In my time holding space for others and working on myself, I’ve learned that sensitive people – particularly empaths and highly sensitive types – are more prone to emotional issues such as depression and anxiety because of the way they’re wired.
I’ve personally experienced depression and anxiety frequently throughout my life and I have always found the root cause to lie in my finely sharpened senses.
The blessing and curse of being a sensitive person are that we can feel the world deeply, and while that includes feeling its immense beauty, magic and love (the blessing), it also includes feeling the world’s darkness, cruelty and insanity (the curse).
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When we become too consumed in one side of the spectrum of life we suffer terribly.
Without experiencing the beauty of life, we experience only darkness, and without experiencing the darkness of life, we experience a fabricated lie that leaves us unconsciously uneasy and neurotic.
Where Does Deep Sadness Come From?
Deep sadness occurs in a person’s life for many reasons, ranging from tragedy, to trauma, to chemical imbalance.
But for the sensitive person deep sadness is usually existential; in other words, it involves mourning the self and its relation to life, and life and its relation to the self.
It’s not uncommon for this deep sadness to begin awakening in childhood as the self begins to develop from a young age and starts to perceive itself as “separate” from others.
I call this the fundamental core wound as it is at the very core of all our suffering in life. I will expand on this a bit later.
When we see ourselves as separate from everything, as isolated little islands that are different or somehow unequal to others, we begin developing emotional and psychological complexes.
We start thinking thoughts such as, “I’m so different,” “I’m so weak,” “I wish I could belong somewhere,” “I wish I could feel at home,” “The world has nothing to offer me.”
All of these feelings and beliefs stem from the unconscious realization that something is not right here and somehow we have been sucked into this “wrongness” that is inherent in all that we see.
This inherent wrongness, this primal anti-truth that is expressed everywhere we look, can be seen in the words, looks, actions, desires, dogmas, perceptions and beliefs of everyone around us – including ourselves.
As sensitive people, we are finely tuned to the tension that always exists between us and “others”: the jealousy, betrayal, insecurity, hatred, and pretension.
We also pick up on the tension within the environment: the abuse, the greed, the destruction.
And lastly, we are fine-tuned to the tension that always exists within us: the self-sabotage, shame, fear, isolation, and the hunger for something “more” kept under a happy, socially approved guise.
The more sensitive we are at the end of the day, the more susceptible we are to seeing through the grand ploy, the great fraudulence of life that makes us feel incomplete and unfulfilled.
But this sensitivity is a great intelligence – and in fact, I would say it is the greatest kind of intelligence there is.
How to Find the Light by Inviting the Darkness In
When we talk about being miserable and depressed we usually want to “get rid of it” or “free ourselves of it,” but the truth is that unhappiness is not innately a “bad” thing that must be destroyed.
The only “bad” thing is what we decide to do with those feelings; whether we decide to fully let them pass through us and open ourselves to learn from them – or resist them, hate them, fear them and repress them.
Repressing, avoiding, hiding and resenting unhappiness is the only really true “sin” here, for it is directly harmful to our well-being both in the short and long term.
The truth is that you are absolutely allowed to feel deeply miserable and unhappy.
This doesn’t mean dramatizing your unhappiness, using your unhappiness to self-sabotage, or using it to self-pity, but realizing that you are allowed to feel sad means realizing that sadness is a normal (and in many cases) necessary human emotion. Without it, many of the greatest lessons of life would never be learned.
In my experience, the greatest lesson to learn as a sensitive person is that we are not who we think “we” are.
Although our sensitivity might make us feel special or victimized on the surface, deeper than that, past our sensations, past our thoughts, past our memories, is the truth of Who We Really Are.
And this glimmer of truth at the very least brings hope, and at the very most shatters your entire self-concept bringing immense liberation, restfulness and inner peace.
So how do we find this glimmer of truth? How do we finally find a place to call “home”; a place where we belong, a place where we can rest?
The problem here lies in our desire to search. We try to use the mind to cure the mind, but it doesn’t work that way.
What we can do instead is to give ourselves the permission to purely experience our suffering, our pain and emptiness – not to dramatize, hate, hide or suppress it – but to consciously feel it and to let it pass through us unhindered.
Consciously experiencing pain without resisting it in any way, shape or form reveals a beautiful miracle: suddenly the pain is not there, suddenly it disappears, suddenly it evaporates in the light of consciousness.
The only way you will believe this is by experiencing it first for yourself.
But what will you discover after the pain is gone?
Silence; a deep, pure, loving silence that exists behind every emotion, thought, belief and sensation.
This silence is also known as “God,” “divinity,” “life force,” “nirvana,” “eternity,” “oneness” and “consciousness.” This is the truth of who you are – and darkness paradoxically opens a doorway to experiencing that light.
Your sensitivity is just as much a gift as it is a curse because it allows you to experience this reality more readily than others.
Once you realize the truth: that your identity (sense of self) is an illusory barrier that unnecessarily prevents you from experiencing the limitlessness that is “you,” you start learning how to laugh at yourself again.
But this often requires practice. De-programming your mind doesn’t always happen in an instant.
As I explored in a previous article, six of the most powerful questions you can ever ask yourself include the following:
- Am I this emotion?
- Am I this thought?
- Am I this physical sensation?
- Am I this circumstance?
- Am I this body?
- Am I this personality?
Yes, these elements all belong to you, and you experience them but are they really “you”?
Who are you? Are you a transient emotion that comes and goes, a thought that rises and ceases, or a body and personality that ages and changes?
Can something so transient and ephemeral really be you? If you are none of these things then, who are you?
Deep, constant self-inquiry will reveal that who you truly are has no name, no form, no identity and no limits.
You are Life itself.
When you allow depression to be your teacher you will see the hidden gift that is has been trying to give you all along: that your true home, your true liberation has been here all along, within you.
You just needed to experience the lie and hopelessness of division to uncover the truth and liberation of what can never be divided.