In our society, there is a mysterious phenomenon occurring known as “Soul Loss” arising in all people of all ages, genders, races, and backgrounds.
Indigenous people have known about the occurrence of Soul Loss for millennia and understand it as the result of an inner fragmentation caused by a traumatic experience or an intense shock to the mind and body.
While for many of us Soul Loss sounds uncomfortably familiar, this experience is usually temporary, and with the proper inner work, these lost elements of ourselves can be reintegrated into our lives.
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What is Soul Loss?
When we experience Soul Loss, a part of our Soul – or living essence – ‘hides’ or shuts away, hindering us from expressing and experiencing our true potential and wholeness as human beings.
Often times entire aspects of our psyches are completely blocked out or repressed.
During my exploration of shamanism and its methods of soul retrieval, Soul Loss was defined as the experience of the Soul traveling to other realms or alternate realities, and often being possessed by spirits.
From the shamanic perspective, when these parts of our Souls are not recovered, we can’t seem to find inner completion or Wholeness.
Before psychology, this explanation was the only way primal cultures could explain (what we refer to in modern times as) trauma in order to find ways to treat it – and it was immensely effective at the time.
However, Soul Loss can now be approached from many different angles. We’ll explore these varying perspectives next.
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How Does Soul Loss Happen?
Sadly, in our modern world, Soul Loss is the rule rather than the exception.
As individuals, we lose connection with our souls (or True Nature) every time we identify with our egos and seek to feel whole again through addictions, stimulation seeking, dogmatic beliefs, conditional relationships, and workaholism.
But there’s a reason why we identify with the ego and disconnect from the Soul in the first place: it’s a survival mechanism.
We must develop a sense of self, a separate sense of “me” in the world in order to function.
But simultaneously, developing an ego (which is basically one big defense mechanism to ensure that we’re loved, accepted, taken care of, avoid pain, etc.) means that we lose touch with the authentic essence of who we truly are: the Soul.
As a result of Soul Loss, we begin experiencing symptoms of weakness, fatigue, depression, anxiety, and emptiness.
We just know that something is missing from our lives – but many of us struggle to discover what exactly is missing.
To understand Soul Loss as a loss, or disconnection, from the most vital parts of who we are is known in psychology as dissociation: the root of many mental illnesses.
The Psychology Behind Soul Loss
So how does the actual process of losing touch with our Soul happen, from a psychological standpoint?
When we become disconnected from the root of who we are, an imbalance is created within the psyche. This disconnection grows through time and can be intensified by traumatic circumstances that have a tendency to fragment the psyche.
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What happens when our psyches fragment? The answer is that individual parts of our personality (e.g., the shadow self, anima, animus, etc.) are made independent and thus escape the control of the conscious mind.
Lingering in the unconscious mind, these parts of us long to be integrated and to be made conscious, and can resort to extreme measures to get our attention (such as suicidal depression, self-destructive behavior, and explosive rage).
What happens when one of our psychological ‘complexes’ emancipates itself and becomes a tyrannical usurper of consciousness?
The result is an increasing feeling of being alienated from ourselves, life, and the Divine. We may live with fear, guilt, and shame as a constant backdrop to our lives.
And usually, we feel numb and empty inside, and a sense of hopelessness that we try to smother with work, family life, friendships, gossip, and various addictions.
Soul Loss is Also Known as Dissociation
Soul Loss, in a sense, is another way of saying dissociation.
If you’re familiar with basic psychology, you’ll know that dissociating means disconnecting or detaching from something, in this case, ourselves.
This disconnection happens as a result of a traumatic situation or environment that we’re subjected to.
It’s a defense mechanism that prevents us from totally shutting down and being incapable of functioning.
Here’s a (tragically very common) scenario of how dissociation works:
Imagine that a young child is molested or abused. In order to cope with the horrendous experience, the child escapes by dissociating or detaching themselves, from the situation.
In the process of protecting themselves, the child creates various alter egos, or entirely different personalities within themselves, as a defense mechanism.
In psychology, this is treated as “multiple personality disorder” (now known as Dissociative Identity Disorder).
It’s easy to understand how tribal cultures would have perceived this as a loss of the Soul.
But essentially, psychological dissociation is nature’s way of protecting ourselves against intense trauma and loss by blocking these wounding situations out.
But Soul Loss, or dissociation, is not limited to these extreme cases and can be found in different degrees in most people.
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Addictions, eating and identity disorders, post-traumatic stress, depression, codependency, narcissism, low self-esteem, and adjustment disorders are all common causes for (and symptoms of) Soul Loss in our superficial, fast-paced, materialistic modern societies that are mostly devoid of all sense of sacredness.
A young woman who dreams of being an artist but has to live up to her parent’s expectations of being a doctor will lose a little bit of her Soul, ignoring an essential part of her being.
Or suppose the young woman does go ahead and follows her dream of being an artist, but deep down, she still depends on her parent’s approval. She then either blames them to avoid taking responsibility for pursuing her passion, or she develops depression because she is not accepted by them.
This story might sound familiar to you.
Fortunately, there are many ways of rediscovering wholeness again. Most of the material Aletheia and I write for lonerwolf is a form of Soul Retrieval, where we help you to become aware of aspects within yourself that may be buried or lost.
We do this by encouraging the development of authenticity, self-exploration, self-love, and self-transformation. I’ll explore some common Soul Retrieval practices a little later.
But first, are you experiencing Soul Loss?
21 Signs You Might Be Experiencing Soul Loss
There are a variety of physical, psychological, and spiritual symptoms of Soul Loss.
When we experience Soul Loss – that is, parts of our Soul ‘hiding away’ or dissociating from us – the result is a loss in Soulful energy or the very vitality of our lives.
This loss of energy prevents us from living a healthy, fulfilling, and creative existence. Sometimes, Soul Loss can last for a whole lifetime, resulting in the development of a self-destructive person who we often refer to as a “Lost Soul” in our language.
To recover these lost parts of ourselves, and to become balanced, whole, and centered once again, we must first identify the symptoms of Soul Loss within us.
Below, you will find some of the most common symptoms of this core issue:
- Memories and parts of your life have been blocked out.
- You experience strong periods of depression.
- Parts within yourself feel missing or broken.
- You experience a general emotional numbness to life.
- Constant feelings of fear or anxiety plague you.
- You go through long periods of insomnia.
- You feel lost or incomplete.
- You feel like a ‘different person’ after a shocking or traumatic life event.
- You feel stuck or incapable of overcoming a certain issue in your life.
- You feel disappointed with life.
- You feel as though there are multiple ‘selves’ within you.
- You try to escape by turning to alcohol, drugs, sex, television, or excessive busyness.
- You feel unworthy of being loved.
- You are experiencing a dark night of the soul and/or spiritual emergency.
- You want to find your purpose and meaning in life.
- You feel like your daily life is meaningless and task-driven.
- You avoid feeling vulnerable and keep others at a distance.
- You long for wholeness and a sense of belonging.
- You sometimes feel that you’re not in control of yourself.
- You constantly feel mentally or physically fatigued for no medical reason.
- You thirst for authenticity and complete acceptance of yourself.
How many can you relate to? You’re welcome to share in the comments below.
Soul Loss & the Spiritual Awakening Journey
What happens after we experience Soul Loss? The answer is that usually, we go through an internal crisis (or Dark Night of the Soul) that leads to a deep spiritual awakening.
In fact, Soul Loss is typically what triggers an initiation into the mysteries of the inner world in the first place – it’s at the core of the spiritual wanderer’s journey.
Eventually, we get to a point where we just can’t continue living with a sense of existential emptiness and desolation any longer.
A thirst is then born deep inside of us to find our true destiny, place in the world, and meaningful connection with the Divine. Such is the beginning of our spiritual journey – the call to return Home.
How to Reconnect With Your Soul
For what shall it profit a man, if he gain the whole world, and suffer the loss of his soul?
– Jesus of Nazareth
Inner work or Soul Retrieval (ensoulment) practices are the best way to reconnect with your Soul.
This is because they take you on an internal adventure and channel your energy toward your deepest buried feelings, thoughts, and dreams, all of which carry vital parts of you.
There are a multitude of inner work practices out there. Some of those particularly suited to Soul Retrieval may include:
- Inner child work
- Shadow work
- Art therapy
- Dream work
- Mirror work
- Archetype work (also includes Internal Family Systems Therapy)
- Plant medicine journeying (undertake this with an experienced guide)
- Meditation and mindfulness exercises
- Visualization
- Keeping a journal
- Singing and chanting
- Nature immersion and ecotherapy
- Movement therapy (yoga, dancing, etc.)
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Choose a few areas you’re interested in and stick with them for a period of a year or more.
(However, ultimately, use your own judgment – and if you feel overwhelmed by any, stop immediately.)
This work takes dedication and sincerity, so go at a slow and steady pace. One day, you will look back on the moment you read this article and realize how far you’ve come!
Soul Loss Q&A
Here are the answers to some commonly asked questions:
Q: Is Soul Loss about losing your Soul – can I lose my Soul?
A: Soul Loss is about losing touch with your Soul. You cannot totally lose your Soul; it is always there in the background of your life, albeit, often times inaccessible due to the trauma you may have experienced. Many people misunderstand the term Soul Loss and believe that it means literally meaning losing your Soul. But instead, it’s about losing access to the vital core of you.
Q: How do you know if your Soul is gone?
A: Again, the Soul never ‘goes’ away, it just becomes hard to reach, hard to reconnect with. Common signs that you’ve experienced Soul Loss include anxiety, depression, emotional numbness, loneliness, emptiness, chronic fatigue, feelings of hopelessness, boredom, and profound dissatisfaction with life.
Q: Can Soul retrieval only be done with a shaman?
A: Although ‘Soul Retrieval’ is a shamanic term, it doesn’t need to be performed exclusively by a shaman. Psychotherapists, bodyworkers, and highly experienced trauma-informed spiritual healers can also provide Soul Retrieval help. Try to find someone reputable when it comes to Soul Retrieval, and most of all, trust your instincts. This is a sacred journey and requires guidance from a person who genuinely respects you and the process.
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$3Finding the fragments of yourself that are lost, restoring, and integrating them is to return to your innate wholeness – it is to restore the essential vitality that is your Soul, which is the essence of the journey of spiritual awakening.
To learn to slowly reintegrate the lost elements of your Soul through the practice of inner work (or Soul Retrieval) is to fulfill your potential as a divine being having a human experience.
If you would like to learn what to explore next after healing from Soul Loss, see our guide on Soul Work as a path to embodying divine love.
What has your experience been like with Soul Loss? I’d love to hear your story below.
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I remember when I was in my youth ages (5-9), I was carefree and in the moment. Me and My family all lived together in an apartment. Then by age 11 everyone (the adults) went to go start their lives. This family divorcé unbeknownst to me traumatized me. My mother abandoned me and three siblings at 13. This event traumatized me. That was the first time I was one way one day, then after the event I was noticeably different and emotionally numb. My failed marriage later and the actions I did ,or did not do during its course of my failed marriage, I chose to become a ”pod” version of myself even more, identifying with being a failure and being inherently defective. That young boy got covered up and I forgot who he was. I never thought this could happen. I remember the hope and peace of being unburdened when I was young. I didn’t have language to articulate it but it was there. I am going to get him.
As a child my father was a bully, mean and abusive. I have only one memory of being a small child of 2. My next memory is when I was 5 and ran away from home but I was found and returned to my parents. I vaguely remember my school day except when I was 6 and in grade one my teacher cracked my first 2 knuckles on my left hand because I am left handed because of her I could not write and failed grade one. The next and most tramatic story in my life my father molested me fom 10 to 17. I married an abusive husband who committed suiside 2 years after we were married. Like a lost soul I returned to my parents home while there my father raped me. I left home for good then. I never reported him because I was to scared. Years later I discovered all my sisters had been molested by him. I had 2 more failed marriages I am now in my sixties and I have a good man and great marriage. I can truly relate to a lost child hood. The father always but us down we were all dumb and he was the smartest one in the room, my sibilings and I never did fulfill our true protentional because of the physical , mental and sexual abuse. The brothers did not do any better because of the same physical and mentat abuse
Such wasted potential some people are given. Such opportunities wasted. It is very unfortunate that you had to go through all of that for that long. And I also understand the reasoning for not reporting him. Stay safe Denice.
Denise, as I read your story I could feel deep down that you had a very awful experience of life but I am grateful you found a good husband and found your center. Many blessings and love forever for you.
I started feeling this way last yr when I was 16. As it says I feel kind of lost and empty. I was molested by my own older brother at age 7, the one guy I trusted the most. I kind of ignored it my whole life and acted as if it never happened. And even now I know I should be feeling a certain way towards it but I still don’t know how to emotionally express myself about it. I guess this one break up at age 15 also left a dent in my soul. I know I was just a kid but I didnt know much about how people can betray you. I was cheated on by her 7 times and the sad thing was that I didn’t cry when she finally admitted to cheating on me because I already knew she was. I guess it was my fauly for putting half of my soul into her and trusting her too fast. My father has always treated me like a child. He never takes me seriously. He has never called me by my name once besides one interview with my highschool. He calls me “little boy” or “stinky dog”. He even made fun of my printmaking award I got first place in. I dont know, I guess those are my blue prints to my emptiness. I don’t really know who I am anymore. I have friends but I feel like I dont fit in. I change my personality in front of anyone I meet so it fits their liking. If anyone I know was reading this right now they would be shocked or think I’m depressed and just get over it. Nobody really genuinely cared about who I really was on their own will besides my mother I guess. But with her old school mentality even she can’t fully understand and relate to what I talk about so I’m alone. Even my school councillor I see every now and then doesn’t really help. All he does is get amazed by the fact I’m somewhat different than the teens in my school and that I have a “great mind”. I can’t bring up topics I like to anyone because they’ll think it’s boring, weird, uninteresting or just simply dont care. I dont know how I ended up like this, or what is even happening to me. I need guidance or just someone to tell me what to do to fix this. I need help, I want to be a normal kid again.
I can relate to your experience . In a different way, I had similar experiences and very often felt weird or that I didn’t belong.
With the abuse you suffered your souls might have become fragmented and a portion (subperspnality) stayed in the shade. What worked for me is imagining that subpersonality on font of me let her speak to me about her feelings and fears. And in my imagination hug her and tell her that at the end of the road everything is Ok.
imagine a mountain and invite this sub personality to climb it with you along with an angel of light or a very high guide. Go to the top of the mountain and see the world from a different perspective. Ask the guide or angel to heal you and your sub personality. See how your sub personality transforms completely and invite this part of you to work with you to create a happy abundant and radiant life.
very often evolved souls like you pick hard lessons like yours to evolve even more. The hardest times, the most difficult people and situations are often our biggest teachers. We’re not victims, we are souls learning and growing. There’s so much love in the Universe for you, there’s so much love in your soul. You are loved, you are LOVE. Know it, feel it embody it. Sending you a wave of very high vibes.
Gertrude Marie 💖
Thank you Marie. I’ve been having slow progress enjoying my alone time and enjoying my old usual dumb fun again. I’m starting to convince myself that I can change and that there are more things in my life that can make me happier. There is still the sense of emptiness and awkwardness when I talk to my friends or hang out with them. It will take some time to get that subpersonality back and it might not even be the same as before. But I will try and accept myself again. Thank you for the kind words. I appreciate it.
Keep going, don’t give up. I lost my soul age 9 and I’ve had decades of numbing out on various addictions & distractions while lost & searching for…I didn’t know what. I had lost, rejected, abandoned myself, my soul. Fight for it, stay within, do you work, don’t pick up addictions to numb yourself because you are then further lost & have much further to go to reconnect. Best of luck.
I’m actually looking for a way to take my soul out of existence or in other words kill it I understand there is a ritual for this can anybody tell me where to find it and how to find it I am effing done
There’s no such thing as a soulless person, I’d consider exploring your motivations for wanting to do such a thing as I feel they’ll be illuminating in guiding you toward healing.
You may be referring to your ego rather than your soul. I am currently on that journey and working with a Shaman/energy healer. It’s been enlightening and very profound. This is coming from a skeptic. But I would recommend to anyone.
Are you talking about should exchange, a walk-out to allow your soul to leave and heal while another soul volunteers to take over your physical life? I am seeking this as well. I have found some information about walk-ins. I would love to hear if Mateo knows a method to contract with another soul or a ritual from a shaman. We all have free will, we should be able to walk out when our soul needs more repair than this 3D experience can provide.
Thanks Done for the question, I think a lot of the confusion is coming from how we exactly are defining ‘Souls’ which Judeo-Christian cultures treat as some discarnate entity that can live on, and by extrapolation, can also ‘shift’ into other bodies, or become ghosts etc.. This is not what we refer to as a Soul.
We’ve explored what we define as Soul throughout our work (like in this article) here: https://lonerwolf.com/what-is-a-soul/ I hope that helps.
There whenever someone refers to being soulless, they’re actually referring to your soul being in hibernation because it’s literally your Life source and it’s immortal, your soul could not be destroyed for killed or damaged. If you quiet your soul or manage to use trauma we’re emotional pain to block it from communicating with your soul or aka your higher self or aka your subconscious you. I have been meditating because I’m currently experiencing a Kundalini Awakening and I have a twin flame and we are here for a purpose. When someone has a life like yours that is a big sign of something bigger. I think you will find purpose again and inner peace if you were to practice meditation daily, if you forgive certain people for doing something like letting you down or not being there for you those things are forgivable and it would be the most effective for your well-being if you could do something similar to that. You should also practice gratefulness and of course stick to your morals. You should work out as well or find some kind of physical activity that will keep your body moving so that you can communicate with the universe. I was never a spiritual person and over 200 lb and I didn’t remember much of my life until I haf my awakening and all my memories flooded back and I had this new drive to where I work out 3 hours a day and I quit my job and I left my boyfriend of four years because I was guided to do those things in order to better myself so that I could be who I was meant to be in this life. It also unlocked gifts like clairvoyance and claire audience, even my physical features have changed quite a bit and my skin went on a purge for a few months and completely cleared up after I stopped eating fast food. I have this deep intense sense of inner peace and I have complete control over my emotions because of the meditations and I can communicate with my subconscious in order to learn new things or prevent bad decisions for myself. I wish nothing but the best for you and I wish there was something further I could help you with but I hope you’re doing okay.
Reading this I realized I experienced soul loss at a very young age due to a traumatic experience. I have been told by therapist that my subconscious is blocking the worst of my trauma. However I managed to bring that part of my soul back during my teen years. I still do not know what my subconscious is blocking and figure it was blocked for a reason and have decided to leave it blocked.
Since then I believe I have experienced a significant amount of soul loss. Over a time span of four years from 2018 to 2021, I have lost a lot of loved ones. Some were from my own doing and I have since mended the relationships I caused myself to loose. I struggle greatly with one loss in particular though, because it is my fault that I feel the way I do and have felt since I lost my grandmother to cancer. My grandma was my heart, she was the one there for me when no one else was, she was more a mom to me then a grandmother. September 19th she was in the hospital and that’s when we found out she had cancer. I was there and remember crying and holding on to her and telling her she could not leave me that she had to fight no matter what, she agreed. When the Doctor came in and said the cancer she had was treatable but not curable and if she was going to fight to treat this cancer then she would have to be strong. That night was the last night I saw my grandma alive. I told myself I needed to stay away so she would not worry for me and see how depression was taking a tight grip on me. Also that if I was around I would weaken her since my family and I were at odds and all we would do is fight. She didn’t need that. December 24th I dropped my kids off at my family’s Christmas celebration deciding it was still better for me not to be around the family because we were still at odds and it would just ruin my grandma’s Christmas. After picking the kids up, they told me my grandma was doing good but was upset with me for not going to the Christmas because shes still my grandma misses and loves me. My depression was under control and I was feeling like myself again, so I made up my mind I was going to visit her after Christmas. Early in the morning a little after midnight December 26th I was playing a video game with my kids on their new Nintendo switch when I received a call from my mom. “Grandma’s gone, Your aunt found her on her bed not breathing”. I quickly stood up from my seat, bending the metal bars of the chair in the process, ran out side to my front yard falling to my knees unable to stand, I looked up at the night sky and screamed. I felt a piece of me rip away, I still struggle with self loathing and disgust. I made the distance between my grandma and I, no matter what I told myself or how I tried to justify my reasons for doing so, it was and is my fault I was not around and I have not been the same since. I thought that piece of my soul died when my grandma passed. So I guess the reason for writing all this is, how do I get that piece of my soul back? If it involves forgiving myself, I’m not sure that will ever be possible, at least not until I meet my grandma again one day and beg her forgiveness and she tells me herself I’m forgiven.
❤️ part of you that is with your grandmother has gone “home” with her. The rest of it is still inside you, and needs your forgiveness. When you are ready. Loss is hard. Lost both grandparents and another dear person within the course of a year, myself. You can draw on their strength & they are still watching over you and loving you, Heather.
God puts you where you need to be. I could have been by my Mom . Cancer took her. I felt led not to be there. God had a reason. Maybe we would not have handled it in the correct way. Could have saved us from a worse future. Prayers for you. I have been there.
I just want to say….. if one does not know the right questions to ask … the answers cannot be. I have talked to people before, and have found no resolve. My entire life to this point has been an emptiness that could not be filled. My young years were not the best, and not happy. Today… my two marriages have failed…and breaks my heart the most. The 2nd most recently. There is so much more… I am at fault for part of this and at the very least the expected reactions for my own actions… and lack thereof. I knew we were a spiritual being, but this…. I was unaware. I cannot go back in time, I don’t think anyone I know of can…. but I wish that I could. All I can do is move forward with this knowledge and one day become whole. Thank You.
Thank you for bringing this topic to life. I recently went through several losses in my life ( all very close in timing to each other). The result has been the equivalent of. “chaining a beautiful wolf, pulling his fangs and then beating him as he cannot escape”
I became a creature that I did not recognize. I am struggling to link the past with the present and am terrified to look forward.
However, I REALIZE what has happened now, and, that is a HUGE positive.
I have begun to reach out, I have begun to care again, I want to love myself and my home again.
I am forever different now, and, that in itself, is not a terrible thing. I still
absolutely feel moments of pain and remorse, but, it does come with a gift to protect me in the future.
The gift of “being able to establish BOUNDARIES.”.
My boundaries were never properly set by myself, this enabled people to get within my safety zone and seriously manipulate me.
This manipulation brought about some very horrendous actions which wounded me beyond belief.
Due to the fact that I was accountable for many elements, I had to stay and weather the beating.
Now, I am FINALLY off of that chain!
For a while, I just sat there in a daze.
I had no idea what to do, much less, how to care for my damaged self.
I am now trusting a few special souls to help me heal.
I am gathering my resources and looking to see which areas need my attention and love first
I rest a lot, I reflect a lot, I still spend much time on my own.
I am regrouping, regrowing and caring for myself.
I move slowly and cautiously, I still spook easily and I am very suspicious.
These are gifts given to me from the experiences that I had.
Not what one would call ” gifts” at first glance, but, they are integral to establishing and maintaining boundaries
Today I sit in my home, it is raining and very peaceful.
I am resting and acknowledging that I am still vulnerable and tired, but, I am gaining strength and have more and more moments of peace.
The greater the passion the more
painful the fall. The greater the gift, the more people with unsavory intentions search for you.
The boundaries you need to set MUST be strong
Thank you for sharing your powerful experience Kristie, I completely agree that healthy boundaries are one of the most healing practices we can bring into our lives. 💜
All of those symptoms of Soul Loss I am experiencing. I keep going through situations that are traumatizing every day with no way out. I’ve never felt more alone in my life. I grew up in a toxic family and now keep getting in toxic relationships. I don’t understand how people can be so evil. I love the whole world, it hurts me in ways I cannot describe when people are mean to one another and myself. Tonight I cried so hard it feels like my soul is shattering. I’m so lost.
I’m sorry you’re going through that Katie. Over the years I’ve grown to accept a lot of the people we perceive as evil are really also just wounded.
The only way out of these patterns of repeating old familiar toxic relationship dynamics is to begin healing ourselves, that’s what a lot of the inner work on this website is a bout.
I wish you well.
I have dealt with soul loss my entire life. I have been diagnosed with multiple personalities and just recently i have felt this intense urge to learn how to deal with it and other issues on a emotional, mental and spiritual level vs what modern medicine has done for me, which has not been much. Started after the death of my ex and him coming to me in my dreams trying to tell me something. Since i started this journey he has not been in my dreams.
I have had the same thing with various people trying to tell me things in my dreams. My mother used to “scream” my name but then I have no idea what she was trying to say. Did you ever figure out what they were trying to tell you?
Thanks,
T.H.
I can relate to 19 of those 21, easily. I am so lost after the death of my daughter. I am heartbroken.
I am so sorry, I can’t even imagine the depths of pain you must be experiencing. I don’t think there is anything that can heal the heartbreak of losing a child, there is a book called Journey of Souls that can give you perspective on her journey.