The hardest thing about going through an existential crisis is that you often feel depressed and alienated.
Nothing makes sense anymore, and everything feels meaningless – including all of your old accomplishments, desires, professional attachments, relationships, and goals.
You want to find your real purpose in life. You want to know why the f*ck we’re all here in the first place, but you don’t know where to start.
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If you can relate to these feelings, my heart goes out to you. I’ve been there before and it’s a dark place. Worst of all, it can sometimes last for years (like mine did).
As someone who has been through this, I’m not here to bullshit you.
I’m not promising that what I’ll share will help it all become magically better.
But I do hope you find a little bit of solace.
Table of contents
- What is an Existential Crisis? (Definition)
- 15 Signs You’re Experiencing an Existential Crisis
- WHY You’re Going Through an Existential Crisis
- Why More and More People Are Experiencing the Existential Crisis
- The Existential Crisis Can Be a Good Sign
- 9 Ways to Get Through the Existential Crisis ( and Actually Benefit From It )
- When the Existential Crisis Becomes Existential Despair
- This is a Time of Death and Rebirth
What is an Existential Crisis? (Definition)
Put simply, an existential crisis is a period in life where a person is at a crossroads and is questioning their entire reality.
They may wonder what the meaning of their life is and whether they have a higher purpose. They may wonder whether life itself has meaning or is just a random, chaotic product of chance.
As a result, they may suffer from tremendous anxiety, depression, isolation, and feelings of being lost. The existential crisis is often spiritual in nature and is sometimes a byproduct (or trigger of) the spiritual emergency.
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If you’re a spiritual wanderer seeking some kind of path, place, and purpose in life, you’re likely experiencing or have gone already through an existential crisis.
15 Signs You’re Experiencing an Existential Crisis
Are you going through an existential crisis? Pay attention to the following signs:
- You’re searching for the meaning of life
- You feel a growing sense of looming existential dread when contemplating society, the state of the planet, etc.
- You feel alone and isolated
- You often find yourself feeling consumed by melancholia/existential depression
- You feel like your ‘old life’ has withered away
- You don’t know who you are anymore
- You feel like your past accomplishments are meaningless (and as a result, you feel lots of regret)
- You see through the shallowness of society’s goals and desires
- You crave something deep and meaningful
- You realize that the Universe is far more complex than you previously thought
- You feel a sense of smallness or powerlessness in the face of everything
- You’re acutely aware of your mortality (and feel existential anxiety as a result)
- You feel fundamentally different from others
- You feel like there’s something innately ‘wrong’ or ‘broken’ about you
- You feel empty inside
- You can’t seem to find any place that feels like ‘home’
How many of the above signs can you relate to?
When I was going through an existential crisis my entire worldview shattered. I was raised in a fundamentalist Christian background and could no longer come to terms with an ‘all-loving God’ who would send people to burn in hell for eternity.
I went through years of confusion, emptiness, anxiety, and depression wondering what the purpose of all this was. It was an extremely difficult, traumatizing, and heart-breaking time. (And yes, thankfully I have pulled through it, hence why I’m writing this article and for this website.)
But my story is only one of millions, and there are many reasons why you may be going through a crisis. We’ll explore below …
WHY You’re Going Through an Existential Crisis
Why did all of this happen to you? Why are you experiencing an existential crisis?
There are a number of reasons. Here are the most common that you may have experienced:
- Sudden death of a loved one
- Job change or loss
- Chronic illness or a shock diagnosis
- Moving to a new place or country
- Chronic stress and anxiety
- Getting married/divorced
- Relationship breakdown
- Having a baby
- Entering a new life phase (e.g., adulthood, mid-life, old age)
- Loss of religious beliefs
- Natural disasters (flood, hurricane, fire)
- Excessive drug use
- Mystical experience
- Sudden spiritual awakening or dark night of the soul
- Prolonged isolation
Let me know in the comments which of these you think triggered your existential crisis.
As you can see, the existential crisis is caused by literally any big life event or change – whether positive or negative.
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Anything sudden can be destabilizing to your mind. Think of it like an earthquake that sets off a domino effect within your psyche. Before you know it, you have cut off all your friends, quit your job, and have completely withdrawn from society because it all feels too much.
Again, I want to emphasize the fact that this won’t last forever.
It might feel like it and you might believe, in your present frame of mind, that you’re the only person out there who is going through this. But you’re not.
There are people who understand what you’re going through (like myself and the community of readers on this blog). So please take solace in that and keep reading to get support.
Why More and More People Are Experiencing the Existential Crisis
Yes, you heard it right: the existential crisis is increasing in prevalence.
It’s becoming a global phenomenon.
With record numbers of people experiencing major depression and other symptoms associated with the existential crisis, the question is WHY?
With all our technology, wealth, and material abundance, why are we feeling more and more empty inside?
There are many possible answers, but I believe that the main cause is emotional, philosophical, and spiritual in nature.
We live in a world that worships the reductionistic mechanistic scientific view of life. Anything mysterious, magical, or remotely spiritual in nature is scorned and looked down upon. We pretend we’re ‘above all that childish nonsense’ when, in reality, it’s what we need the most.
As clinical psychologist and scholar C. Michael Smith writes,
The world seen only through the lenses of scientific-calculative thinking is a thin, dry, hollow, surface world, devoid of mystery, depth, and meaning. There is an existential nausea (Sartre) that comes with such a nihilistic view of reality. Such a view is itself a symptom of deep spiritual, social, and ecological pathology. Some face this nihilism with stoic courage, others retreat into fundamentalistic and traditional forms of security, where they may have some limited contact with the sacred, while still being touched by the nihilism of the modern scientific worldview. Some seek a genuine sense of the sacred to give their lives meaning and direction, but cannot find it in the institutional religions of the west. Some turn to the numinous resources of the East, some to occult interests; some are now turning to shamanism, others the psychedelics, to rekindle a sense of mystery and meaning characteristic of the sacred.
As a society, we deal with our existential emptiness in many ways, but the unifying sobering reality is that we are spiritually destitute.
We’ve lost touch with our spiritual nature and are suffering horribly as a result – this is known as collective Soul Loss.
I’ll explore how to get back in touch with your spiritual nature (and what worked for me) a little later.
But first, let’s explore why this is not all so doom and gloom …
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The Existential Crisis Can Be a Good Sign
I know the title of this section sounds totally absurd. But the fact that you’re experiencing existential anxiety signifies that you’re not a mindless sheep of society.
You are alive goddammit, and more than that, you’re in touch with your spiritual nature.
As spiritual philosopher Krishnamurti once wrote:
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.
The fact that you’re maladjusted, the fact that you’re questioning everything and feel a sense of despair means that you’re getting more in touch with your own truth – not the version of truth that society likes to spoonfeed us.
As author Tim Farrington writes,
Doubt as to whether you are in a dark night or “just depressed” is probably a very good sign; it means you’re alive and paying attention and that life has you baffled, which is the precondition for truth in my experience.
Perhaps more than anyone, the Holocaust survivor and psychotherapist Viktor Frankl was acquainted with the depths of existential crisis. He writes in his wonderful book The Doctor of the Soul:
The ‘symptom’ of conscientious anxiety in the melancholiac is not the product of melancholia as a physical illness but represents an ‘accomplishment’ of the human being as a spiritual person.
In other words, feeling existential anxiety is not just the result of depression (or melancholy), it’s actually an accomplishment that signifies we’re in touch with our spiritual nature.
Mirabai Starr, author of numerous spiritual books writes, “Someone who is broken … who has struggled all his or her life with some intense deficiency, may have a uniquely powerful relationship with God.”
And it’s true.
The more you suffer existentially, the closer you are likely to draw to the Divine.
I realize you may be an atheist or simply not interested in spirituality, but perhaps it’s time to reconsider your relationship with the mysterious, at the very least. We’ll look more into this below.
9 Ways to Get Through the Existential Crisis (and Actually Benefit From It)
Again, I know “benefiting” from your existential crisis may sound ridiculous.
But hear me out.
The existential crisis is an opportunity for you to find your life purpose, figure out what truly matters in life, and connect with your spiritual nature.
What you’re going through may be horribly painful at times, but it also has a deeper meaning: you’re experiencing a death and rebirth.
You’re undergoing a mental, emotional, and spiritual renewal process which is common to stage 1 of the spiritual wanderer’s journey.
Everything in life works in cycles. Think of life like the four seasons. What you’re experiencing right now is the winter stage of existence. But after that comes spring.
Here are some paths and practices you may like to explore. Many of these I have used myself during my existential crisis period – and they helped tremendously:
1. Record (journal) all your thoughts every day
This one was a BIG help for me – and I believe it can be for you too.
Writing down all your thoughts and feelings is a brilliant way of getting them out of your mind. The more you let your thoughts accumulate, the more overwhelmed you feel. So let them all out.
Journaling is extremely therapeutic and is constantly recommended by professionals and depressed folks alike. In my How to Journal article, I offer you some unique tips, just in case you need extra support.
Here’s an example of an “existential crisis-styled” journal entry:
I’m feeling horrible today. I watch and listen to people talk about their lives, but it all seems futile. I can’t relate to any of them. Not even a bit. All their plans, goals, and shallow desires – can’t they see that it’s all going to perish one day? Their banality suffocates me and I feel like I’m walking in the land of the dead. Everyone is asleep. Why can’t they just wake the fuck up? Maybe I’ll feel better tomorrow, but for now, I just wanted to get these feelings out. I know this is good for me to do and that these feelings won’t last forever.
As you can see, your journal entry doesn’t need to be long. It can be a tiny paragraph or even a few words. It also doesn’t need to be wordy, well-written, or poetic. The point is to benefit from it by making a habit out of it.
If you need some powerful and compassionate guidance to help you work through your existential crisis, see the Dark Night of the Soul Journal I’ve created.
2. Turn your pain into art
Some of the best art (think Vincent Van Gogh, Edvard Munch, Goya, etc.) has come from those who have suffered tremendously.
You don’t need to be good at art (or an “artist”) to benefit from artistic self-expression. The point isn’t to create something that will please others but something that helps you feel better and process what you’re going through.
If you need ideas, go on Pinterest and look up different art projects, or go to your local art gallery. Places to start include watercolor, sketching, collage, and paint pouring. You can also read our article on art therapy ideas and see if it offers you some helpful places to start.
3. Get in touch with your inner warrior
There’s a reason why we’ve named this website “lonerwolf.” The wolf is symbolic of the inner spiritual warrior, the inner force of nature who refuses to give up.
S/he is the fire within you that voyages courageously into the unknown, fights for freedom, and respects your true self.
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$3When we go through an existential crisis, it can feel like all our power and energy has been drained from us. We may struggle to get up in the morning and keep moving forward. We may feel small and defenseless in the face of life.
The way to move through these feelings is to reconnect with your inner warrior in whatever way he/she/it appears to you. I like to see this fiery essence as an inner wolf, but you may see it differently.
To connect with your inner warrior, you may like to turn to your dreams. Before going to bed, ask your unconscious mind to present you with an image of your inner warrior. Then, pay attention to your dreams. Note down anything significant when first rising in the morning. My guide on dream work can help you through this process.
You may even like to take a herb like mugwort, blue lotus, or a lucid dreaming supplement to make your dreams more vivid (please do your own research regarding dosage requirements and look into the precautions).
An alternative is to practice visualization. Imagine you’re walking down a staircase and at the bottom is a golden door. Once you open that door, you’ll come face-to-face with your inner warrior. What does he/she/it look like? You might like to play some music that puts you in the right frame of mind for this activity (think warrior music which you can find for free on Youtube).
Once you’ve connected with your inner warrior, you can then work with this inner image in your daily life for strength and guidance.
You may like to journal with this inner force, talk with it through visualization, or create a piece of artwork that you put somewhere noticeable and special in your home.
4. Connect with nature
If you struggle to connect with others, go out in nature. Connect with the birds, trees, and plants. Sit and watch what happens around you and find delight in the small things.
Spending time in nature was one of the major ways I got through my existential crisis. I would often spend hours sitting outside observing how the clouds moved through the sky and the way the wind danced through the trees.
If you don’t live near nature, try taking regular trips to your local wildlife reserve, forest, or park. Nature is soothing to the soul and will help you to get out of your head. If you’re interested, I wrote this short and sweet article on the art of forest bathing (shinrin yoku) a few years ago.
5. Find what brings you joy and meaning
Even the smallest things can bring you joy like a patch of sunlight on the floor or the feeling of cold water against your hands as you wash the dishes.
By practicing mindfulness exercises, you can connect more with the present moment and step out of the cycles of dark thought that accompany the existential crisis.
Finding the meaning of life itself is a more complex path, but it’s something that can also bring you a sense of purpose and direction. I’ve written more on the topic of finding the meaning of life and you’re more than welcome to go check that out.
6. Practice self-care and self-love
Take care of yourself. This is a tough time. I know it’s hard, and I know that most days you don’t have the energy for much. But treat yourself with as much love and care as you can muster.
Even opening the window for some fresh air can be seen as a small act of self-love or putting on some warmer socks.
Two forms of self-love and care that you may like to start with are affirmations and gratitude. I know you may feel skeptical toward them, but there’s a reason why they’ve entered the mainstream: they work.
You may like to start a gratitude journal and list five things you’re thankful for each day (being grateful, by the way, has been scientifically proven to help you feel better).
Before bed each night, I have a “gratitude stone” that I hold and I think of at least five things I’ve been grateful for during the day. This simple practice has done wonders for my mindset, and it’s so quick!
You might also enjoy finding or creating one or two affirmations that you carry with you and repeat throughout the day. Examples may include, “I have a resilient heart, and I’ll get through this,” “It’s okay to not know all the answers,” “I surrender to the cycles of life,” and “This too shall pass.” My morning affirmations article can give you more ideas to work with.
7. Simplify and minimize sources of stress
You’re going through enough inner stress as it is, so don’t be afraid to let go of people or responsibilities that cause you more harm than good.
One way of minimizing your stress is by creating a calm and clear mind. I love the philosophy of minimalism and essentialism for shaping a more intentional life, so look into those concepts more if you want to minimize sources of stress.
Also, try guided meditations that soothe your mind and body each morning and evening. I enjoy the free app “InsightTimer” for all its variety and I use it on my phone each day. There are also many other meditation apps out there like Calm, Headspace, and Waking Up that you can look into.
8. Connect with others in a way that feels comfortable to you
See if there are any depression support groups around you. Not everyone experiencing depression is going through an existential crisis, but some are. And you can find a sense of kinship there.
Otherwise, there are many groups online (such as Facebook groups) that you can join for support. Alternatively, simply browse around this website and see that you’re not alone in your existential difficulties.
You may also wish to call a mental health hotline if you desperately need to talk with someone or go to a website like 7cups that offers free support (it can be a “hit or miss” experience, but worth exploring).
9. Explore a spiritual path or practice that you resonate with
As psychologist Christa Mackinnon writes:
Studies find correlations between spiritual well-being and positive psychological responses when people are confronted with existential crisis situations. A recent study of 60 lung cancer patients in America, for instance, found that aspects of spirituality, namely meaning in life and prayer, have positive effects on psychological and physical responses, and an in-depth study of 160 terminally ill patients in palliative care came to the conclusion that spiritual well-being provides a sense of peace and offers some protection against end-of-life despair in those for whom death is imminent.
You don’t need to buy into anyone’s bullshit – find what type of spirituality works for you.
That might be simply praying or lighting a candle, or it could mean learning how to be a spiritual healer and finding a greater sense of purpose.
I personally enjoy the path of inner work, and I incorporate many eclectic practices into my spiritual path like working with the archetypes, reflecting on oracle and tarot cards, connecting with spirit guides, practicing meditation and mindfulness, connecting with nature … the list goes on.
Find a path that works for you and let it give you hope.
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When the Existential Crisis Becomes Existential Despair
If you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harming others, your existential crisis has become existential despair. You need to seek help immediately.
I am not qualified to help (and I can only give general advice), so I strongly encourage you to seek out a psychologist, therapist, or counselor who can provide you with ongoing 1:1 help.
I know this may feel scary and you might feel ridiculous, but it’s worth getting help. Please do it. Yes, you might be given medication, but that’s a stepping stone toward greater holistic health and healing in the future.
For a list of international suicide hotlines, go here.
This is a Time of Death and Rebirth
The existential crisis is a time of death – the death of old beliefs, old ways of being, and old values.
But after death comes rebirth. Just look at the cycles of nature. What you’re experiencing isn’t going to last forever. After the night comes day and after winter comes spring.
I hope this article has shown you how valuable this process you’re going through actually is. There is nothing wrong with you. You are not broken. You are not alone.
You are actually saner than most people because you are questioning the insanity of the world around you.
You are a spiritual wanderer in the process of getting in touch with your True Nature.
Tell me, are you going through an existential crisis right now? How does it feel for you? Please share below. Let’s help others not feel so alone.
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I dealt with one hell of an existential year last year. Triggered by cutting my hair to nearly buzz cut length and then working on a play about a stage 4 cancer patient who dies. Nderf.com is a great resource for those looking for “scientific proof” of an afterlife like I was. If nothing else, its something to cling to when life comes seemingly tumbling down.
I move abroad with my husband over 2 years ago. Certain things in our lives led to this decision. I quit my job and let our place go and brought our 2 cats with us. After 6 months after the honeymoon period so to speak in the new country ended. I felt many things there was a huge eclipse back in 2017 where I had a mental breakdown and was crying in the bog near where we lived and was so lost. I didn’t know what to do with my self as I could not find my same career in that country. We stayed there for 16 months then moved to another country and moved again 6 months later. I have been currently been living in our new place now for 6 months. I am for the first time sort of feeling settled. What has helped me is to immerse my self with my spirituality and have been seeing different healers. I am getting back into essential oils, herbs, witchy stuff, and shamanism. I am reading lots. I am quit social media I felt so much better after that. We will go back to my “home” country when the time is right, maybe this year or next. Living abroad changes you in so many ways and makes you look at your issues. I am also going into nature again.
hey. stumbled upon your site while doing a bit of research on hedonism (found the carpe diem article). clicked through some moreposts, got immediately drawn to this article. i recently moved, fell in love with my best friend AGAIN, lost another friend, had major troubles in the family, etc. – overall experiencing a major crisis as you outlined. luckily ive learned to cope with these situations, and funny enough – of the 9 points you list to get through these hard times, im already practising the first eight :)
so, i just want to thank you for this website, and your work. keep it going!
Hello, my name is Gyshia
My life has always been kinda strange to those outside looking in. I have been from one side of this country to the other up and down. I spent most of my childhood moving continuously. My parents relationship was one of love and violence. I have seen some really messed up shit. But as a child I always seemed able to deal with the horrible fucked up shit and not every day things. I am horribly indecisive, a complete clutz ” the most graceful there is” , not socially equipped for “friends ( I think in all my 30 some odd years I have made 3 or 4 true friends. I have seen many doppelgangers. Once I met the evil twin of a school friend from another state. They look almost identical and even had the same habit of squinting up their face due to eye glasses that was I identical. Kinda freaked me out. Of course this was around the time I turned 12. We had just moved from colorado to Minnesota. I have several reaccuring dreams , but one was very persistent round this time. I remember riding around an unfamiliar town on bike with my siblings and some other kids I did not recognize, then being taken captive on a space ship. Now after the first 6 months or so of that school year after we finally rented a house in town( had been living in a tent) I had the dream again. And I had a huge realization. The unfamiliar town was our new home and the strange kids our small group that we kept to. Every single kid there was one from this new town. Now I had had this dream once or twice a year for the prior 3 years before moving and remember it from when I was real young. But how could I know any of this??? I have come to the conclusion that my soul has been trapped in a loop. Not sure why or how , I feel as though I keep missing something or messing something up, but am not able to come to a concise conclusion. I have befuddled many phycologist over the years including a recent one. Who asked how I had managed to come this far in life , with medication or therapy or family and friends??? My reply was none of the above. I found expressing myself to complete strangers more spiritually relieving and healing. Maybe because in 24 he I would never see them again?? Not sure. Although I never get tired of the look of astonishment from them, lol. I know that i am a healer, caretaker. If i don’t have 3 to 4 people “min” to take care of and caohs in my life i get anxiouse , bored then ,depressed. Give me catastrophe and i am the person that is going to make sure everyone is ok fix those that r not feed the hungry and console the children left with nothing. That is what my soul knows, lives, loves, craves, desires. However , i still feel like i am missing something????? And yes the name is a given tribal name , my father’s family had us accepted into the tribe in Florida. I think Seminol. I am trying to reconnect with that tribe.
Woman Fox Spirit, when I feel that I’m still missing something, I always find that it’s a direct connection to my Soul. I’m too lost in my thoughts, desires, wishes, and ego-preoccupations to pay attention. Perhaps the same thing with you?
Everything was going great when I was reviewing for my board exam. It all started after I passed the exams and finally became a professional. At first, I thought this feeling would go away soon since I normally feel depressed during winter months (self diagnosed not professionally). I tried ignoring my thoughts and tried explaining to myself that it was just because I reached my goal too soon. And perhaps I was right. I think one of the reasons why I am currently in this situation is because I entered adulthood unprepared. I took a 3 month break before looking for a job. I did get a job on my first try and I remembered feeling excited but scared. The job was difficult with all the mental and physical stress since it was tax season. I was at a new place, new city, new job, alone. My family was in the province. I was in the city. I think my passion, confidence and liveliness eroded gradually. I just noticed one day it was harder to face the new day as compared to yesterday. For almost 2 months, I cried almost every night, when I took baths, when I ate alone and when I walked home from work. I couldn’t bear it so I resigned from work despite being there only for 2 months. I had to render 30 days of service. I don’t regret my decision since I felt a bit better the closer my resignation date came. I thought everything would be back to normal now that I’ve separated myself from my previous work but I am still in crisis. I just got a new job and I’m trying my best to understand my work and all that but the sadness never goes away. Right now, I’m having doubts whether I can stay in the company or not. I hate myself for feeling this way. I wasn’t like this before. I was so full of drive and goals before but now, everything feels meaningless.
Lostintime, please don’t hate yourself for feeling that way. It’s not your fault. You didn’t choose this, so how can you be the cause of it (or responsible for it?). But now that you’re experiencing it, why not try and find different ways of approaching this existential crisis? I’ve provided plenty above. It sounds like the stress you’ve been subjected to has burst something deeper within you open. Although it feels like a great burden at the moment, it’s actually a gift. I hope you can find the lesson, the path that’s true to your heart and soul.
I came back from London today and felt that everything is meaninglessness – a little. I felt like the universe is all one thing and that my consciousness is basically going to experience what it is going to experience. The end. :)
I keep freaking out about things… like when I see shadowy limbs unravel out of my body and attack someone or when I saw a different thing shoot out of me and attack someone… or when I saw what looked like lizard arms lash out at someone who I was angry at.
I wonder if Teal Swan is nice or not because I don’t know. I don’t know if any “awakened” people are nice really. They could all just be possessed by aliens for all I know, who eat human souls.
I think Teal Swan says a lot of good things but idk. I sometimes wonder: how did it come to this? How did I become so broken to need so much fixing? I mean… if I was a natural human, say a caveman, just living my life in the wild, then I would definitely tell any spiritual guru to fuck off and what would be wrong with that?
I wonder if my astral self has partly crossed over/started to die and attachments attached to me?
Sometimes I feel like I just want to kill everyone. I think it’s because I blame the world for hurting me more than it has been pleasant/decent to me.
People say to take responsibility and I just think “fuck you” . I’m willing to feel and not go left or right in my head with a thought ie. I’m willing to stop my ego self-defense but apart from that I just think “fuck you” because that’s the only type of “taking responsibility” that I can comprehend. What am I suppose to be taking responsibility for exactly? all the crap that happened to me? II think if I truly get in touch with my suppressed feelings from child, I hope a lot of people are going to have their arms and legs broken – that is taking responsibility as far as I’m concerned. Fuck those twats who think otherwise.
Delete this if you want please! It’s been a long day…
Well let me start by saying I am so hoping I can get some peace. I have been cursed and it has lasted for 9 years. It took everything from me. I have an amazing connection with what ever and it has been looking after me since I landed. I am smart, very intuitive, caring, helping being. When these people came into my world it was all take away. I had to travel hundreds of miles to get to the person that would work with me for 3 years and still have so many issues. Because my life was taken away, life, finances, desires, the wanting to live. I am now so paranoid, and so full of hate which I have never experienced this way. Like no matter what, I see life really bad and because of the curse it made many people treat me just horrible. So what ever you are going through it is 100 percent better than what I am dealing with. I am very strong but all these years of beating me down in every way possible has left me quite hopeless. So my friend be very grateful you are just dealing with your demons. At least I was able to deal with mine until real demons came knocking at my door and I never even knew it. May you find your peace.
It wasn’t just one thing that sent me into existential crisis, it was many. In just the last two years all of the following have happened in order: death of a loved one, had a baby, was forced to move from our family home, finalized a divorce, my current relationship is breaking down, entered mid- life.
Also I’ve been in a dark night of the soul and suffer from social anxiety which has led to prolonged isolation. This is a most despairing time for me, I feel misplaced and cut off from The universe. I just started seeing a therapist again but I’m not hopefully it’ll help.
Thank you for your guidance. I doubt i can make it through. Your site helps me.
Reading this article has reassured me through the crisis I have been living. There is part of me that is lost and confused and yet another part that feels it is all necessary. I feel article was an answer to a question i keep asking the universe.
“How long will it take for me to heal?”
ANSWER: “be patient, trust yourself and trust the process”
I am so happy I have been lead to your emails and guiding hand through my process thanks for cutting out all the bullshit.
I want you to know what you are doing is making a difference
sending warm positive energy your way <3
Hey Luna and soul
Gess i am in a hard long lovely trip. Iverything i plan seem to fall apart. I am going trough a diverse from a very lonely mariage because my husbent didnt tough me not even a Kiss or a hug 27 jears. As a child i was a very sensitieve girl was not accepted. My Mother thougt of Herself and my sisters and somehow from a very joung age i did household. Lost her at the age of 18 my stepfather was a drunk being scared all the time because he was agressive and couldnot keep his hands by himself. Not sexually even. Spelt lots of nights on the Street seem to be good at nothing for nobody. School was not good no friends or something. Werkt for my one clothes and everyting from the age of 9 thow my stepfather was rich not for me. What i saved also had to go for things for my Mother burtdays and all. I could go to burthdaypartis so called but always the same my Mother had to do an Aron and came back at 4 my looking after my little stephsister and my big sisters child the parties starten at 2 and finished at 5. I understand that they did not know how to handel a HSP girl. Don.t mind anymore i became who i am now because of that. Even my husband i dont mind really any more my children i do i raised them and they don.t talk anymore so angry i am divorcing thir father with a loyer. He would give my bit of mony and had to give averyting to him even my one inkomen. Did not agry with that i just want onesty nothing more no richness no fight just very simpel living and my dreamproject Tenerife for people and animals there. I have a lot of friends there not in belgium here. Try to go but supose its not the time yet because it doesnt work out. Not finding what i want for my little dog Foxy she is so special a really ol soul to and was my direct family. We feel Each other everytime she is my greates love and everything. This is the most beautifull an presious little Foxy in the world she is uniek and only listen to me thow i respect her and dont force her in anything she lives her way. Because we are one we feel eachother and do not have to day much and that is a miraculeuze to me and i to her. My husband lived for his football match los angry for weeks at my. He is sorry but doesnot changement he does not know to love tryed to teach him didnt learn and emotion blackmail that was enough Love veronica
I am certainly going through this crisis.
It is horrible. I do not feel I belong on this planet at all its become too complicated for me to handle all the crap and stupidity that is happening and the violence.
Slowly all my saving ways are being annihilated, just destroyed and I feel so fragile its unfathomable!!!
I know I am not the only one. There have been deaths by suicide here and suicide pacts some of which went wrong and one was left to face murder charges. I understand every little thing they feel. Everything and maybe that’s the problem with me right now I actually feel too many of these persons thoughts and emotions from all over and when I watch the news, which is rarely these days, I get sick of the BS all these people in authoritative positions expect , actually expect us to believe!!
Its so obvious and yet they insist they are right and expect you to go along with the sky is actually green not the sweet blue most of us see. They deny, cajole, manipulate get revenge in obscure ways if you disagree and outright say so boldly.
It is incredible!!! And it chokes me to death as I need some respite from these idiots and yet they rule!!!! THEY RULE!!
My walk one day was polluted by a crazy man who asked me the time(at 4:30AM!) I simply gave him between this time and that as I do not carry a watch , etc. My walks are MY walks. I kept walking while I answered him because I KNEW trouble was coming.I have had the feeling for several days and keep alert. Well it came. As I walked away he starts yelling that he needs exact time not between and I just kept going then I heard the wizz of bottle cans garbage flying at my back. I knew I had the protection of my angels and did not freak out I just kept prepared. But the crazy part was there was a patrol car that turned in front of me saw him and myself went down the st a bit turned around came back out as this crazy guy and I just about intersected and just kept going a top speed as if he saw nothing at all happening nor about to happen!!
I get home call the cops and its a major imposition for 3rd shift to actually do anything except get your tele # for their own sales etc. I gave the description and the mess they would find and the dude cop on dispatch says ok goodbye. After making me repeat what the nut looked like. I understand that reasoning.
Today on my walk I was forced to take a weapon a cell phone and listen to my music with one earplug and high alert senses. How do you enjoy this walk you choose at a time when the world is still asleep and calm???
On todays walk there it was glass bottles all broken up, cans and I can only think of the pets that will be walked over the glass shards by dumb bunny owners(no offense to bunnies!)
It has been damaged. But I will keep walking and carrying my weapon and phone and one earplug as fear is not something I readily feel or give in to. I have had too much experience with true wack jobs and violence and I am just tired of having my peace taken from me by these people you can not communicate with because of the depth of their troubles and psych conditions. So if death comes to me on my walks then it comes. Common sense says alter time to walk. The funny thing is that day I DID alter my time by 15 min.!!! It was just scheduled to happen and it was like being in another world seeing a ghost cop drive on by!!! This walking is all I have left and I will not relinquish it to anyone. Even if I need to use my weapon on them they will have a wonderful scar that the cops(if they are smart enough) to see on the perps face. Like minus an eyeball and bent over from a crotch kick. Both things not just one.
The “IT” is creeping more and more closely to where I live and its uncanny the accuracy with which my talents are alive and buzzing and GROWING!!! That’s scarey if u ask me. The power. The power that goes nowhere……
Thanks for listening.
But what I see and feel happening makes me sick to death as it does not need to happen it is allowed to happen.
Today I walked and saw all the glass and cans on the sidewalks, which I pay for through taxes, that this irate dude threw at me.
I knew there would be some murders and suicides here within three days and bam the news local news is full of it and it coincides with my incident. Even the volcano going bonkers I felt the earth move and lost my balance for a bit. Its like stepping on jello. Your foot slides but not really visible it just appears that my sneaks stepped in poop or something. Sliding.
This all is getting worse and worse and I do not know how long I can endure all the incoming. I fell asleep to the sound of cop helipcopter buzzing my house for a few hrs in search of some bad guy the sherriff thinks we do not need to know anything about- till we die.
Local newspaper offers two free papers to keep roomies sub when we only USED to get Sundays paper! Paper sent a 10.00 increase for a one day paper!!! They expect us to get crazy and con us with all sorts of BS. Ignorant people think their news is actually the news they print and work for..Its taken from associated press from the internet and call it their own!! Lazy incredibly stupid and its severe as it is happening all over the country and world. I can not believe it its so BIZARRE!!
Veronique I read your post and I understand about trying to teach about love and all. It just does not mean anything to some people how we feel and what we experience as they are all wrapped up in their escapes your hubs football is his escape. He is on overload most likely and coping the best way he can. You know the truth u try to share but to no avail.. I am sorry you need to go through this. It is indeed extremely tough! Hang on because you are worth the love and knowledge you have. Maybe some where down the line of life it will be used in harmony with others..a vigilante force of love and kindness awesome..although I do not see it in my lifetime..
You take care V. YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!