Your life is a living hell.
No matter what you do, no matter where you go, there’s the unshakeable feeling within you that you’re pathetic, worthless, ugly, stupid, and a total failure at everything.
You may achieve something, and you may be given love and affection, but you brush it off because of the toxic shame filled self-loathing voice within you that whispers:
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Who do you think you are? You’re no one. You’re not good enough. You’ll never be good enough. Stop fooling yourself, you f*cking idiot.
Can you relate to this incessant feeling of self-loathing and self-hatred?
Do you feel like, no matter what you do, you’re unimportant, inferior, unwanted, broken, hopeless, useless, ridiculous, and unlovable?
I have been there before.
In fact, my self-hatred at one point was so intense that I resorted to self-harm in order to cope with it. For many years, I was trapped in the prison of my mind, and it was a horrific experience – something that many people cannot even begin to understand.
The truth is that there’s no quick, one-size-fits-all solution for self-loathing. But there are many ways to overcome it. And the fact that you’re here is already one step in the right direction toward self-love and self-compassion.
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Self-Loathing Definition
Self-loathing is synonymous with self-hatred: it’s an extreme dislike of oneself. It’s fuelled by anger, low self-esteem, and a distorted perception of oneself due to misguided thoughts and toxic self-beliefs. In most cases, self-loathing is the result of having a dysfunctional upbringing.
Hating Yourself: 3 Reasons Why It Happens
Hating yourself sucks. And it’s more complex than it looks on the surface.
In order to overcome your self-loathing, you need to understand why it happens and where it came from.
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There are three main factors at the root of hating yourself:
- Poor family environment
- Poor social environment
- Ego possession and soul loss
1. Poor family environment
Firstly, there is the poor family environment. When we’re raised in a family that is either (a) too smothering and possessive or (b) too neglectful and rejecting of us – or in some cases, both combined – we internalize the idea that there’s something defective or wrong with us. Why else would our parents or family members behave in that way? Why else would they harm us? Mommy and Daddy are meant to love us, right?
You see, as young children, we needed to see our parents in an almost godlike way. To us, they needed to be right, safe, and infallible because if we mistrusted them, it would have been very hard for us to survive (emotionally, mentally, and in some cases physically).
Therefore, instead of critically analyzing and condemning our parents (which young children don’t have the cognitive capacity to do), we turned the blame onto ourselves. We felt there was something wrong with us. We felt that we were wrong, bad, and shameful for the way our parents and family members treated us. We took the blame for something they did wrong.
Thus, we have one major cause of self-loathing: it’s based on the misguided core belief that we adopted as children that there’s something fundamentally wrong with us.
As psychoanalyst and philosopher Alice Miller writes:
The love a child has for his or her parents ensures that their conscious or unconscious acts of mental cruelty will go undetected.
Author and therapist Anodea Judith goes on to explain:
Since we usually identify with our caretakers and their values, the way they treat us teaches us about our value as human beings. We take on their attitudes toward us. Abuse makes us feel unlovable, and feeling defective only adds to our shame. Unlovable, we are no longer in touch with our divinity, our specialness, our validity as human beings. Convinced that the fault lies in some intrinsic flaw, to which we are blind and helpless, we abandon ourselves.
2. Poor social environment
Building on top of a poor family environment is a poor social environment. And you don’t have to look very deep into society before you come across some really nasty shit.
Other than the typical cases of bullying we see in schools, our childhood social environments that were outside of the house may have reinforced our self-loathing even more through the harmful effects of social media conditioning and the obsessive toxic comparison with others.
If you were alive before the rise of social media and internet usage, you might have come across critical and shame-driven teachers or education systems that made you feel worthless or inferior if you didn’t meet their standards of success.
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Any experience or environment that reinforced the false idea that “there’s something wrong with you” likely deepened the amount of self-loathing you held. And if you’ve ever read into basic psychology, you’ll know that the mind likes patterns, so you’ll eventually find yourself in a bubble full of confirmation bias where you’re constantly looking out for and receiving validation that you’re worthless. This pattern occurs because it appeases the mind’s need to control and understand life.
(It’s the exact same bubble algorithm that social media networks like Facebook use – except self-loathing plays with your entire life, on-screen and off-screen.)
3. Ego possession and soul loss
Finally, we come to the core issue at the heart of all self-loathing: soul loss. This term may cause you to roll your eyes or feel confused – but hear me out.
We are all born with no sense of “me,” “my,” and “I.” As babies, we are ego-less and at One with the Universe. But as we grow older, in order to survive in this world, we need to separate ourselves to build a sense of self. To construct an ego.
This basic separation from the Universe, from the Divine, is at the root of all self-loathing. We can only hate ourselves when there is someone to hate. Without that someone, without that ego, there is no self-loathing and, therefore, no suffering. (By the way, this state of egolessness has been referred to as heaven, Self-realization, Nirvana, illumination, enlightenment, and so on for thousands of years.)
Soul loss occurs when we get so enmeshed and immersed in our fabricated egos that we feel totally disconnected from anything good, meaningful, or real. Instead, we feel empty, lost, hopeless, and in many cases, full of self-loathing.
The good news is that you can experience this for yourself – you don’t have to believe one iota of what I’m saying. The gateway to experiencing the reality that your sense of “you” is not real is through meditation.
If you’d like to take a tentative step in this direction, I recommend practicing mindfulness meditation and downloading a free app like InsightTimer (which is what I use). There are thousands of free meditations on this app, and to help narrow your focus, you might like to start with the self-compassion or self-observation meditations that are available.
Later in this article, I’ll explore how to prevent your ego from possessing you. But in the meantime, you might like to open in a new tab or browser window the following articles to read later:
15 Signs You’re Struggling With Self-Loathing
How can it be “happy hour” if I spend the entire time crying tears of self-loathing & despair into my $1.50 beer?
– Unknown
Are you struggling with self-loathing? Pay attention to these signs – some of them are surprising and lesser-known than the others:
- Extremely harsh self-talk (“I’m stupid,” “I’m worthless,” etc.).
- Depression and anxiety.
- Feeling chronically insecure around others.
- Slouched or poor posture.
- Neglecting your body and health.
- Self-sabotage and self-destructive behavior (aka., not allowing yourself to be happy).
- Anger issues.
- Refusing compliments, advice, or help.
- Self-isolation.
- Addictions or addictive tendencies.
- Having a martyr complex.
- Feeling like a victim all the time.
- Defeatist mindsets like “What’s the point,” “I can’t do this,” and “This is hopeless.”
- Hopelessness.
- Aimlessness.
All of these behaviors and tendencies inevitably result in, and are caused by, self-loathing.
Self-Loathing, Spiritual Awakening, and the Dark Night of the Soul
Sometimes, experiencing self-loathing is a sign that you’re going through a Dark Night of the Soul, which is essentially the shadow side of the spiritual awakening process, a typically uncomfortable but expansive journey of transformation.
When we undergo a Dark Night of the Soul, we feel abandoned by God or Spirit, we carry an inner feeling of emptiness and aloneness, and we have the sense that we’re totally cut off from the Divine.
The Dark Night is also accompanied by existential questions such as “What is the meaning of my life?” “Why do good people suffer?“ and “Who am I?”
It’s common to do a lot of Soul searching during the Dark Night and to feel disconnected from our True Nature, our place in the world, and our life purpose. The result is often a feeling of existential depression and feeling alone and isolated from everyone and everything.
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If your self-loathing seems to have a deeper dimension to it beyond just a self-worth issue, you might like to learn more about the Dark Night of the Soul.
7 Ways to Overcome Self-Loathing and Stop Hating Yourself
How has it come about that we are so bewitched by our self-hatred, so impressed and credulous in the face of our self-criticism, as unimaginative as it usually is? … Self-criticism, when it isn’t useful in the way any self-correcting approach can be, is self-hypnosis. It is judgement as spell, or curse, not as conversation; it is an order, not a negotiation; it is dogma, not overinterpretation.
– Adam Phillips
By now, a sense of frustration, desperation, or grief may be welling up inside of you.
Not only do you feel tormented by your self-loathing, but you also feel victimized by it as well.
Well, the truth is that you are being victimized by your self-hatred. But you don’t have to stay a victim forever.
You’ve already taken the first step in the direction of health and well-being without even knowing it. (Well done, by the way.) Next, it’s time to step out of the role of victim and into the role of warrior.
Here are some powerful ways of overcoming self-loathing.:
1. Get the hell off social media
You heard me. Take a break, or detox, from social media – and set your goal for 30 days. If that seems too long, try one week with no social media. I’m talking no Facebook, no Instagram, no TikTok, and no YouTube – none of it!
If you have to uninstall a hoard of apps, do it. If you have to shove your laptop under the bed in a locked vault, do it. Go hermit mode. Say sayōnara to the constant notification dings and stream of other people’s mental vomit. You’ll be happy you made this choice!
The reason why I advise you to get the hell off social media is that it tends to reinforce self-loathing through a phenomenon known as toxic comparison.
When we go on social media, we see a finely curated version of other people’s lives. We see what others want us to see, not what is actually going on under the surface. And we then compare our lives to those picture-perfect versions of other people’s realities. As a result, we start to get anxious, depressed, and full of self-loathing. Doesn’t that suck?
“Why can’t I be that slim/ripped?” we may lament as we scroll through endless pictures of chiseled bodies in bizarre yoga poses. “Their house/boyfriend/wife/holidays/life is so amazing, and mine … sucks.”
Can you see where all this leads? Yes, we begin to feel horrible about ourselves and our lives.
So please distance yourself from social media. It should be classified as a Class A Substance because of its addictive potential and negative side effects.
By the way, according to many studies, people who take a break from social media report feeling happier, more relaxed, and more productive. So take comfort in that and use this information to motivate you to turn off and tune out.
2. Do one kind thing for yourself every day
It doesn’t matter what that one nice action is, do something, anything that is well-intentioned toward yourself.
For example, this one kind of action may involve putting on an extra jacket when you feel cold, making yourself a healthy breakfast, going to bed early, taking a walk in nature, or having a warm bubble bath. Just make sure that you’re consciously doing it with the right intention, which is to show kindness toward yourself.
Doing one good thing for yourself every day can feel weird at first. If it does, take a minute to note down those feelings and responses in a journal.
In fact, if you’re stuck for ideas, I recommend journaling every day. If you don’t know how to approach journaling, see my How to Start Journaling article.
You may also like to get our guided Self-Love Journal which can be tremendously supportive on your journey to recovering from self-loathing.
3. Creatively express your self-loathing
Art is a powerful healing practice that will help you come to terms with how self-loathing is influencing you.
One powerful art practice is to get a big sheet of blank paper and a few colored pens and draw yourself as the self-loathing part of you perceives you. Then, get another piece of paper and draw yourself as a genuinely loving and compassionate person would see you.
Compare the two drawings. How do they make you feel? What memories or thoughts arise? You may like to write these down on the back of each drawing.
If you get a lot out of this practice, you might like to look into the field of art therapy more in-depth. (See this article on art therapy for more guidance.)
4. Explore the question, “Does my environment support me?”
In other words, do your friends support you? Do your colleagues support you? Does your work, family, or study environment support you?
When I write “support you,” what I really mean is, do these people and environments uphold and uplift you?
If you feel loved and accepted exactly the way you are, you are in a supportive environment.
If, on the other hand, you’re surrounded by people who belittle, condemn, or frequently reject you, you’re in an environment that reinforces self-loathing. Such a situation is toxic, and in the interest of your health and happiness, I strongly advise you to do some heavy-duty “spring cleaning” and remove these people from your life if possible – or distance yourself as much as possible.
It can feel scary to change friends, jobs, and habits. It can feel daunting to stand up and make a change – despite what the harsh and critical voice in your head says. But you have a warrior inside of you, and you have the right to be happy and to live a life that supports you.
So do some thinking. Assess your life right now. Plan escape routes. Seek out those who uphold and uplift you. It may take some time, but it is so worth doing. Neglecting this practice is like trying to build a castle on top of a swamp: it’s unstable. Any changes you make will be undermined by those around you if you aren’t careful. So choose your company wisely.
5. Explore your core beliefs (and reframe them)
Your core beliefs are the central convictions or strongly held ideas that you have about yourself. Everything else in your life – your habits, behaviors, self-talk, job choices, friends, partners – will revolve around these central beliefs. And if these beliefs are negative, beware! So much pain and suffering in life stems from our toxic core beliefs.
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$3Common negative core beliefs include:
- “I am bad.”
- “I am worthless.”
- “I am unlovable.”
- “I am defective.”
In my article on core beliefs (which I strongly encourage you to read), I show you how to get to the root of these central convictions and uncover your core beliefs.
Once you have found your core belief, it’s then essential to reframe and reprogram it. So, for example, if your core belief is “I am unlovable,” then you would hold as your mantra something like “I am lovable,” or “I am worthy of love.”
This affirmation can be repeated endlessly throughout the day whenever a thought or feeling of self-loathing arises. Slowly, you will shift your core belief from being toxic and negative to being healthy and positive.
6. Commit to self-love and self-care
Self-love and self-care are commitments and attitudes we bring into our lives. When we walk the path of self-love, we are taking every opportunity we can to take care of ourselves – no matter what happens or who happens to hurt us.
What’s the difference between self-love and self-care, you may wonder? Well, self-love is more directed toward the heart and mind. Self-care, on the other hand, is more body-oriented.
Ultimately, the goal is to take care of all levels of your being (your body, heart, mind, and soul). That’s why I recommend you read our articles on how to love yourself and how to practice self-care as key places to start.
7. Take care of your soul (mindfulness + meditation)
As I mentioned above, soul loss is at the very root of self-loathing. When we are disconnected from the Divine – in whatever form that is to us – we feel empty, dead, and lost inside.
The easiest way to re-establish a connection with your soul is through mindfulness and meditation.
Mindfulness reconnects you with the present moment, which is where all the magic happens, and meditation helps you to move past your ego and experience your soul.
Mindfulness and meditation also help you to deal with self-loathing thoughts by becoming aware of them. Once you become aware of these self-hating thoughts, you become an observer of them rather than being lost in them. It’s kind of like the difference between being in a dramatic movie versus sitting back in the movie theater and watching the movie in a relaxed manner.
If you don’t meditate already, I encourage you to download an app like InsightTimer, Headspace, or Calm. There are thousands of free meditations on these apps, and I guarantee that you’ll find something that resonates with you after browsing for a couple of minutes.
One of the greatest discoveries I’ve made is that mindfulness and meditation can be practiced anytime, anywhere, and with anything. The beauty is that it can become a way of life, a constant doorway to freedom from suffering. And that is the true beauty of practices such as these.
Hating Yourself is Based on a Simple Misunderstanding
In conclusion, I want to highlight the simple truth that hating yourself is based on a fundamental misunderstanding about your worth.
At the root of self-loathing is the belief that there’s something intrinsically wrong, bad, or defective about you. But that isn’t so.
You are worthy of love. You are worthy of being seen. You are worthy of being held.
You are a child of the Universe, and you are here for a reason.
Who has the right to say otherwise? (Answer: No one.)
The only way you can truly understand this for yourself is to start your own spiritual journey – to be the rebel, the lone wolf that revolts against your thoughts and the ego that likes to make you feel worthless.
It is your birthright to pave your own path, blaze your own trail in life, and refuse to be tamed by your conditioning.
It’s time to step up and reclaim your self-sovereignty.
Will you accept the call?
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Depression and anxiety have ruined my life. They’ve destroyed my dreams. Therapy and medicine don’t work. Financial comfort is alien to me. I can’t make friends. Finding love is impossible because I’m defective and have nothing to offer. I beg God every night to not wake up the next morning. He doesn’t listen.
I feel you at least we’re not alone. But I wish so bad not to wake up, I don’t want to die but I want to stop living sometimes and I can hate my life and myself so much that I can’t take it and feel that I’m worthy of nothing. It sucks. I hope you start feeling better I know it’s just a problem in our head that we can overcome it’s just difficult to break the cycle
As a father, I hear you. My son is handsome, rich, intelligent. He is also an atheist, like his father. And he hopes that he will not wake up so he can get out of his misery. He is the only son of highly educated, well-to-do family. Nothing has helped him or us.
If you wish to write to me, I will listen and respond.
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I’m so truly sorry that you have such pain
What if you *are* stupid, ugly & unlovable? Telling yourself that you’re not, when you are, is just a lie. I’m in my 60s & nothing in my entire life has ever led me to believe I’m NOT stupid, ugly & unlovable. As a teen, I was constantly told how ugly I was by the boys in my high school & I have never been asked out on a date. Ever. That’s pathetic. I recently found out I have a learning disability. It’s great to finally find out why I have such a hard time learning certain things. It’s made me feel like a moron my entire life. I couldn’t understand how other people understood things that absolutely baffled me. I couldn’t get through college – tutoring & extra credit work didn’t help. I finally gave up. I work a stupid boring job that pays the bills. I get so angry at myself for being stupid & ugly & a loser, and for doing dumb things, that I hate myself on the head, sometimes with heavy objects, until I make my scalp bleed. I wish had the courage to walk in front of a bus, but I’ve always been to chicken. I’m waiting to die. For me, life isn’t worth living – it’s been a 60-something year long drudge – something to “get through” until it’s over. Yeah – tried therapy. I learned how to PRETEND to be happy & well-adjusted. I deserve an Oscar for my performance. Nobody knows how I really feel – and probably wouldn’t care if they did.
Lyn, I obviously don’t know you or anything about you besides what you have written. But one thing I do know is that you are a human being (or a spambot… who knows in this day and age). And as a human being, you are one of nature’s most magnificent creations (though spambots are catching up). Nothing else in this universe that has been discovered or proven has the ability to look at it’s surroundings and say, “What is this shitshow?!? What’s my part in it? How do I make it better?”
As every other material body in the universe unerringly plays out a dance choreographed at the moment of creation, human beings alone have near-ultimate powers of creation and destruction, and near-complete free agency to do as they see fit. This is also true of you, regardless of your or anyone else’s opinion. As a human being, you are beautiful and amazing regardless of your appearance. I say that for no other reason than that I believe it to my very core.
Again, I don’t know you at all, but you came here for a reason. Maybe it was to help you deal with some of the inner pain that you apparently feel? In that case, you came to the right place. I encourage you to keep reading whatever resonates with you, and I wish you the very best.
Oh yeah, and screw what other people think. You be you.
Forgot to mention… I also sense that you might be a really strong empath. Not that I’m psychic or anything, but my hunches are usually correct. As someone who also has a strong sense of empathy (and here I just said I wasn’t psychic… can we say, “d-e-n-i-a-l”?), I can say from experience that sometimes the emotions that we pick up from others are *about us*, and that can be a real downer if those emotions aren’t positive. Sometimes that can lead to self-growth, but it can also lead to self-loathing if we pick up on it often enough, especially if it is regarding something that we have no control of and cannot change.
Anyway, just thought I’d pass that on to you. Best of luck.
I’m so sorry to hear! And those people to call you those awful things are hideous people. I promise your worthy even if you don’t believe it and others have told you so because what say should they have? You’re better then all those people who throw hate and the fact that you have endured the pain for so many years shows how strong you are and that’s beautiful. If it makes you feel better you’re definitely not alone life is a pain I hate living too but you are worthy even if you don’t believe it
I’ve felt this way all of my life. Ive done therapy, medication, etc., and although i managed to function, everyday was a struggle. And since I turned 60, last year it’s gotten 100x worse, but I’m just too tired now to fight it anymore. Maybe next time around…
Me to. Can’t believe my whole life was a waste due to the parents that brought me here. They both are/were abused children having children!!!! Watch with blind eyes, entire family as I played out the life they beat into me. Narcissists that didn’t deserve to have children. They both destroyed my brother and I.
I wish this article could help me
Thank you for this article. I tend to be really self-critical and have been struggling to overcome some life setbacks. I believe that the universe conspires in our favour.. but for some time now I have lost touch with my soul and faith in my path. After reading this, I realised my ego + fear really absorbs all my energies influencing me to have a defeatist perspective. I have sat in sorrow of myself, loathing, regretting and in someway grieving the past. I resorted to negative tendencies to cope with stress and depression. But this article has helped me have hope again, to have faith in a new beginning – to cut bad habits and focus on self-loving, self-caring, embracing, loving and having gratitude. Thank you.
defeatist that I should be projecting into nature, mindfulness, peace and love.
. Self-loathing thoughts are second nature to me
Thank you for this article. I relate to much of it. My self-loathing comes from a single mother who favoured my brother over me as well as from a society that favours men over women (thereby inferring that it is bad/wrong to be female). For some 40+ years my core belief has been that it is bad/wrong to be female (*next article to read is on Core Beliefs*). It is a well-worn groove in my neural pathways that is constantly reaffirmed by things going on in society and the way society/men treat women. I have always wondered if my life would have been different/better if I didn’t have a brother or if I was born male rather than female. I have no desire to change my sex. I just firmly believe that it is bad/wrong to be female in a patriarchal society.
You’re right. but don’t kill yourself, for Gods Sake! Find some joy in this crazy existence. Its there. Its a privilege to be here not a prison. Please: let go of all your anger. And self hatred. I sense this in you comes from a past life far more than this lifetime. Have you ever seen a past life therapist-a good one? I was guided once into a scene that I have no doubt took place somewhere back i the 1500s, when I was a commander of an ‘Christian’ based army that was completely wiped out (on both sides of the ‘battle’) leaving me the only one standing. A smoking castle in the background. Everyone gone except me and my horse. I felt betrayed on the deepest level possible by God. Massive soul shaking betrayal I would have called it. In that lifetime I believe it was a particular (??) feminine energy/being that may have saved me for that life—but, unresolved because it was so deeply embedded in my soul, it then carried itself through many lifetimes, but in this lifetime I learned that it was not God that rejected me. Since there is, really, no God. Just energy, presence… It was-and is- all a human construct-the guilt, the shame, the mind endlessly torturing me-and you, a loving, kind, beautiful being. Love yourself-since no one else will. I am working on that myself… You will have to come back again if you dont get it right this time-so get started-look in the mirror-start there-forgive yourself and all that has happened, let go….
No God, Michael? Where do you think energy and presence come from? God is all around you; the earth, the universe didn’t just appear.
Ask your charlatan “past-life therapist” where your past life came from. If you believe Science, matter is neither created nor destroyed… yet, here it is. The smallest bit had to come from somewhere: God. If you don’t believe in God, it is no wonder you feel empty. But you do believe in God, because you said, “for God’s Sake”. For your sake, reconnect. God is not a killjoy, so seek Him out – He is always there for you, if you ask for Him.
I hate when religion gets involved! If I could only say here what my “President of the “Southern Baptist women of the southeast” my fist mother in law at 17 years old. It’s so sadistic and beyond comprehension as I’ve told one person just recently and Timmy shock her and my mother both should have gone to jail had I known there was a crime against me committed. Instead I turned on myself. Keep your God out of peoples problems. See what it triggered in me.
What if you just can’t do anything nice for yourself…I understand the problem. I just almost don’t even want to fix it. I’m too far past that now. I’ve hated myself for 35 years and seen nothing that hasn’t backed up why. I’m pretty sure it’s a mistake that I was even born and not for lack of the universe trying to kill me off before that happened. I don’t know why my mother struggled and put her life at risk just to birth me just for me to end up some loser. She really should have listend to the doctors and aborted me before this mistake could have ever occurred. I wouldn’t have ever known the difference, but now I do, and part of me resents it. Maybe all of me resents it. MAybe it’s a mistake I just need to man up and fix and get it over with and stop bitching about it.
Try Reading “steppenwolf” by Herman Hesse, it helped me see that its never to late to let the light into your heart, i hope it can help you too
I’m sorry to hear that you feel this way about yourself somedude. Please do reach out to a counselor for support. Sending lots of love your way in hopes that you find your innate worth and value again. ♡
Greetings Luna and Sol,
Thank you for this honest and affirming article on how we feel about ourselves.
I recently realized that I have a pattern of disliking people who remind me of my former self– my former self meaning, the way i was before my spiritual awakening. it’s so interesting to know that this has been a pattern for me, that maybe i am not showing compassion to the person i used to be, which is why i direct/project that dislike onto others. thank you for reading <3
That’s totally normal Eve, I have an issue with disliking some types of women who remind me of certain family members. So you’re not alone in being triggered to randomly dislike someone, it’s just a sign that self-compassion and love needs to be shown in that area of life – because what we dislike in another is usually something we’ve rejected in ourselves. ❤
Except when you absolutely just despise your self because you’re stuck living in a flesh prison and being a transgender monster!
You deserve to be loved and to love yourself. I hope you see that one day ♡
You’re not a monster. You’re just not at home. I get that in many ways deep down. I fight hating myself because of abuse, trauma, society’s sickness. I have always fought it even if sometimes I don’t win. I still try and fight knowing I deserve better. So do you. I always say, ‘don’t judge yourself by standards of a sick society’.
If I may say so, find a way to fluff your nest, cultivate your ‘home’ so you’re more comfortable in it. Or reject society’s insanity if you can. See the sickness and fight it. Or dive deep and do some heavy ‘cleaning’; find out why you feel stuck or trapped or imprisoned for any number of reasons people do when they’re not at home in their own body. Just know you’re not a monster, me thinks.