There is one particular state of consciousness that can change your life forever.
This holy moment can only be described as “ecstatic” in that your connection to life expands significantly.
In this profound state of being, you feel that life is full of beauty and sacredness – yet this feeling is not subjective, but is instead an objective phenomenon that is outside your personal self. Theologian Rudolf Otto called this experience “numinosum.” But in this article, we’ll refer to it as the mystical experience.
All throughout history, the mystical experience has been referred to as a “religious” or spiritual experience, where the few mystics that recorded their experiences reported it as a rapturous and undifferentiated sense of joyful Unity with all of existence.
In a previous article, I wrote about the experience of “Kenosis,” a word coined by Christian mystics to describe the state of “divine flowing,” and this closely mimics what it is like to have a mystical experience. In psychology the closest term that captures this mysterious state of being is Abraham Maslow’s description of “Peak Experiences,” and in nature-orientated cultures like the Australian Aborigines, mystical experiences have been called “Dadirri.”
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What is a Mystical Experience?
In essence, the mystical experience is a state of being in which the personal ego (or mortal sense of self) merges with the Divine, which is limitless and infinite. Mystical experiences are temporary glimpses into our most sacred and ancient home of Consciousness. Those who undergo mystical experiences often describe feelings of bliss, ecstasy, unconditional love, interconnectedness, and Oneness with all things.
The Candle in the Dark
Perhaps the best way to elaborate the mystical experience might be with an allegory. The ancient Hindu tradition of Advaita Vedanta has an interesting one:
Imagine that you are in a completely dark room. You’ve been told that in this room lives a very large snake. As you sit in the room, you can see its silhouette and you feel great fear as you contemplate the potential for it to bite you at any moment. But one day there is a flash of light which illuminates the room and you see that what looked like a snake was, in reality, a rope. Although the flash of light was momentary, it gave you a glimpse of the truth. All of a sudden your long-held fear vanished entirely, and your experience of the room was never the same ever again.
This is what a mystical experience feels like: it is like a flash of truth that releases you from your limited sense of self and gives you a taste of a reality that somehow feels more real.
Plato recounts that Socrates had a similar allegory regarding the mystical experience. This is a loose paraphrase of his thought-experiement:
Suppose that you’ve been kept chained in a cave all your life. Behind you blazes a fire, and next to you sit a row of other prisoners. All that you and the prisoners know of life is the experience of watching the shadows dancing on the opposite wall to you, and the shared interpretations of what you see. However, by chance one day, one of the prisoner’s chains breaks and he escapes into the outside world. At first, he is confused, overwhelmed, scared, but he also feels an immense sense of expansion, awe, and bliss. He is aware that he is experiencing a larger, more complete and absorbing reality than what he could see within the cave. His natural instinct is to return to liberate his fellow men, but after struggling back into the world of darkness and shadows, his attempt to enlighten his companions is met with ridicule and incredulity as they accuse him of being crazy.
To some degree, we are all prisoners in the cave of our past experiences. Any worldview becomes a cave the moment it is taken for reality.
9 Characteristics of the Mystical Experience
Every person’s mystical experience varies in length and intensity. Have you had a mystical experience? Here are a few defining characteristics:
1. Conscious Unity
The boundaries of where you perceive your individual identity to begin and end completely vanish (otherwise known as ego death). Instead, you’re left with a boundless and infinite union with all that is around you.
2. There Is No Time or Space
With a lack of a definable identity or spatial recognition, your sense of time feels infinite. You go from perceiving time from moment-to-moment as a static individual, to perceiving it as a stream of eternal present moments.
Without time space is endless.
Because your sense of identity is gone, your ability to separate “your” (now non-existent) surroundings into individual “spatial” elements also disappears.
3. Objective Reality
Without a discernible identity comes a sense of greater “objectivity” as though you’re experiencing a much more intricate and profound reality. Everything doesn’t just feel perfect, everything is innately perfect.
4. Gratitude
Most of your ecstatic feelings stem from an immense sense of gratitude. This gratitude is an overwhelming sense of awe at “your” (now non-existent) insignificance in comparison to the vastness of existence.
5. Life Is Seen As Sacred
In fact, your sense of gratitude is so vast that you feel almost undeserving of having the opportunity to experience such a miracle. You develop a new sense of respect for the sacredness of life that allows you to be here.
6. You Understand Paradox
Our sense of self or identity creates duality in our perception of reality (“I” am separate from “That”). However, the moment this separation disappears, you’re left with a non-dual reality in which your intellect finds paradox after paradox (e.g., something is both light/dark, here/absent, human/divine, limited/eternal). In truly understanding paradox, you experience mind-blowing and expansive realizations.
7. The Experience Is Indescribable
The overwhelming magnitude of emotions and intuitive understanding that you embody makes the attempt to even describe the mystical experience feel limited by language. To try and put words to it feels insulting to the depth of the experience.
8. The Experience Is Temporary
The very nature of a mystical experience is its transience. Eventually, you end up returning back to your habitual way of life, but the experience changes something deep inside.
9. The Experience Is Life-Changing
After experiencing such a state, suddenly death isn’t as scary as it used to be, and the beliefs or ambitions that you once held to be so important immediately lose their meaning. In fact, the mystical experience often awakens a thirst to try to bring as much of that experience back into our regular day-to-day lives as possible. And so begins (or deepens) the spiritual awakening process.
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The Mystical Experience Is Only A Taste
There’s a useful term in the Christian doctrine known as “Grace.” This word basically means that we receive mercy and love from the Divine because it wants us to have it, not because we have done anything to deserve it.
Many people confuse having a mystical/spiritual experience with actually cultivating a spiritual life. To me, however, these experiences are brought by grace, and our appreciation of them is directly proportionate to our development of soulful maturity.
If the grace of a mystical experience is given to a 10-year-old child, they will no doubt enjoy the experience. But the degree in which they absorb it will be much less compared to someone who has undergone maturation – or the deep exploration of their psyche and the ability to live life from the seat of their soul.
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For the child, it will be a great experience that will eventually fade and become a distant memory. But for the man or woman who has dedicated his/her life to cultivating soulful maturity, to tilling the soil of the soul, this experience becomes the seed that is prepared to blossom. This might be the very tipping point that leads to the ultimate spiritual awakening – also known as Enlightenment or Illumination, or the permanent shift in consciousness from the individual ego to the infinite Self.
Inner Work
Experiencing spiritual liberation as the goal of the spiritual path is precisely why practicing inner work and committing to the journey of soulful maturity are so crucial.
Without removing the blockages that obscure the Light of our Souls, mystical experiences have no deep or long-lasting impact on us. In other words, they just become extravagant experiences with no real substance. But by learning to integrate the profound realizations that we’ve had access to, we can experience true, long-lasting transformation. Slowly and steadily, we begin to taste the essence of eternity.
Are you interested in learning how to integrate your mystical experience? See our inner work article for more guidance on how to begin this spiritual path.
Have you ever had a mystical experience? What was it like? I’d love to hear about it below!
Hi! I once, twice had a mystical experience but I don’t know exactly if it’s considered as mystical phenomenon… Everything was potentially a faith experienced and Oneness with the Divine… It was raining all day, and went to the farm carrying my guitar, singing with grateful hearts for the birds singing, animals on my way, and was one with the nature… With great appreciation of the nature that I was passing by, out of my mind or awareness , I suddenly picked a stem of a mangrove plant…then the church bell rang… Then, I went home bringing the stem with me to prepare myself to go to church to hear mass… On my way going to church, I just noticed that I was holding the stem and ask myself, “why did I bring this stem with me?” Then, in a distance, I saw the convents gate where a newly founded religious community is living. Then, I thought of giving the stem to the elder. When I arrived at the convent, the elder was at the door standing, so, innocently, I gave the stem to the elder saying: “it’s for you.” But all of a sudden, when I give it to the elder and had turned my back, the elder was asking: “oh, why the bud of flower is blooming?” Then, she gave it back to me and in an instant three buds of flowers were blooming in my hands… four buds of flowers had bloomed instantly in just a few moments. I wasn’t aware there was a bud of flowers in the stem. The experience was extraordinary cause everything that transpired was unknown to me until I was being enlightened by the elder… the flowers was being placed in the altar,. After an hour the flower turns dry and the petals were falling… It was a beautiful flower .. I felt the beauty and sacredness everything that surrounds me that most unforgettable moment… Thank you
I have had 2 major life changing mystical/spiritual events in my life. At 13 I was on the edge of town, riding my bike to get some books in town. I saw a strange sight which caused me to abruptly stop my bike. I saw a glowing ball of light. This was about 3 feet around and just above the ground. It called to me and I heard words in my mind. I was advised to choose a branch within that glowing sphere, only if I wanted to, but be careful and choose wisely. I waited 5-6 minutes and reached into that glowing orb. Instantly my future life flashed in 1000’s of images and I knew the purpose of my life overall.
I started studying many different religious practices and became a licensed massage therapist and studied a dozen techniques like Reiki, Rolfing, energy work, to name a few. But my main purpose was to be a gardener/nurturer of the seed of awakening within others. I would find and help any that yearned to explore religion or spirituality that they had within themselves as a seed. I only helped water that seed, planting only ideas that they could shape, nurture and grow within each person. I have helped many hundreds of seeds of consciousnesses blossom into the beginning of enlightenment and growth.
At 13, I was told where I should be moving as an adult. I found that place at age 30. I had a great job so did not want to leave the comfort of that job. The universe thought differently and 2 months later, my company moved the entire production facility to another state. So, I figured I would move to where I needed to be instead of moving with my work. On my last day in my birth county, saying goodbye to my parents, I had another deep mystical experience. I was in bed and my entire being was inundated by a vibration. This vibration shouted into all my bones “I AM THAT I AM”. I became a ball of light and was in the presence of another ball of light. I know my body was still in bed, this was not like traveling out of body, but our 2 balls of light had no boundries of time or space. When that journey finished, I had 1 awesome learning bit of personal enlightenment. I completely understood BROTHERLY LOVE. Simply put, do not judge others, express LOVE to all, listen and accept their views. When the move happened, I found my calling place for the next decade of so.
I have had many other journeys similar to these 2 events, but thee are the most relevant. Having non human (read arch-angels) beings come to this 3D sphere to tutor me have broadened my understanding of actual reality and the many layers of existence that we limit ourselves to.
Yes, yes, yes! OMG, yes! Everything you wrote deeply resonates with me! I finally found the most accurate description to what I lived and experienced the night that my 89 year old father passed away at 1AM as I was holding his hand in 2018!
Just minutes after his soul leaving his frail body I began to experience moments of what can only be described as incredible grace, even though yes, a nonbeliever could say they were also incredible coincidences but deep within me I knew they were divine in their nature because they came to helped me and my mother when we needed it the most…
This overwhelming feeling of ecstasy, gratitude, openness, warmth, love and pure unity with what can’t be seen or described stayed with me for hours after going to bed the night of his passing. I laid in bed in the dark for ages, staring at the ceiling with a huge smile on my face, and feeling completely at ease and at one with the Universe, my father’s death, his spirit and all my ancestors’ spirits….It’s as if I suddenly understood the meaning of life and of death, as if I had just realized that death is not the end but merely a change of state…
The list of moments of grace kept growing for months after his passing, and somehow I knew that behind each one of those moments there was a divine force guiding me, reassuring me, comforting me…
My outlook on life and death changed deeply after these moments…And I tried explaining my experiences to friends and family, but I don’t think they understood…Your post however, your post knows exactly what I lived and it has validated my experiences….THANK YOU!!
Hello Mateo, I had a mystical experience in my 20’s. I was going through a very difficult time myself. I don’t remember much except one thing always baffled me. It was like I could read people, connect with them, their emotions, what was going on inside of them intimately. I could “feel” them and knew exactly where they were emotionally and intellectually. That was a very odd experience which I never forgot, I couldn’t explain this experience to anyone.
My mystical experience came to my understanding and believing ..key word here is believing..that everything with a molecular makeup which is everything we can see or feel is in its own sense alive ..why else would we give a car its own special nickname and talk to it ?why would we talk to anything that we don’t expect an answer back from? but if you are talking to a car ..you don’t necessarily have to speak car …you have to understand car ..
I have been taken to where the soul incubator exists at least that is what I was told that it was..A giant pulsating purple and blue of what looked like honeycombed eggs floating around in another dimension that I was allowed to see .
I have had enough out of body experiences to qualify for a lifetime of frequent flier miles. through these experiences I know there is life after death..and I do not look at it as a finality ”’even if it were (just a one shot deal)I believe with my whole heart that there is more and not only because i have seen the other places ..it allows me to carry on each day knowing no matter what ..there is more to it than the grave.
In the end we are all one ..and that is what keeps a smile on my face!
I was between awake and sleep when I saw a rock and all of a sudden the rock became a the wall of large cave. I was there and there was a young girl who was being dressed and adorned with handmade jewelry and flowers. Her mother gave her a drink a dark colored liquid inside a large bowl and it got on her face and she smiled. I got very close to her, right next to her and I thought she was me. As a moved in front I looked at her face and told myself it wasn’t me and then as I moved back to her right side she looked in my eyes and I knew we were one. As I moved to her side She smiled at me and I was smiling. I followed her out of the cave and I I moved away and she motioned me look at everything then I opened my eyes and I felt like everything made sense. I knew that death is not final. And I had been in another realm or another life. I was so happy I cried, but I didn’t know really what my vision meant. Today I perceive it to mean I need to see everything .
I had a strange experience in 2016, it sounds very odd, but I went into another state of mind in my apartment after feeling suicidal. I remember going out for a walk, because everything felt unreal, there was no air and I people seemed like zombies walking down the street. I got back home and felt a need to pull the blinds up and down in a particular order that i just felt compelled to do, for about a week, i didnt eat for a whole week. Prior to this, i felt the devil in my bedroom, which frightened me, i have had lots of dreams about the devil and dracula as well. The whole episode was weird, i didnt eat or sleep for a week . I was doing what i thought were religious rituals, like baptising myself in the bath. I also saw a large wooden cross outside the local supermarket. I must of been hallucinating. I wasnt taking illegal drugs at the time but trying to get off psychiactric drugs! All this occured over the Easter period 2016, but i didnt knoww it was Easter at the time.
The Mystical Experience worksheet is just leading to a blank page with no download. I just thought you’d like to know! Great article! Thank you! <3
Thank you J for the feedback. I’ve given it a try and it seems to work, the button will trigger a popup window which contains the form to download the sheet. Do you have any popup blockers or ad blocks that could be getting in the way? Give it a try in a different device/browser and let me know :)
I once instead of falling asleep, I went (or I feel I went) to some place where there was no fear, no strain, no struggle, and I felt like I already had everything I want and need and life was perfect there. Then, I woke up and was annoyed and immediately had this thought: “Oh! I’m still here?!” And I can’t remember exactly what I was doing in that experience but I remember that it felt amazing and that I was really annoyed to be “back here” so to speak. This happened a few years ago and didn’t happen again and till now, I still don’t know what that was!
Thank you for sharing Y. These types of ‘raptures’ are quite common when you work with people who do meditation for many hours. The old wisdom interprets them as experiences of alternative realities, of the possibilities of our existence, and also to help us see how fluid our sense of ‘self’ really is. In Zen they call it ‘Makyo’, spiritual distractions. Some meditators get so caught up in them they don’t go any deeper in their meditation, and constantly seek those types of experiences instead. I wouldn’t give it too much thought, I’d be more interested in exploring how much deeper you can go on your path.
What has happened to me does not appear to quite fit. I had a longing to go to a local spot, alone. This is a park like area, a peaceful hilltop, with a view to mountains. Finally I got there about 5 months ago, for about a half hour.
Something so changed in me and it is hard to describe. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace and joy, never felt before. Beauty, birds singing, gentle breeze, serenity…. I see everything differently, more in tune, connected, from that day. This experience has not left me. Even through the highs and lows of everyday living, this great sense of joyfullness and appreciation of life is still strong. I am in my 60s and so pleased to have had this experience in my life time.
Joy and peace to all.
Maz
Thank you Maz for sharing. It sounds like you may have found one of those rare places we’ve called Soul Place in another article. :)
I feel most deeply relaxed and can meditate better when in nature. I was sitting in my tree stand hunting as the sun was about to rise and the forest wake up in front of me, when I felt an overwhelming presence of my ancestors beside me and a visual image of a man from another time era dressed in rags was hanging from a tree. Now, as disturbing as this might sound, it did not frighten me at all! I felt more in tune with my surroundings. Since that “apparition” my game cameras will not record between certain times consistently when they worked perfectly fine prior to that experience.
That experience was life changing and I developed a deeper appreciation for everything life has to offer, from the minute to the immense! This was absolutely amazing! But I am still confused as to why my ancestors felt like I needed to see that…. it was like they were watching me see it….
Thank you Danielle for sharing your experience :). In some old traditions, it was thought that encountering the ancestors was an invitation to embark on a spiritual pilgrimage, to go deeper in seeking truth, that’s personally how I see them.
In sharing this, I long for all who read this to try what I did for the sake of your own growth. Way back in the mid-90’s I had plenty of trouble, as usual. I was begging and praying for a job that paid enough to cover bills and get me an apartment, and away from my mother. I didn’t get that. This is what was given to me: I was sitting on the edge of the bed, overwhelmed, looking at a stack of bills. The stress was so intense, I could feel it become an all over body ache. Head aching, and tears rolling, I got a message. In my deep self, I was urged to look hard and long at the pile of bills, and the unfulfilled desires of my heart. Increasingly distressed, I got another urge: Put my eyes away from my worries; open the Word; I found one passage – just one sentence – that seemed to be written for me; meditate on it, think on it, intermingle with different scenarios. I was not to look at the time, answer the phone, stop and go watch tv, none of these things. I do not know how long it took, nor did I care. When God was ready, I had the same quiet, exhorting, command to close The Word and think again on my issues – bills, joblessness, terrible childhood, etc.; and what was more than mountainous became extremely small. Literally, in my minds eye, I saw myself in the back seat of a car looking back from whence I came; and that place was a tiny dot. Do not go searching for your verse. LET HIM IN TO GUIDE YOU TO IT, and be amazed at how often your eyes will fall on what is meant for you in that inexhaustible Work.
I would just caution people to be careful who you share your mystical experience with. Socrates describes perfectly my experience. After trying to share what happened to me with others my family had me locked in a psych ward because they thought I was crazy and couldn’t comprehend any of what I was trying to communicate to them. It didn’t help that I had no idea what was going on either or how to explain it in words. Like this article described, it’s an experience beyond what language can communicate.
Hello Zach. Please remember that the chaff will b e separated from the wheat – those whom you believe to be your family are not. It is up to you to choose the God Head over them. It just seems obvious to me that you have been called to His Purpose, and your family are those He gives to you to be a steward over their hearts; they will not be “yours” because they will always be His first. You have been given a major message – remember, people thought Christ was crazy, too.
They put you on antipsychotics and those drugs won’t let you find your way back from a trance… those drugs will keep you stuck there permanently, and over time they sap away your lifespan by destroying your liver, kidneys, and pancreas… which is why they’re only supposed to be prescribed to people who literally cannot care for themselves without medication taming down the psychosis or mood swings they are going through.
Hi, I think I have had at least 3 mystical experiences in my life, one staying at a beautiful lake, having had my chakras opened and feeling connected with the trees, the lake the air, the whole nature around me. The second one happened sponateously in a chapel, admiring at an outstanding sculpture, listening to the baroque music the was filling the air in this sacred space. I suddenly felt myself beeing part of the all, I felt such a wonderful lightfulness, happiness and gratitude for everything that tears of gratitude came out of my eyes. The last occured a few days ago, watching two butterflies flying and playing with each other in a wonderful sunny morning. Suddenly the first and then the second butterfly disappeared. I could not see them any more. It was to me like they had gone behind a curtain. A freind of mine also saw them disappear but tried to find a logical explanation but I knew that I had observed something “different” . An hour later we were having lunch in a restaurant and I suddenly noticed the name of the wife of a friend who has opened my mind for spirituality. It is a very, very rare name and it was the name of the water we were drinking. I have never seen this mineral water before. After lunch I saw a church built in the typical manner it is built in my friends home town. I thought that I wanted a last sign to make me believe that I wasn’t going crazy. I thought that if my friend, with whom I am in a very loose contact, sent me a meesage I would believe in what I had seen in the morning. The next day I recieved the message of my friend…
31 years ago I was an addict. But something deep inside told me there was MORE. I have been clean since that day, the intense desire for drugs left instantly. Yes, call this both mystic and grace.
I remember having this connection during December 2019, She was named “Donut Mari”, we played in this game called Moe, which is initially called Moe Girl Cafe 2, where anime people play their own cafe creations, and make foods and sell them, and to use energy drinks if the characters lose out energy, and we could use XP books to upgrade the characters.
I think I have played it for 5 years for now,
But back then, 2017; I was merely a 2D character loving person. I was like so against real girls, I dunno why. Maybe it was because how realistic relationships give. Or the things that love give you to make you “make-believe”.
It was more like “2D for life” lmao.
I was known as “Riolu” in most games or those friends who knew me.
I mostly indulged myself with anime and visual novels.
Recap back to April 2018, I met up this lass, who lived in Dominican Republic, but had many behaviour problems, BPD, , depression, had this self-validation for having a boyfriend.
But eh, I had to deal with that and be right by her side, even though it wasn’t easy, though her friends didn’t quite like me back then because I was this anime person. Idk why actually. They were surprised saying “Is that the 2D person?!”, and things like “He might be sharing a lot of anime things to you”
(She thinks of me as Alfafa, because that’s how i used to be.)
There was this crisis she had at the time, just gotten me to tears.
Like she had a mental crisis, she told me stuff to everybody that wasn’t true.
I left her twice like things weren’t quite changing.
But by December, I was getting things comfortable with Donut Mari,
We had good conversations, I was hearing how Pepi (cat’s name) would sound like. She shown me nice foods, she made or things from fast food.
I remember I was teaching this kid, named Toto, how to protect herself, because I knew how the internet works. How the danger is going around beyond the scenes. Mari told me she seemed like that ‘I seemed like a father figure to Toto’, even though Toto called me a mom. Probably how my influence from my family’s side, which I hold the motherly archetype.
That was interesting to hear from my experience.
The only difference was that Mari lived in Texas, she was 25, and that I lived in an indigenous village in Canada, and that I’m 23.
I remember my relationship with Mari lasted around March, that was the time, I saw videos like Law of Attraction (Jake Ducey) had this nice positive energy, and things like Spiritual Awakening went Boom!
And Mari had a thought she’d give a shot again, in July,
One day I thought, “Oh wow, she’d look cool like a mother, someday.”
At least that’s how I seen it.
But something happened in August 18, we were just talking normal, but I think she misunderstood what my entire sentence was like. Like she took it literally,
Like I could’ve explained better if needed to. But it was more of a, what just happened?
But I did felt something that day, like I was connected to her.
Like she thought it was some phase I had, but it was not.
My feelings were real, but she got scared. She told me to leave me alone. She was an Aquarius. I was an Aries/Leo.
Even though I just got to Oneness recently, I was surprised to see that dream where Mari would say ‘I’m returning, don’t worry love, I’ll give you proper love.’
Where I question myself if it was real or not.
This is gonna sound nuts but i am.going to share it anyway. I used to relax in nature and smoke some weeds, order my toughts and be one with nature. I did this solo, most of the time, sometimes with a friends. These were very pleasent experiences, wether they were mystical i dont know i dont have that kind of knowledge.
One day i was chilling with my friend and we were philosofising about life and took a coupele of hits from a normal weed joint.
After just a few hits it felt like i had an out of body experience. I wansnt in my body and felt one with the air around me, as if i went outside my head in into my surroudings. At that same moment my friend said: who look at the sky what is that.
We say a big golden/molten pearl (divine/angle like, wingsspreaded bird) in the sky above us.
It was just floating there in the sky. It was not from this world and we both described the same thing to each other. We stared at it for a minute while it was floating through the clear sky. We looked at eachother all amazed like: wow wtf did we just see that. Once we looked up to see it again it was gone.
I really wonder what you think this was or what you think it might mean. I need to know, it still kinda grips me till this day.
I recently comprehended that I am a part of the Spiritual Hierarchy as an initiate who has taken the fourth initiation which means my soul body or causal body has been absorbed into my physical body. I am what is known as a custodian of the Plan. I say this to let you know that in my now experience, the mystical experience happens through me not to me. I am a mystical experience in my every day life, every day awareness. What this means in an actual, grounded reality of being in body is that I am always surrounded by sacred space. In this space I am always feeling love, appreciation, gratitude and thankfulness but I am still a persona/psyche/ego that evinces its own plan and like to take things for granted. While I live as sacred space and mystical experience, I also do the dishes, etc in a mindful state which is like a constant meditative state. I live in non-ordinary reality. You might ask, “how do I do that?” I experience it as a more expanded awareness where I just understand that my perceptions are different.
First thanks for this article and all others. I come here quite often, it helps me to make sense of so much that Ive been going through. In 2016 I walked a pilgrimage and upon meeting someone I started feeling like if layers of myself were being peeled off, giving space to my soul to come out and clarity was entering my body mind and heart. For a while I felt light and like curtains in front of me were being opened. Finally a few weeks later and still having this feeling so strong, I was out with a friend and for a moment a felt such a lightness within myself , like out of my body and when I looked around I could feel some sort of heaviness, like of this “life” and I remember telling my friend that I was tired of “all that”- her answer was , yes me too, all those politicians – but nope I was talking about “something else”. Anyways after that my life went upside down, I could not relate to anything I had been brought to believe before (like the mundane life, work, friends, career), Ive started longing for some “place”. Ever since I believe I have undergone a “dark night of the soul” and I feel I am starting to emerge from that bit by bit, after lots of inner work. I say to myself it can be a burden sometimes, as it made my relation to people and the mundane harder, but also a blessing to have experienced that and having “opening”a bit more my consciousness – I don’t feel anymore what I used to, but something has remained inside me, and changed me forever. Still (probably will be for a while) working on myself and how to be grounded and not wanting to escape from this “reality”. Well, thank you again guys for all your deep work here. It is the first time I open up about that (Ive been trying to write a book about the all experience – but like you say, it is impossible to translate it into words). Thanks for giving us that safe space.
Thank you Marcella for sharing your experience. In today’s secular world it definitely makes it more difficult to navigate these types of insights, there’s not very much support in terms of traditions, practices or even spaces to connect with others or some guidance. We felt this type of website is the closest thing nowadays to a safe space of support.
Navigating them while still being in the ‘marketplace’ as some of the mystics call everyday life and surroundings of people is probably one of the hardest parts, perhaps that’s why so many of them sought solitude in mountains and deserts. It’s a life long journey, I don’t think we ever stop ‘working on ourselves’, the shift seems to be that as we align more with our internal world, what seemed as work initially becomes a fulfilling path that keeps us awake and aware. :)
I had a mystical, or mini awakening, as I’ve been referring to it this past summer during morning meditation. I was shown in the most visceral and textural way that I AM the 4 elements. This is by far the most vivid experience I’ve ever had and at the very end of this meditation my inner light being levitated. This meditation has changed me on a fundamental level. I AM nature and nature is me. Following this meditation nature became comfortable with me on an intimate level; spiders would ask to visit and explore me, and in turn I was able to feel and know their consciousness, birds in particular started to come very close to observe and make requests. The mere sight of pollution in the bay brings about tears of deep sorrow. Clearly I’m meant to share this profound sensitivity and direct the message in ways that will illicit a change for good, but so far I haven’t organized any action into existence other than share my awareness with only a select few.
Thank you Mari for sharing your experience. I truly enjoyed the communion with nature aspects of it, we’ve been directed back to it over the last few years and can clearly see the necessity for sharing this message and hopefully creating a practical way of bringing it more into others paths. We have some exciting plans for this in the coming months/years, perhaps that may be a way of organizing the action you mention :).
Hello Mari. I felt moved to respond to what you write about your mystical sense of union with nature. I believe I know what you are talking about since I am for some reason born that way. I mean knowing that I AM nature, that all is one, and that it is the most natural thing to care for or lend a hand to any creature or plant of this earth since that is in fact caring for my own greater body. Or, I don’t think about it so much, it’s just an IS. But I’ve come to realise most people do not have this depth of connection with the planet, and that love of nature is generally as a love of some Other. Which is okay, but I can sense the difference there. And when you write about your mystical experience it feels heart warming to know that here is another who perceives what I do.
And you know, I haven’t found a way to express this, work for this knowing, either… and have always felt guilty for it. Haven’t even sought work in the nature preservation sector or anything like that. And I haven’t known what to do with this knowing except keep it alive of course and in my own life, live that way. I notice that people startle at the way I protect small creatures, stop someone from swatting a fly or take a spider out of my apartment on my hand. I figure it’s the least I can do to express my truth. But I long to do more.
If you want to exchange views on this or maybe figure out something together, please contact me on Facebook. You will find I’m the only one with the name Emma Fogelholm and I’m based in Finland. Love!
I’m not exactly sure that is what I experienced but it was powerful. I was at my Moms side as I didn’t want her to die alone. Her oxygen levels were getting low and I knew she would be gone soon. The icu room she was in had many lights. The kind that are in the ceiling. Then those lights starting flashing. It was like I was in a disco room. I can’t really explain how it felt other than love. Felt like the most calming and loving feeling. Then my Mom passed away. That feeling stayed with me for a couple of hours. This was the worst time of my life but at that exact moment it was unforgettable loving and unexplainable feeling.
It sounds like a powerful experience indeed. I’ve often found that when facing mortality, whether ours or others, it shocks so drastically our illusionary sense of self, or ego, that we become quite open to all that is, which is often described as an eternal feeling of love. In those moments, when our minds are still and our hearts and open and receptive, we taste that which is there all along but our thought-filled heads prevent us from being able to tune into. The beauty of it though is that we can access these states naturally without the need for such a crisis to shock us into them which generally is only temporary anyway.