Why do I refuse help from others? Why do I keep intentionally hurting myself? Why do I keep making the same mistakes over and over again?
How often have you asked yourself any of these questions?
Self-destructive behavior can be a daunting topic. It’s like a gremlin that lurks in the dark corners of existence, hiding in places we train ourselves to overlook and intentionally avoid.
But the more we put off facing our self-destructive behavior, the more it consumes us.
Are you ready to face the self-destructive parts of you? Remember that toxic behavior comes from only one part of you – it doesn’t define the whole of you.
(If you need more help after reading this article, I highly recommend checking out our Self-Love Journal and Shadow Work Journal to go deeper and help heal self-destructive tendencies.)
Table of contents
- What is Self-Destructive Behavior?
- Why Are We Self-Destructive? (+ My Experience)
- 17 Symptoms and Habits of Self-Destructive Behavior
- You’re Not Broken (You’re Just Human)
- Self-Destructive Behavior and the Journey of Self-Love
- How to Stop Being Self-Destructive (6 Pathways)
- Self-Destructive Tendencies Q&A
What is Self-Destructive Behavior?
Self-destructive behavior is any action carried out by an individual that causes them direct or indirect harm. This self-inflicted harm may be experienced on a physical, mental, or emotional level and creates immense suffering throughout their life. Examples of self-destructive behavior include workaholism, substance abuse, eating disorders, self-martyrdom, self-harm, and any behavior that negatively impacts a person’s life for which they aren’t actively trying to change or don’t feel worthy of overcoming.
Why Are We Self-Destructive? (+ My Experience)
I’m not the first, and I certainly won’t be the last person to admit that I’ve had self-destructive tendencies.
From pushing away the people I love and housing self-defeating mindsets to repeatedly self-harming in my teenage years, I’ve been down this dark alley more than once.
As I’ve grown, however, I’ve realized that self-destructive behaviors are an expression of the Shadow Self (aka., our ‘dark side’), which causes issues such as low self-esteem, low self-worth, and eventually self-loathing.
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While psychologists speculate that self-sabotaging behaviors could be coping mechanisms (i.e., to deal with stress, pressure, social demands, etc.), others consider self-destructive behavior as a way of maintaining comfort zones due to lack of confidence or feelings of unworthiness (e.g., staying at the familiar bottom of the social ladder).
17 Symptoms and Habits of Self-Destructive Behavior
Self-destructive behavior comes in many guises – some extreme, some more subtle.
Here are some of the most common symptoms and habits of self-destructive behavior:
1. Self-defeating mindsets
Self-defeating mindsets are typically unconscious forms of self-destructive behavior that result in self-fulfilling prophecies. Examples include harboring thoughts, usually on a subconscious level, such as, “I’m going to fail; I just know it,” “I’ll never get out alive,” “This will completely destroy me,” etc.
2. Failing to take action
Failing to take action may be passive, but it’s still self-destructive. When we know something is bad for us but fail to take any action or steps to remedy the issue, we are essentially setting ourselves up for (and guaranteeing) failure.
3. Over-eating
Over-eating usually appears as the habit of cramming ourselves full of sugary, fatty, and processed foods. This unhealthy habit can result in many long-term health issues (not to mention the short-term negative impacts on mood, sleep, creativity, etc.).
4. Under-eating
Many under-eaters fool themselves into thinking they’re benefiting themselves. The reality is that under-eating is usually a band-aid for serious self-image problems and other psychological issues.
5. Forced incompetence or over-committal
Forced incompetence means portraying yourself as unintelligent or incapable of successfully achieving something. This habit usually stems from a lack of confidence in your abilities and can function as a coping mechanism (e.g., to deal with academic pressure).
The opposite of forced incompetence is over-committal, where we commit to too many responsibilities, become “super capable,” and turn into workaholics, even though it burns us out and begins to feel soul-sucking very quickly.
6. Going out of your way to harm others
What goes around comes around, as they say, and the negative influence you have on others, whether by words or deeds, will eventually manifest in your own life (e.g., through sicknesses, tragedy, legal issues, isolation, etc.). On some level, we all know this truth, yet sometimes we go ahead and hurt others anyway.
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7. Physical self-harm
Physical self-harm is an extreme physical expression of self-destructive behavior. This practice is connected to low self-worth and the desire to cope with emotional pain in a physical way. Examples of physical self-harm include cutting, burning, and hitting oneself (or inciting others to do this to us, such as by intentionally provoking a fight). In extreme cases, physical self-harm can manifest as suicide attempts. (Please seek help from one of these hotlines if you do feel suicidal. There is always compassionate help available.)
8. Self-pity
Self-pity is an unconscious form of self-destructive behavior. It is destructive because it encourages us to remain inactive (i.e., wallowing in our misfortunes) rather than encouraging a proactive approach toward life.
9. Drug and alcohol abuse
Many people transform their anger into self-destructiveness—drinking their lives away or becoming oblivious in drugs or working too much. They make take it out on their children, employees, or animals. They may be passive-aggressive in a number of ways— being silent, uninvolved, offering insincere love and friendship, being available for people but making them suffer for it.
– Thomas Moore
A self-evident form of self-destructive behavior, drug and alcohol abuse creates endless misery in the lives of addicts and their friends and family members. Drug and alcohol abuse are usually connected to soul loss – or being disconnected from your soul.
10. Social self-alienation
While not always done consciously, social self-alienation is the act of deliberately isolating yourself from your peers. This could be through a variety of irritating, repelling, or antisocial behaviors that, on some level, you know are self-destructive.
11. Hiding from emotions
Failing to acknowledge negative (and sometimes positive) emotions creates a host of mental, emotional, and physiological illnesses. Hiding from emotions is another form of unconsciously manifested self-destructive behavior.
12. Refusing to be helped
Pushing away advice, refusing to go to rehab, avoiding the psychologist – all of these examples are signs of not wanting to be helped which is a reflection of the deep core belief that “I’m unworthy.” Refusing to be helped is a form of self-destructive behavior because it prevents growth and healing from occurring within you.
13. Unnecessary self-sacrifice
Some people are in love with their misery because that is all they have known for a large portion of their lives. Unnecessary self-sacrifice or being a martyr are good ways of making us feel “noble” and “altruistic” while masking the actual act of self-sabotage (which is giving up on the hopes, dreams, and passions that make us truly happy).
14. Spending too much
Whether through chronic gambling or constant Amazon purchases, overspending may seem unusual to include on this list, but it is nevertheless a form of self-destructive behavior that limits one’s freedom and peace of mind.
15. Physical neglect
Getting poor sleep, refusing to exercise, eating unhealthy food, and failing to maintain the general well-being of your body are all classic signs of common self-destructive behavior. Risky sexual behavior and poor personal boundaries are also a sign of physical neglect.
16. Mental neglect
Refusing, avoiding, or failing to confront your psychological health issues (e.g., stress, anxiety, depression, paranoia, OCD, etc.) delays the healing process, resulting in the perpetuation of long-term issues.
17. Sabotaging relationships
Sabotaging your relationships is a complex symptom as it involves many destructive behaviors such as jealousy, possessiveness, emotional manipulation, neediness, violence, and so forth. When we don’t feel worthy of love, we unconsciously manifest this in our relationships through the way we choose to behave.
You’re Not Broken (You’re Just Human)
If you identify with any or most of the above signs, you might feel your stomach sink, and a dark cloud of sadness or resentment may wash over you.
You might even start thinking that you’re fundamentally “broken” or that “something is severely wrong with you.”
But please understand that it’s normal to identify with many of the above signs. There’s nothing wrong with you. You’re not broken. You’re not a lost cause. You’re simply human. And that’s totally okay.
Why is it normal to possess many of the above self-destructive behavior signs? The answer is that most people have either been negatively programmed by their family or society or have unconsciously adopted these actions as a defense mechanism to protect against mental and emotional pain.
In other words, it’s not your fault and you aren’t to blame for your self-destructive behavior. But it IS your responsibility to work through it.
You didn’t choose to be self-destructive, did you? You didn’t think at some point, “Hmmm, I think I’m going to be self-destructive now,” did you? It’s just what happened.
The goal here isn’t to feel terrible about yourself. Instead, the goal is to see that “it is what it is” and find ways to reverse, undo, and overcome your self-destructive tendencies.
Self-Destructive Behavior and the Journey of Self-Love
The very fact that you’re here right now reading this guide is already a sign that you’re awakening out of the dream of self-destruction.
In other words, you’re starting to become more self-aware, and self-awareness is a sign that you’re spiritually awakening or at least you’re making self-care more of a priority in your life.
If you’ve been on a shadow work journey of working through your inner darkness, you may have come across some self-destructive behavior pattern within yourself, which is why you may find yourself here.
Going through the dark night of the soul is also another reason why you might find yourself exploring your self-destructive tendencies as you seek to find more meaning and deeper fulfillment in life.
Whatever the case, it’s helpful to understand that self-destruction is the opposite of self-love. And in many cases, our tendencies towards self-destructive behavior are totally unconscious and on autopilot because we were never taught how to love and value ourselves.
In the words of writer and speaker Alan Watts,
When you won’t love, or won’t let it out, it emerges anyway in the form of self-destruction. The alternative to self-love, in other words, is self-destruction. Because you won’t take the risk of loving yourself properly, you will be compelled instead to destroy yourself.
As such, we can see that learning how to love yourself is the antidote to self-destructive behavior.
How to Stop Being Self-Destructive (6 Pathways)
While I can’t give you a magical cure, I can give you some ideas, inspiration, and a few tried-and-tested paths to follow. Try all of these practices systematically or select a few and work with them consistently.
On average, it takes around 66 days to establish a new habit, according to what researchers have found. So make it your goal to stick with at least one of these activities for two months.
Here are the practices:
1. Grow your self-awareness by keeping a journal every day
Journaling has numerous mental health benefits, and it’s a powerful way of increasing your self-awareness. In fact, we could say that self-awareness is the most crucial ingredient in overcoming self-destructive tendencies! Read more about how to journal and the practice of self-awareness for more guidance.
2. Free yourself of compulsive, self-destructive behavior through meditation or mindfulness
There’s a reason why you keep hearing about these two practices, and it’s because they work! Even if you struggle to meditate traditionally, there are endless forms of mindfulness meditation out there that might spark your interest.
Examples of meditation/mindfulness activities include breathwork, walking meditation, mindful art therapy, chanting mantras, guided journeys, chakra visualization, etc.
If you don’t know where to start, I recommend downloading a meditation app such as InsightTimer, Calm, or Headspace. I started off with these apps, and they helped me tremendously. Bringing these key spiritual practices into your life can have profound benefits.
Try starting with 5-10 minutes in the morning or evening every day at the same time (to create a habit out of it).
Meditation and mindfulness are so effective because they help you to come back home to the present moment and create more inner space, which frees you from the compulsiveness and autopilot of self-destructive behavior.
3. Release your pent-up emotions by doing some emotional catharsis
Sometimes, the reason why we’re self-destructing is that a deeper emotion (such as anger, grief, or fear) isn’t being expressed.
Just think of a kettle: the more it boils, the more steam is released. But if that kettle had no way to release that steam, it would eventually explode! The same thing applies to you: you need a pressure valve, a way to channel your pent-up emotions.
When you don’t channel those buried emotions in a healthy way, they can come out in self-destructive behaviors.
So find something you enjoy doing that requires intense mental or physical effort. Examples include boxing, running, singing, dancing, creating art, or plain old screaming and crying (doing this privately is a good idea if you’re living with people!). One unconventional form of catharsis is called dynamic meditation.
4. Learn self-care and self-love through some simple habits
Self-love is a basic attitude of kindness toward yourself: it is the practice of taking care of your mental and emotional needs.
Self-care, on the other hand, is generally more oriented toward your body: it involves eating properly, getting enough sleep, drinking adequate water, wearing comfortable clothing, staying healthy, etc.
Both self-love and self-care go beautifully hand-in-hand as allies against self-destruction.
I understand that self-love may feel like a bit of a stretch for you, so if you want a place to start, begin with self-care.
Begin with even just one self-care practice each day and make it into a habit by doing it at the same time and same place.
For example, you could decide to take a morning walk at 7:30 am each day to help your body feel energized and relaxed. Or you could drink a cup of chamomile tea at the end of your day as a winding down self-care ritual.
You can find more ideas in my self-care ideas article. And if you’d like to practice self-love, I recommend my how to love yourself post, as well as our guided self-love journal.
5. Explore your core beliefs which are at the root of self-destructive behavior
Core beliefs are at the very root of self-destructive behavior because that which we think we often become. Whatever internal dialogue that runs around in our mind is often what dictates our behavior. After all, isn’t it true that we often act on what we believe to be true?
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$3For example, if you carry the core belief that “no one will ever love me,” you will unconsciously and perhaps sometimes intentionally behave in ways that alienate other people so that they don’t hurt you, therefore reinforcing your belief that “no one will ever love me” because you don’t give others the chance to even try!
Core beliefs can be tricky because they’re usually unconscious and automatic, and yet, once we shine the light of our awareness onto them, we can see through them, change them, and find more freedom and peace.
Examples of core beliefs that can result in self-destructive behavior include:
- I am bad
- I am unlovable
- I am unworthy
- I always hurt people
- I am stupid
- I am weak
- I don’t deserve happiness
Core beliefs often start with the words “I am …” and they can be discovered through reflection, inquiry, and journaling. You can find out how to pinpoint yours in my core beliefs guide.
6. Sometimes, there’s a limit to what you can do, and you’ll need to find a coach, counselor, or therapist
If you have strong self-loathing or intense self-destructive tendencies, you might not even have the impulse to take on board any of the advice in this article (*ding ding!* that’s another form of self-destruction, but it’s okay, you’re only doing what you’ve been unconsciously programmed to do).
As such, my best advice is to find a coach, counselor, or therapist ASAP. Sometimes the best thing is to see our true worth in the mirror of another. Sometimes we need someone to hold our hands and actively guide us in a 1-to-1 way.
If this is the case, your search engine is your best friend. Look up the keywords “self-destructive behavior counselor near me,” and you’re bound to find someone who can help. If you’re fine with online sessions via places like Zoom, just use a keyword like “help for self-destructive behavior therapy” or look up “therapy near me.”
There’s only so much an article on the internet can do to help you. While you’ve taken a wonderful step towards health and healing, seeking out guidance in the form of a therapist or counselor will aid you with ongoing support and tools. These, in turn, will transform your life little by little. And soon, you’ll be able to look back on this behavior with a gentle smile and a sigh of relief, proud of your ability to overcome and heal.
Self-Destructive Tendencies Q&A
There are many reasons why someone might be self-destructive. On an emotional and psychological level, self-destructive tendencies may arise from childhood trauma, negative social conditioning, and low self-esteem that are due to having unsupportive or abusive parents, family members, or peers. On a spiritual level, self-destructive tendencies are due to soul loss or the disconnection from your true and authentic essence.
Examples of self-destructive behaviors include excessive self-sacrifice, over-eating or under-eating, sabotaging close relationships, smoking or drinking too much, drug abuse, and self-harm.
The first step to overcoming self-destructive tendencies is to simply be self-aware of what’s happening. Journaling about your discoveries is a powerful place to begin. The next step is to practice self-care and self-love. Learning how to take care of your body and nurturing yourself on a mental and emotional level are crucial steps to overcoming self-destructive behavior.
Self-destructive thoughts are a product of low self-esteem and a part of us known as the inner critic. It’s crucial to remember that this is just one part of you, not the whole of you. You’re so much bigger than the self-destructive thoughts that randomly pop into your mind. Remember that we all get self-destructive thoughts from time to time (and you don’t need to believe them in the first place!), but you might just be more sensitive to believe them due to past trauma.
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Self-destructive behaviors can be both conscious and unconscious – and they can end up sabotaging our health, happiness, and long-term well-being. But please remember that these harmful tendencies are a symptom of a deeper wound that needs to be shown compassion.
It’s important to remember that you’re not alone. Like me, you can probably identify with a couple or more symptoms of self-destructive behavior on this list. But when you take the first step on your healing journey of developing more self-awareness, self-care, self-forgiveness, and self-love, you will eventually be free of your self-destructive tendencies.
Don’t forget that if you need more help from now on with your self-destructive tendencies, our Self-Love Journal can help you with just that.
What are your experiences with self-destructive behavior? How did you learn to overcome them? I’d love to hear your stories below! Let’s help others not feel so alone.
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this article really helped me realised that what i am feeling isn’t foreign. i suffer from very low self esteem and i also have an ed as well as i was never allowed to do anything as a child/teen such as going out, hobbies, sports, buying things i like. so at my lowest points, i get this urge of wanting to ruin everything and if the purge were a real thing, i’d like to participate (not in hurting anyone but myself). i try and take whatever pills i can find at home because i want to get sick or it might make me lose weight (ed). something different i do is i tend to stare at myself in the mirror for longer and act narcissistically but still deeply hating myself (my dad suffers from narcissism). and the weird thing is, is whenver i have my destructive episodes, i start feeling happy that things are going bad and it’s me who is in control. since i am a minor and still live with my parents and i am unable to do anything, most of my self destructive parts are ideas that i have yet to do but i know that i’ll… Read more »
I’m at my lowest point ever in my life. I don’t know how I got here and why I am being so destructive to those around me and myself. It’s like being at the bottom of a well and no way of getting out of it. I didn’t know of destructive behaviour but I have now recognised that I do need help as I can’t do it alone.
This really hit me hard. I tick off pretty much everything on this list. But somehow I don’t feel like fixing it. I feel like I’m in too deep and I’m just a ticking time bomb.
I engage in self-destructive behavior all the time. I’ve beed struggling with depression since I was 5.
I hate myself to the the bone that I always wish I’ve never been born. Aside from all of the above symptoms which I do almost always, I also:
I smoke 3 packs of cigarette a day;
I engage in unprotected sex, hoping I get infected with something;
I actively seek ways to be infected with covid;
I contemplate on taking my own life, many times;
I eat once a day or none at all;
Well, I loathe my entire existence.
I am ashamed of my entire being. That’s it.
When I feel like I have been wronged, my kindness taken advantage of, or rejection I end up saying some really harsh things, being devious and can be a tad revengeful. I usually end up completely alienating the one whom I’m in conflict with. I know what mine stems from. My mom was verbally abusive and at a young age I was always on the defensive. Then in seeing 3 major female role models ( mom, grandmother, and aunt) act out like they did. I as part of that generational curse/familiarity in my adult life was carrying the torch forward. After I lash out and make matters worse, I immediately know that I was wrong. I admit that I am wrong to the other party and apologize, whether they do or not. I am very forgiving where others are concerned. And will give most 999 chances to do it again. I have a hard time forgiving myself and will carry guilt for a long time. I am an over thinker and I over analyze. I know that there is no way to go back and change the past, but I will sit and think about decisions I made 30 years… Read more »
This article is sadly reassuring for me to read. I have been sabotaging my life for years now, decades really. I have thrown away countless opportunities and relationships and all for some sick obsession with destroying my own life. I have drank myself into stupors, avoided social interactions, neglected friends and family, thrown away education opportunities and all in the name of some sick desire to feel justified in having and done nothing with the short amount of time we are afforded on this spinning rock. It’s like me throwing away my life is an excuse to not try so therefore I have never failed in anything that I truly love in life. I don’t know what my next step should be or whether I will be able to dig myself out of the hole I have put myself in at this point. I appreciate you posting this here though, it clears up a lot of questions about my self that I have had for some time. Thanx.
I just cancelled a date with this guy I really like for no other reason than I wouldn’t be in control if I went to his house. I hate myself for it.
I’ve been doing self destructive behaviors and mindsets since I was very little. But the most recent act really crushed me and involved another person who I care deeply about. If you could say I cared about them but I was…being destructive.. I’ve been wanting to repair a previous relationship with him and I had high hopes and believed that it was worth figuring out and pursuing. I then got the idea and assumed that he didn’t want anything to do with me, so, to protect myself, I put up a big barrier. I told him he was stupid, I projected my feelings about myself onto him. I told him to leave me alone. But, really he had been trying to offer me help. It wasn’t really help in the way I had been imagining, so I put up that barrier. We didn’t talk for four days, but I felt too anxious without apologizing. I needed him to know that I did not mean my words from the heart. I ended up hurting the both of us tremendously by putting up a wall. But at the time I thought I was protecting myself. And now that we have realized what… Read more »
This hits home and is an eye opener, especially from a relationship standpoint
I am looking for answers to help my neice. For some people simple knowing & understanding the 10 commandments is enough .I hear her say many things regarding God & blessings . Then turn around and do something against The 10 commandments.I guess it boils down to the individual person must make a conscientious commitment to change .its hard to see & feelings of helplessness .. I just want her to be on the right track .Ill share what I have read here .Thank you