that if I got back with his father (who I managed to get out of my life and that wasn’t easy) I could have a baby and it would be my son! Yeah I was crazy and I had no support.
    To make this very long story short I learned that he was also a narcissist. I learned that I was an empath just recently; thanks to all of your information; and how a relationship with a narcissist is the worst.
    I’m 45 now and I divorced him when I was 23. I cut all contact with him until recently (I kept having constant dreams of him all of a sudden during my dark night of the soul.) I had to contact him. I’m glad I did because I had repressed so many memories my entire life from that relationship. My spiritual awakening began and although I thought I had forgiven him decades ago I truly hadn’t because I didn’t remember everything.
    I’m still dealing with these memories and working with my inner child along with shadow work, spiritual awakening and being an empath. I’ve been doing a lot of work lol.
    As for my mother I’ve had no contact with her for 10 years. I mourned that she never loved me but have been able to forgive her, love her and pity her because she is a victim like me.
    She was also abused by her mother and just repeated the cycle and so I know she’s never healed and won’t.
    I have you both to thank for helping me grow spiritually and learn who I really am.
    Now I’m working through the exhusband thing and it’s very painful but I have faith I’ll get through it.
    Thank you โค

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  5. Joyce Jackson says

    April 30, 2020 at 10:52 am

    I remember as a little girl leaving notes in my dad’s dresser asking why he didn’t love me. Wow now I’m starting to understand thanks

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  6. Amy says

    April 30, 2020 at 1:00 am

    This is so enlightening. Iโ€™ve just discovered your site and Iโ€™ve been reading for hours now! Thank you for the work you both are doing โ™ฅ๏ธ I am 37 and still and coming to more realizations of how Iโ€™m so limited by early beliefs created in me by my mother and the intensely oppressive Christian environment. I hadnโ€™t thought specifically about narcissism although I had suspected mental illness. I myself spent time in psychiatric institutions to heal my trauma/depression and panic disorders. Anyway this hit the nail on the head as did the article about the mother wound. I am an empath and Iโ€™m currently trying to get pregnant. Iโ€™m hoping that through healing the mother wound and inner child work I might also affect my ability to conceive! Many thanks again.

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  7. Sophie says

    April 27, 2020 at 4:40 am

    In my case, my father shows narcissist behavior.
    The worst or most profound characteristics I could recognize were: Not being loved for who I really am or want to be, rejecting my interests and feelings, manipulation in form of guilt and blaming and letting no room for individual development.

    For me the worst thing is that I feel like everything I bring to the table or anything I talk or think about has no value at all. My father was always the only one talking at the dinner table. Most of the time he spoke badly about other people or told us about what he managed to do on that day. Nobody else ever said more than 5 sentences and I always felt so emotionally wracked after dinner.
    I can also observe this feeling of not being important in my social activities. In school I felt like it did not matter what I had to say and in friendships believe that nobody really listens to what I have to say. And that really hurts because my friends are the only people I actually open up to from time to time.

    When I was young I really liked gymnastics but my father did not like me doing that sport and with time he disliked it even more to a point where he forbid me to do gymnastics any longer. He pressured me into another sport, that gave me many opportunities but I did not do because of passion or motivation originating from self-fulfillment. I basically pursued that sport to make my father like me even a little.

    I few of my friends he disliked as well. He really said some mean things about them so I would not do the same. In other words, he despised my friends. Thus, i felt like he hated me because of course I was a little similar to them. Self-hatred is something I really struggle with. I can’t accept myself, not even physically. My dad body shamed me when I hit puberty and was getting more feminin features. I really suffered and still do as I always think of myself as dumb or ugly.

    Most importantly, he tries to control my career. With lending me money to go to university and buying an apartment for me he, wants to keep control in form of me having to pay him back. I want to be able to finance myself and have no connection what so ever with him. This is my biggest dream actually, to never have to talk to him again because I know I feel so much happier when he is not around, it is like my soul can finally breathe.

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  8. Cort says

    April 12, 2020 at 1:35 am

    Last year I was dating this man and after a month or so I realized that he was a narcissist and began researching the topic. Suddenly, a light bulb went on: he was the male version of my mother. They both are obsessed with looks, want to be seen as perfect angles, it’s never their fault, they need constant attention etc.
    I’ve always thought my mother and I just had different personalities and we didn’t click. It is so much more than that. It all makes sense now.
    My mom has three kids with three different men and I’m the middle child. She is very pretty, well spoken, acts prissy/too perfect, and is very extroverted. People would tell me how wonderful she is but it’s all an act.
    If I were too look terrible at home she would let me know but since she tells me when I look good it’s okay. She will even say, “you look great, you look just like ME!” It’s okay to put me down because she gives me compliments. Her words.
    When I would bring up something that was making me upset or down she would tell me to go talk to a therapist or my father. “What do you want me to do?”, she would say. But when she has a problem, she wants everybody’s attention NOW.
    She never had a career or a trade. She said is was too hard to figure out what to do, despite having the means and time to learn something. My mom’s life plan was to look good and have men take care of her (they did). She worked odd jobs here and there but she wasn’t ever going to do more than that. My half-sister, the oldest, is the same way and she is the golden child.
    Last year my father passed away and I had to move back to my home state to take care of some issues. I had to move back in with my mom and step-dad because it is too bloody expensive where I’m from. It shouldn’t be too much longer here and I really don’t see myself talking to my mom ever again. Living under the same room and seeing how she acts is frightening. She loves to tell my step-dad what to do and when, even though he the reason why we live in a nice house. She would be nothing without him.
    I left my home state when I was 21 and moved all over the states and a few other countries due to work or personal reasons. I was never sad that I was away from my mom. I hated talking to her because the conversation all about her or my half-sister. I couldn’t wait to hang up the darn phone. I don’t wish her harm but if I never talked to her again I wouldn’t shed one tear.
    My mom thinks she is an amazing mother because we had a clean house, good food, birthday parties etc. She doesn’t see herself as anything but perfect.
    I could go on and on and on. I really wish that I figured this out sooner. This is where my low self-esteem comes and self-sabotaging ways comes from. I would beat myself up for the littlest things and the majority of my life I wondered what the heck is wrong with me.
    Thank you for this blog and all of the others who shared their stories. I’ve always felt that I was alone or that I was crazy and needed a therapist like my mother said. Again, THANK YOU.

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    • Cathy says

      April 24, 2020 at 5:44 am

      Thank you so much for sharing this. I can relate SO much to a lot of what you said, especially the part where you said: “Iโ€™ve always thought my mother and I just had different personalities and we didnโ€™t click. It is so much more than that. It all makes sense now.” I think maybe the reason me and my mom don’t “click” is because I’m an empath and I really think she is a narcissist. Our personalities are polar opposites. And the fact that I feel emotions so strongly means that whenever I don’t do things when, how, and why she wants me to do them, I feel her frustration and anger with me ten times stronger. I’m so happy I found this article. I feel like everything’s not my fault after all.

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    • Snow says

      June 26, 2020 at 11:44 am

      Thanks for sharing your examples. Iโ€™m just now realizing that my mother is a narcissist. Iโ€™m actually staying with her until tomorrow because my ex was a narc (and I needed to leave fast)….now only to piece the puzzle together that my mom is the same way (in a slightly different manner). Agh I always wished and prayed she would have changed her ways by now. This makes sense. Light bulb!

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  9. Star says

    April 09, 2020 at 1:52 pm

    This was really helpful. I can’t lie I cant even remember a time when I didn’t have a problem with my self esteem. I also started to notice that I was becoming a people pleaser and had really bad social anxiety and I was always bullying myself. But worst of all I would let other people have so much control over how i felt about myself and i let other people decide my worth for me. I would be in relationships with people that didn’t even care about me as much as I cared about them. People took me for granted and a lot were for fucking entitled to my time and what i had to offer. People disrespected me so much and i would let them. I would agree with everything my peers said but deep down i felt so disconnected with them. And i realised these things and was wondering why i had this problem. I didnt know what the sorce was. To find out that my father was the problem was so heartbreaking because all he had to do was tell me im beautiful. But instead he made me insecure, lonely, detached and have a low sense of self. I just wat to fast forward to the part where i don’t care about him anymore.

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  10. Pine Delgado says

    March 28, 2020 at 6:11 am

    I really wish I knew THEN what I know NOW about my late mother’s narcissism. Most of the items on this list describe her down to the last fiber of her being. Yet, I had NO idea that this was not healthy parenting and so I just took it all for granted. It was also all compounded by the fact that I had/have autism.

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    • Stig says

      April 23, 2020 at 4:06 pm

      My mother, it would seem was a full blown narcissist. Itโ€™s debatable , but it seems likely that I am an Aspie. I am also the father of four children. As we grow up we take on the โ€œcharmsโ€ of our parents. I shudder to think at the damage I might have done to the people I love…

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    • Jennifer Williams says

      May 24, 2020 at 9:29 am

      I too had a narcissistic parent but he was my father and i also have autism im sorry about your mom I remember my dad calling me a horses ass after i had a miscarriage back in 2015. My husband and i were both devastated by it so we needed to take a week off of work and distant ourselves from people it’s like we were expected to feel better right away so my dad calls me a horse’s ass for distancing myself trying to grieve over a child i lost its like gee thanks dad way to kick me even more while I’m down and he apologized for it but then he tried to blame my husband using our miscarriage as a scapegoat not to work. There were good things he’s done but they were always followed by bad things and i question if the good things he’s ever done was just for himself and not for me. All the things i read on the list also describe my dad. If you have a Facebook account id like to add you my name is Jennifer Rochelle Williams and my email address is jw9454748@gmail.com again im sorry about your mom we wish we can prevent the damage they done to us but unfortunately we can’t change our past all we can do is limit contact with them or no contact at all which for me I finally chose the latter because all it is just being on an endless rollercoaster ride and you can’t change someone who doesnt see a need to change or a want to change. But all we can do is make the best of things for a better future

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