“Be yourself.”
This is the sage-old advice your mother and friends have given you countless times. But why is it so hard to apply to your life? Why is it so hard to “be your authentic Self”?
Perhaps it’s because you don’t know who you really are.
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As a spiritual guide, the first obstacle I see fellow travelers come across trying to find their path in life is the realization that they don’t know who they are.
They fail to listen to the Soul within and instead create mental ideas (dreams) of what they “should” be like and begin to doubt themselves whether they are living up to these notions.
Afterward, they seek comforting validation by asking me questions like: “Is this what Spiritual People do?” “If I think ____ does that mean I’m not an empathic person?” and “Do all healers/old souls/yogis like ___ and _____ ?”
In this article, I want to explore our lost authenticity and how we can learn to find our genuine selves by learning to love our Core Essence.
Table of contents
How We Lose Our Authenticity
Watching children play and hearing their genuine laughter is one of the greatest joys in life.
We were all born as children filled with life, a sense of wonder, and the desire to explore and live in the moment. Children have no past baggage or future anxieties so they express what they feel and aren’t afraid to love unconditionally.
After the age of 3, however, children start to become more tamed. This happens to all of us. Developmentally, something changes within us and we begin to lose that wonder, that innocence of childhood.
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Our neocortex – or ‘thinking brain’ – grows stronger, and thus our thoughts become more dominant, putting our authentic feelings in the background. Slowly we begin to focus more on these thoughts, and in doing so, we begin to accumulate past baggage and future anxieties.
As our neocortex develops, we also become heavily influenced by our parents, peers, and society’s expectations of who we “should” be.
Why Our Self-Worth is Painfully Fragile
The process of losing your authenticity and adapting to society’s expectations is known as domestication.
Just like pets, we are domesticated with an emotional reward or punishment system. If our behavior is desirable, we are rewarded with attention and affection. If our behavior is not acceptable we are punished by the rejection of our parents or peers.
As children we didn’t care about people’s opinions or judgments, we lived in the present moment and our self-worth came from our authenticity. As we grow older, however, our thoughts become more dominant. And with thoughts come fears, and suddenly our need to be accepted grows. Our self-worth is now put into the hands of other people and their opinions of us.
The Fragmented Self
This new self-worth system forces us to change. It forces us to create a false image of ourselves, a dream.
Slowly we begin to notice that different people expect different things from us – our parents, our teachers, our friends, our priests, our bosses, our siblings, our lovers all want something specific from us – and so we are split up into dozens of different versions of ourselves.
We become so good at living up to these different images of ourselves that we forget who we really are.
When your self-worth comes from these false self-images instead of your authentic Self, you constantly feel off-center, anxious, and incomplete.
Deep down your unconscious mind knows that these images of yourself aren’t true, deep down you know that you’re pretending. And this makes daily living dangerous. This makes your self-worth painfully fragile.
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For example, if your false self-image is that of being a “smart and witty person,” you are prone to having your self-worth shattered publicly if someone outsmarts you. It’s at this point that we learn to hate ourselves and self-loathing becomes a new and familiar dark friend.
Insecurity, Perfectionism, and the Need to “Be Right”
With a shaky sense of self-worth comes insecurity problems.
Insecurities are formed when you want to externally live up to an image you envision of yourself, but deep down you know the internal image of yourself is different. The greater the discrepancy between these two images, the more insecure you will feel.
This false image is also known as your “ego.” It is responsible for that need to always be “right” and “save face.” We need to feel right and prove that others are wrong because we want to protect this false image that we project to the outside world, to feel reassured that we aren’t lying to ourselves.
This need to be “right” – to preserve our self-image – is what gives birth to that constant struggle for perfection and the craving for other’s approval.
We suffer so much and try so hard to be important, successful, rich, famous, powerful, and we do this by forcing our false self-image to be real and more valid than other people’s self-images.
This suffering that we undergo to try and be perfect is essentially undertaken in a desperate attempt to try and please other people. To be lovable.
However, believing that we should be a certain way to feel good enough to then be accepted, is a lie. Perfection doesn’t exist. You are never going to get to a point where your ego feels totally good enough, healthy enough, smart enough, or pretty enough.
Why?
The answer is that your ego is fundamentally false and illusory. It is essentially one big defense mechanism – a way to protect your precious vulnerability from the world by being socially acceptable. It will always feel unhappy and insecure because it is always ruled by society’s expectations and demands.
In understanding this unhappy predicament, reconnecting with your authentic Self becomes more vital than ever.
Read more: What is the Ego? »
What is the Authentic Self?
Your authentic Self is your truest, most genuine, and natural inner Essence. Some people call this innate quality the Soul or Higher Self. However, the authentic Self isn’t just a remote or hidden quality, it is something that we can also actively experience. When we learn to step into our authentic Self, life becomes enriched with meaning, purpose, joy, peace, and creativity.
Authentic ‘Self,’ Not Authentic ‘self’
Don’t get these two terms confused – most people do!
There is no such thing as an authentic self (lower case ‘s’). The self, or the ego, is a construct that can easily change. It has no true depth or substance. Therefore, how can it be authentic?
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On the other hand, there is an authentic Self (with a capital ‘S’). This authentic Self is a deeply rooted quality or essence that we always carry with us.
We can compare self and Self with the difference between personality and character. A personality can be easily altered due to life experience. For instance, we might have moody and sullen personalities as teenagers. But then as adults, we might be optimistic and talkative.
Character, on the other hand, is a quality we always possess. For instance, a person might be naturally introspective, pragmatic, caring, or cheeky and carry that essence all throughout life, no matter what age.
7 Signs You’re Connected With Your Authentic Self
We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be.
– May Sarton
How many signs can you relate to?
- You feel connected with the Divine/your Soul
- You live a life aligned with your deepest needs and values
- You regularly experience synchronicity
- You understand your place/role in life
- You’re purpose-driven
- You’re not interested in “fitting in” with others
- You have a high level of self-love and self-respect
These signs are only really the tip of the iceberg. Authenticity imbues every part of our life with richness, depth, and meaning.
If you struggle to relate to the above signs, don’t worry. We’re all conditioned to adopt a false self-image. It takes time, persistence, and dedication to uncover the jewel beneath the layers of falsity. That’s why I’m here writing this article: to help you excavate your deeper Self. So keep reading on!
Authentic Self and Spiritual Awakening
The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.
– Carl Jung
Reconnecting with our authentic Self is a crucial part of the spiritual awakening journey. Why? Without awakening that Core Essence deep within us, we remain lost, stranded, and buried in a sea of lethargic, soulless living.
If we’re drawn to the spiritual path, we’ll also be prone to falling into various traps such as spiritual bypassing and spiritual materialism if we fail to develop a relationship with our authentic Self.
By staying true to ourselves and by connecting with our innate authentic instincts, we walk a path that is wise and heart-centric – a path with the potential for stimulating real spiritual ascension.
In fact, the journey of awakening your authenticity itself is a profoundly spiritual process. It’s a form of spiritual alchemy which demands that the old ways dissolve to reveal the beauty of that which is already within you.
5 Ways to Awaken Your Authentic Self
Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.
– Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection
Picture this: people everywhere trying to desperately find love and approval outside of themselves. Imagine the kind of chaos this creates in the world.
Actually, you don’t have to – just look around you!
We search for love so hungrily, but love is already around and within us. We are terrified to love and accept others because we’re so afraid of getting rejected. But until we learn to love ourselves, we’ll never be able to truly love anybody else.
How do we stop rejecting ourselves? How do we stop being self-destructive? How do we stop feeding the false self-image?
Answer: we have to stop pretending to be something we’re not. We need to reconnect with and celebrate our authenticity again!
Here are some helpful paths and practices that can help you awaken to your authentic Self:
1. Be unflinchingly honest with yourself
To find your authenticity again you’re going to need one key ingredient: truthfulness. Yes, you’ll need to adopt (or hone) a no-BS take-no-prisoners truth-honoring attitude!
The desire to be honest with yourself will help you reveal what is real in yourself and what is a lie that you have either inherited from your domestication (beliefs, values, ambitions) or unconsciously created as a defense mechanism to protect your false image’s self-worth. In turn, you will learn to trust in yourself more.
Shadow work is a wonderful way of developing self-honesty. By examining your inner demons, the parts of you that are buried away, you will come to know a more whole picture of your being.
Read more: Shadow Work: The Ultimate Guide »
2. Learn how to forgive yourself
The sad truth is that we are often our own worst enemies.
One of the first steps in finding your authentic Self is to stop judging what you’ve done and whether or not you’re living up to false “perfection” standards. The easiest way to overcome self-judgment is to learn how to forgive yourself.
Say for example you eat pizza and feel guilty afterward because your false self-image feels “fat.” Inevitably, your mind will go around in circles repeating to yourself how fat you are, making you anxious and creating the urge to soothe yourself with more food. It becomes a vicious cycle!
Learning to forgive yourself allows you to take away the excessive power of neurotic mental rumination and become more in-tune with your heart and body and their emotional needs.
One simple but powerful way of practicing self-forgiveness is to find or create an affirmation that you repeat daily. Examples might include, “I embrace all that I am,” “I forgive and forget,” “I let go,” “I release myself from the pressure to be perfect,” and so on.
Read more: 101+ Morning Affirmations »
3. Self-love and respect are non-negotiable
Loving yourself is not selfish, in fact, it’s the only way we can bring about any deep-seated positive change. We can never be authentically bone-deep happy unless we learn to love ourselves unconditionally.
To love yourself is to have self respect, to treat your body like a temple (e.g., eating a healthy diet, cleanliness, and exercise), as well as respecting your emotional and psychological health by avoiding the accumulation of emotional poison (e.g., grudges, hate, impatience).
Self-love is a practice that takes time, persistence, and gentleness. As you learn to embrace all parts of yourself (both ugly and pretty), your heart will open. And when your heart opens, your authentic Self can shine through more clearly.
Read more: How to Love Yourself »
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$34. Embrace being alone (solitude!)
I can’t stress this enough: make time for solitude!
It’s in solitude that we create the space for authenticity to blossom. It’s in solitude that we become aware of our domestication, realizing what we are truly like in our own company when we aren’t putting on a false self-image for other people.
By embracing solitude, you’ll come to learn more about your authentic Self – what it feels like, what it looks like, and what stifles its Divine light.
There are many ways to enjoy being alone, some ideas include:
- Going for a long solitary walk
- Watching the world through a window, sipping tea
- Listening to soothing music
- Sitting and contemplating nature
- Meditating and enjoying the silence
Do whatever speaks to you and your Soul!
5. Introspective inner work
There is no way around it: you must go within to awaken your authentic Self. This process of inner exploration is called inner work. And there are many ways to do it.
The three basic paths we recommend are (1) self-love, (2) inner child work, and (3) shadow work. Since I’ve already mentioned self-love and shadow work above, I’ll touch on inner child work.
By reconnecting with your inner child, you’ll gift yourself with the chance to heal deep core wounds. We all possess a wounded inner child, and it’s by embracing this broken and vulnerable part of us that we find true wisdom, peace, and healing.
Inner work is a marvelous gateway to deeper spiritual growth which can facilitate true transformation. And this transformation can result in experiences of Oneness, kundalini awakenings, and other profound transpersonal experiences that refine the Soul.
Read more: Inner Child Work: 5 Ways to Heal Deep-Rooted Trauma »
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You are a manifestation of the Divine within a body. And your authentic Self is a sacred expression of that Divine presence.
As you learn to awaken your authentic Self, life will take on a deeper and more soulful dimension. You’ll no longer be plagued by the desire to appease others and betray yourself, but instead, you will listen to your intuition and walk a path with heart. This is the foundation of true spiritual growth.
How do you connect to your authenticity? What has your biggest block been? I’d love to hear below!
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Thankyou for this article and all of your articles, I either find myself inwardly nodding to them as discoveries ive also awakened to or find Im learning something new, this article fits very well with A.Lunas about HSP and she mentions the masks we wear putting the two together it is a very alike to my own realisations.
Thanks again
Hi, Sol
She certainly is; a beautiful lady whose taught me a great deal, sometimes without even uttering a word :)
In regards to soulful intensity is it a positive sign when the energy of meditation penetrates into the concious mind. Sounds odd, but formerly exams and other stress evoking situations used to engender great fear, and anxiety but now that energy wordlessly conveys how everything is stable and one. Have you experienced this in your own journey?
Might have mentioned this before but as your central nervous system conveys electrical energy in the forms of motor neuron responses (e-motio ) and words is meditation or any other kind of external energy influence the rate at which our internal energy reverbrates at and visa versa. Ergo can our thoughts really influence the external world? :)
Hope you’ve had a peaceful evening.
Blessings
Claire xx
Hola Claire,
That’s a great question about Soulful Intensity. I’ve long described Soulful Intensity as a purification of the available energy within us (for lack of a better language to express it). Anxiety, stress, all these are mental tensions that are experienced solely as a defense mechanism for the illusionary ‘self’. With enough ‘witnessing’ exercises like meditation; the mental tension we call our ‘ego’ transforms and purifies into a much more relaxed and accepting energy as the separation between the ‘self’ and existence increases.
I experienced this at the beginning of my journey, and with time your ego’s thoughts and emotions become less present in you. That’s what the Buddhist refer to as No-Mind, it’s not “Silent-Mind” because that would be an oxymoron for the mind to manifest itself it must make some ‘noise’ (thoughts, emotions, something). Instead it just exists as a sensation of ‘beingness’ (again, for lack of a better word) or presence.
Exploring the science of this is quite fascinating. It’s not only that our thoughts influence the world, but at a quantum physics level with stuff like Schrödinger’s cat, our world doesn’t exist at all except for our minds that bring it into existence. Physics is accepting what we all see as a massive hologram created by our minds and that the real ‘reality’ is a pure consciousness blackboard where everything is manifesting itself.
We, in essence, create our dream realities.
Much warmth,
Sol
Hi, Sol
Sorry for the late response. So true, our senses merely translate stimulus from the environment and with these consituants form the closest estimate of reality. ‘No Self’ is a concept which is so benefical to mitgate the emotional tensions which derive from our ego. Not only does it serve to seperate the esence of our being from it but also places our infintesimal being inperspective. A wise teacher of mine used to hang a water colour painting of these two silhotted figures adjecent to these two imposing and gigantic mountains. That painting still serves as a perfect illustration of how minute own individual exsistences are. (Not that we should believe ourselves unmerited for self love and progression)
Ultimately, though when enduring hardship or persecution this broader personal scope allows us to realise the transicent nature of that tribulation.
Unfortunately developing in a technological age there are a great deal of spiritual mirages or reflectors which steer us our from these simple realisations. The image of narciuss comes to mind. Thankfully social media also allows connection so we can empower and teach one another.
In regards to the shadow self your logic behind life and death seems to permiate into this concept aswell (and all other diameterically opposed extremes) .As the denial of the anthietical force ie. Death or inner darkness leads to disaterous psychological ramifications.
More than that by refraining from labelling incideous qualities as either good or evil it constrains their influence. Especially, accompanied by the revelation that this inner darkness isn’t dervied from some soul sucking spirit, but rather a manifestation of one’s insecurities, desires and fears.
Ergo with this empowerment you are able to observe these qualities in a ‘no mind’ state, more seperate from the ego and identify the triggers or channel them into creativity or some other outlet. After all… “Men who fear demons see demons everywhere”- Brom
Thanks as always for your expedient and thoughtful responses. Your words are always of inspiration.
Kind regards
Claire xx
Hola Claire,
It is truly amazing how important our ego’s make us feel; when the reality is that we are a speck of dust in the eternal and infinite. I’ve found those teachers with an artistic sense seem to have the greatest wisdom of them all; it’s only through art one can capture something beyond our sense of individuality. Realizing our insignificance, in my understanding, helps us actually apply more self-love to ourselves as we liberate ourselves from the self-destructive habits of creating expectations and judgment for our ‘meant to be perfect’.
Technology is definitely a double edged sword in our path of growth; but it might just work out to be the catalyst in helping us realize how absorbed we are in our sense of self, and how empty the pursuit is.
It seems like you’ve come to a wonderful understanding in the matter of polarity, darkness and the labeling of good and evil. It’s ridiculous how simple life really is and how we’ve complicated it beyond extreme with our mental labyrinths of riddles, fears, egos and expectations. As the Bhakti poet Kabir put it, “Whatever I say, nobody gets it. It’s too simple.”
Our minds work that way. The Buddha outlined eight clear steps to self- realization, but Buddhism became one of the most elaborately ritualized religions the world has ever seen, and the simple teaching was almost forgotten in the process. Moses presented ten commandments to the Hebrews, and an immensely complicated religion was the result. Jesus reduced the whole of the Law to two commandments, and the vast, world-wide complex of Christianity grew out of it. Mohammed channeled the Koran and developed a simple and straightforward religion based on the acknowledgment of God and five prayers a day, but to that was added the highly detailed codification of Islamic law. We keep receiving clear maps for happiness and then unconsciously blind ourselves so that we would have to find our way by trial and error.
It’s my pleasure to be able to participate in our readers journeys :).
Warmly,
Sol
Hi, Sol
An a article which is always benefical to re-read and contine to apply. As my grandmother said once “We are all where we are by rite of conciousness”, so perhaps the degree by which experience our authenticity is denoted by how we have progressed and learnt essential lessons like self-love, altruism and the confrontation of our own illusionary beliefs which inhibit us from living truly in the moment. You’ve written previously about this phenomenon as ‘kenosis’ which childern are more enabled to experience due to their lack of inhibitions and self imposed facades. Sadly as you’ve explored we often loose this innocence in order to socially conform, protect our psyches and attain admiration)
Perhaps one day we can learn to love one another unconditionally without these masks inhibiting us from authentically giving to one another :) I ardently believe that if we take greater accountability for our psychological states we can create our own reality and experience the world with awe of a child while still applying the prudent inutuion of our souls.
So grateful to be able to learn from your spiritual journey which is so abundant in the truths most of us are only able to just grasp at.
Warm regards xx
Hola Claire,
You’re grandmother sounds like a wise woman :). From my own experience I’ve found our authenticity does grow proportionately to our progress in our jounies of self-love and self-understand. As we begin to understand ourselves and come to see those learned hindrances that were getting in our way, we also develop an immense sense of compassion in realizing that our victimizers who taught us these erroneous perceptions were simply victims of other victims before them.
Kenosis is a wonderful experience that we can cultivate in order to allow our minds to calm down enough for us to observe these learned inhibitions and faces. This is also where I’ve found it necessary to introduce Soul Ages as not everyone is born with the same capacity and intensity to find these matters of any importance or interest. Those who are capable of applying more mindfulness and experience moments of Kenosis I’ve observed to be people who held a fiece Soulful Intensity, a desire for truth, that others did not.
But this too can be develop to a certain extent through much Self-Love work.
It’s wonderful to see the participation of sincere seekers in the comments that offer much of their own insight wisdom :).
Warmly,
Sol
I was lonely. Then I found a friend. Or rather, he found me. He introduced me to this website. I learnt a lot. Then I went to college. I spent time in solitude. I learnt more. I felt I could master myself. Whenever I felt something was wrong with me, I sat down and solved it myself. I learnt how to live by myself. Then I returned home, for holidays. I met my friend. And somewhy, it just seems he is not comfortable around me anymore. He constantly tries to argue with me. He tells me, try to act normal. He judges me for my past mistakes. Yes, I regret the way I acted before. But I didn’t know what was normal. I had been alone most of the time. I didn’t understand how the world worked.
I respected him the most. And I know he respected me too. Yet, must everything end, like this? I don’t know. I only feel tired. I can’t fix this. Help me. Please.
Solitude is a strange void of self-discover, a path that provides you with immense richness and wealth of learning about yourself.
We all learn at different speeds, we all travel the solitary journey with difference intensity. A time apart, a time in solitude, can change the dynamics of any relationship quite drastically. Some may have grown more, others may have grown a bit and then become frightened by what they found so decide to completely ignore that growth.
Must a flower live on forever or live through its seasonal period and then disappear just as mysteriously as it came? Some flowers are perennial and others simply annual…the climate of solitude dictates which is which.
Yeah and let’s also forget that no man is an island either.
Isolation or at least too much of it can be unhealthy for most.
I remember long ago, there was a tree in front of my home. At that time, I was a kid. I saw countless people, taking some of its leaves when they were going somewhere. I hated that. I really believed from the bottom of my heart that the tree was feeling pain. Then one evening, the kid me, stood in front of that tree and stopped each and every person from even getting close to its leaves. I remember how much I was ridiculed by every person in the society, and mocked by my mother. But I remember, I didn’t care. I remember thinking what I did was absolutely right.
When I think of the kid me nowadays, I respect him. I feel that even though I learned much while growing up, but still I fall short of the courage shown by that kid. When, I sometimes compare him to me, I feel like he is the wiser man. I guess, I am jealous of my kid self. I know that, lingering in past only serves to depress me, but I just can’t stop myself from doing it. In fact, I feel like it is the right thing to do. That perhaps I can learn what I forgot.
Hola Eklavya,
I understand the feeling very well, our child selves are perhaps the most courageous an authentic ‘us’ that we’ve experienced. It’s only natural to remember and miss those times.
I applaud your child self for standing up for that tree, I also applaud your former self for realizing that value and wisdom in that child. To be aware of the authenticity that lies deep within us, in our origins, is the first step toward forgetting this false self we’ve created.
Our heads have been filled with so much ‘knowledge’, so much information of things we should strive for, care about and expect from life, that we’ve walked away from our centers, from these pure essence of ourselves that we experienced as children, and live in the lost template of thoughts and ideas.
Don’t long to become like your child self though, you cannot, that only turns us childish. That child was authentic because he was innocent, he was pure to knowledge. Instead you must try to observe and explore the value of the beliefs, values and expectations you hold from life. If they are truly worth pursuing, if they have any spiritual substance or significance.
Little by little as you become aware of the false lies and thoughts that exist within your mind, you’ll begin to drop all those notions that make you unhappy. Slowly you’ll rediscover that child-like, not childish, innocence inside of you.
Sir, I have been thinking about what you say about solitude. I respect that thought, but I also see around me that speaking out loud your thoughts to people who can understand you, makes you understand your own thoughts better. Don’t you think that perhaps solitude isn’t the only answer; that people need to listen to their thoughts as well, rather than just think about them.
Hola Eklavya,
It’s true that speaking about your thoughts with others helps in making intangible feelings in the back of your mind, into tangible words and ideas you can explain to another person.
But unfortunately, whenever you are in the presence of others, you’re ego automatically comes into play without your control. How to find the authentic you when you’re using your fake you to find it? In solitude the false you is less strong, less present. When discussing with others, often you end up losing yourself into a pursuit if stimulation, of power, rather than truth; you end up arguing over who is right and who is wrong, or trying to impress them with your wisdom, or trying to avoid vulnerabilities and insecurities about yourself because you’re afraid of judgement.
Solitude is not about thinking. Solitude is about learning how to listen to yourself, in your own company. Notice that there is a difference. When you are thinking you are lost in your own thoughts. When you are listening to yourself, you are observing, simply witnessing those thoughts, but you aren’t lost in them and they are separate from you.
If you want to have the tangibility exercise to understand your thoughts better, try writing them down on paper and then reading them and listening to your own self speak.
Sol is right of course, however I believe there can sometimes be an advantage to speaking your thoughts out loud to someone, especially someone like-minded. The advantage is that you are being careful about what you say to people, and at the same time you are checking yourself, hearing your own words, and determining if they really ring true for you. I found that I caught myself saying some things that I either actually didn’t believe and was just saying it because it was rote-like and was not really thought through. If that all makes sense to you. Also, there comes a time after having read a lot on a subject that you need to quiet yourself and allow your new knowledge to filter into your whole being and to give it a chance to permeate into a new awareness for you. Just my humble opinion.
I was watching a show, can’t remember the name, but it mentioned the big bang, which was the exploding of a star creating a new universe including our earth, then after millions of years we humans arrived. Basically we were all made out of stars, and I think that is very beautiful, no matter what we do for a living or how much money we make. A great book about the ego and it’s destruction of the true self is “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle. It also helps teach how to live in the present moment and quieting the intellectual mind through meditation. I get racing thoughts often and learning to meditate has been a huge help with my anxiety and self doubt. I’m not the most entertaining or social person and I used to hate myself for that, but I’m learning to accept who I am and love myself. Putting on an act for other people only hurts me more in the long run. I think that our world would be a much better and less violent place if we tamed the ego and let our true selves shine through.
Hola Sally,
The idea of being made out of stars is beautiful, I really don’t see why some people would get upset at our development into humans occurring as an evolutionary process.
I believe Eckhart Tolle has done a wonderful job at explaining the process of ego awareness and non-identification with your thoughts and emotions. Meditation is an essential tool to overcome many of the mental neurosis that seem to plague our modern minds.
Most people recognize, even if only vaguely, how the key to life is all about attentiveness to the present moment as Eckhart explains. It’s also true though that most people have a hard time truly employing the deceptively simple ideas of ego awareness and authenticity.
In my experience it’s because the ability to live present to the moment is not actually something acquired at the beginning of the journey. You only come about it (except in the rarest of cases) after you have passed through some of the most difficult pitfalls that await you through your spiritual path.
One of the reasons we promote Involution through its 7 different interconnected paths is because it aids us in deprogramming much of the conditioning that we require before we are actually capable of applying full presence and total awareness.
Keep up the great work, and I look forward to hearing more about your progress through meditation and your spiritual journey.
This article came to my life in the perfect time. Thank you so much. :)
Hola Yohana,
Sometimes our unconscious minds help us find what we need in that present moment of life to continue and keep going.
Thank you for reading it.
I remember at a very young age rejecting the gender roles of our society. I refused to adhere to the expectations that are put on females to marry and raise children. It would have been inauthentic for me as I have never had any essential desire to be a primary caregiver for a family of people. Had I ignored my inborn character and temperament to follow that path, it would have been harmful and unfair to those who depended on me as well as a betrayal to myself.
However, all through my adult years I have been regarded with disappointment, suspicion, disbelief and warnings from peers because of my chosen lifestyle. I wish I could say that their opinions don’t matter and that I have proudly stayed true to myself. Actually I suffer from panic, anxiety and depression that comes with the sense of being alienated. On one hand I want to be unique and true to myself; on the other hand it seems easier to just fit into the norm.
Thank you for your article. It beautifully explains the struggle between ego and authenticity that I have been trying to cope with and understand my whole life!
Hola Jane,
I am happy to see you found this article helpful in your struggle.
I understand perfectly how difficult it must be to try and live up to the expectations people you care about so much have imposed over you.
That is why I always offer solitude, distance from all these roles and expectations to allow your clarity of mind to arise. Wishing you could be any other way that what you are creates unnecessary further burdens as not only do you have expectations from others, but also from yourself.
Anxiety and panic begin to have a lesser hold over you the moment you don’t wish to fight on it. Thinking about it creates a vicious cycle; you become afraid of becoming afraid which is a never ending thing.
As you practice authenticity and cultivate your self growth, you will realize how to act spontaneously, to just do without any thoughts or fears.
Let me know how you go and progress through this :).
Hi Jane,
Hi Mateo,
This struggle between authenticity and ego is very well shown in Hermann Hesses book “Narcissus and Goldmund”. It is about the voices in us and what they tell us to do. I highly recommend Hesse to anybody looking for truth. If you read the biography of Hesse, than you will clearly see, where all his ideas and philosophies about solitude are coming and what an immense struggle it was for him. A infamous quote of him is in a letter he wrote to his father at age 15 or 16: “Dear Mr. Hesse, please send me a pistol or the money to buy one”
“Steppenwolf” is often mentioned on this site. But there are many other books of him, bringing his look on life in a very beautiful way.
All the best from Austria,
Flo
Hola Florian,
I was a great admirer of Hermann Hesse when I was growing up, he had the perfect balance of poet and psychologist.
Steppenwolf was one of the inspirations for the name LonerWolf. I’ve always felt we’ve become very disconnected from our natural roots, our “primitive” authentic side through our social conditioning and it has created immense neurosis in this culture. Siddharta is my favorite work by him followed closely by Glass Bead Game.
I have never read his biography though but after that infamous quote I look forward to exploring his life more. Thank you for suggesting it!
Agreed. Whats your take on all this new technology? I was ok with it until I seen how it’s changing relationships. It’s becoming too much. I don’t any one wants to live like a cave man but I do see how an over reliance on technology is hurting relationships and that’s just for starters.
This article really speaks to me. It is hard not to be swayed by society’s rules of what people should aspire to be. I hope to fully integrate with my higher self and ignore trying to be perfect. I just want to be me and be comfortable within my own skin, even if I have to ignore what my parent expect of me. I love and respect them, but they cannot live my life.
Hola Erie,
That’s a very mature and intelligent way of standing on your own two feet.
It’s easy to get swayed by our parents who have the best intentions for us and we feel a duty to make them proud by living up to their ideals for us.
But deep down, your parents will feel the proudest when you live true to yourself, find your authenticity and cultivate the happiness that comes with it.
With time you’ll learn to stop expecting so much from yourself, and the further down your path of Involution, the easier it will be.
Thank you for sharing with me your own experience with this, it’s an area we all struggle with whether we realize it or not. :)